So. First Fatherâs Day I decided to spend without my dad. And from Day 1 of being in this fandom, I have always admired everyoneâs favorite rat dad. Imperfect though Master Splinter is, he always proves himself to be a savvy sensei and a supportive dad. I always admired that in the dude, and looked up to his character so much as a kid.
So today I thought long and hard, and found what I loved about Splinter. Here (along with my drawings) are my conclusions.
He is a listening ear, and a source of gentle support when he witnesses his sons struggling, even (especially) with obstacles they must ultimately face alone.
He learns and appreciates the intricacies of each of his boysâ personalities, and believes undoubtedly that they can succeed in whatever they put their mind to.
He finds ways to share in his sonsâ joys, finding his own way to relate to them, and in turn they want to make him proud with what they achieve.
He acts fearless, even when he doesnât feel it. His character, at the end of the day, is there to protect his sons, and do his best to teach them how to protect themselves one day.
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cute thought: Y/N doesn't meet the turtles first, she actually meets Master Splinter.
Something happens.
The lair is attacked and, in the midst of the fight, Splinter is taken. Badly hurt, he still manages to escape his captors and wanders the city, calling out for his sons in his delirium before collapsing.
Which is how you found him.
Walking home one night, you heard something above the music in your earbuds...a weak, frightened voice of an old man, calling out for "his sons." Something crashes in an alleyway and you follow the sound.
Admittedly, seeing a giant rat was shocking.
But this is NYC and giant rats aren't too shocking, are they? Just another day in the city, TBH. And he's so scared and so hurt, mumbling names softly...and you can't turn your back on him. Luckily, you don't live too far and you're able to help him into your apartment.
There's no calling the cops or an ambulance, obviously, but luckily you have enough first aid knowledge to help him. It takes a few days of taking care of him until the rat wakes up completely, confused and worried as he tries to get up.
"Don't," you tell him softly as you come into the room. "Don't move too quickly, you'll hurt yourself."
"Where am I? Who...who are you?"
"I'm Y/N."
And that's how you before Splinter, as learn his name, taking care of him a little longer. He likes tea and soap operas and reminds you of your grandfather with his wisdom and wry sense of humor. It isn't long until he's gathered himself enough to figure out a way to contact his sons, the one's he told you about.
Leonardo, Michelangelo, Donatello, and Raphael.
They're exactly as he described them, Splinter smiling as soon as he heard movement on the rooftop, four absolutely giant turtles clambering in through the balcony window.
"Father!"
They're all around him at once, worried and trying not to cry (but definitely crying a little), Splinter comforting his boys and crying a little bit too.
And that was how you got tangled up in thier lives, befriending the father before befriending the sons.
â Little Things â
â You and Splinter like a lot of the same shows. Sometimes you watch together (particularly if it's a season finale or holiday special or something) but typically, you watch separately at your homes and then talk about it on the phone.
"I can't believe she tried to seduce Raul!"
"I can," Splinter scoffs.
â You have tea time together as well, and talk about everything going on in your lives. Even though you think your life is boring compared to his, Splinter disagrees. He's very interested in the typical life of a human, it seems so different from his.
â He will insist on you learning at least some basic self defense, especially in this city.
â When he realizes that one of his sons has developed feelings for you, Splinter is rooting for ot to happen so you can be his daughter-in-law.
â When it does happen, the other turtles like to joke that you're his favorite child sometimes.
can I request the Bayverse! Boys if they were to have a baby? Maybe splinters reaction to having a grandchild?
donât forget to drink and take breaks!
Hii anon!! Hope youâre doing good aswell! I have a few requests in my inbox on this topic. Some said if the reader is pregnant, one if the reader is in labor, and the majority if they had a newborn. So, Iâm just going to use yours and post it here. Sorry for not posting in a while, Iâm now bouncing back đŤśđź
Bay! Turtles if they had a newborn baby.
Comfortably, you and your partner return home with your baby. Going to your home, it was time for his dad to see his grandchild. What would be Splinter's reaction!?
Zero warnings here.
Just some family fluffđ Bay turtles
Implied that the turtles are in a relationship (separate!).
Leo
He brought her straight to your shared bedroom, where you were resting under a heavy pile of blankets. Looking up, exhausted but smiling, you watched him position himself at the entrance of the room like a sentinel. The moment the baby let out a tiny, soft whimper, Leoâs rigid posture shattered. He immediately unbuckled her, pulling her flesh against his chest and humming a low, rumbling frequency that vibrated through his shell. You softly let out a breath, your heart swelling as you watched his massive frame instantly soften to soothe your daughter back to sleep.
He remained standing right beside your bedside, frozen in his protective vigil, until a slow, deliberate step broke the silence. Splinter entered the quiet room, his long robes sweeping the floor. Leonardo stood up taller, holding his newborn daughter with a rigid posture born of nervousness, though he cast a quick, reassuring glance down at you first. He was starting to calm down.
"Sensei," Leo whispered, his voice cracking slightly. "Meet your granddaughter."
Splinter approached the bed and looked down at the tiny girl. He did not immediately reach out. Instead, he placed a warm, furry hand over Leoâs massive, trembling knuckles while reaching out his other hand to gently rest over yours on the mattress, tethering your new little family together. He closed his eyes and inhaled deeply, sensing the fierce, protective aura vibrating off his eldest son and the quiet warmth coming from you.
"You hold her as you hold your katana blades, Leonardo, with honor and absolute defense," Splinter murmured, opening his dark eyes, which shone with immense pride. "But look closely. She is safe. Relax your shoulders. You are no longer just a leader to your brothers; you are leading your own family."
With a gentle nudge, Splinter guided Leo's arms into a softer cradle. You leaned up slightly against your pillows, offering Leo an encouraging nod as he finally let his shoulders drop. Splinter then extended a single clawed finger, touching the babyâs tiny, smooth shell. The infant let out a soft sigh, and Splinter bowed his head, a single tear disappearing into his gray whiskers.
"The line is unbroken," the old master whispered, looking between you and his son with a soft smile. "She will be strong, because she is yours."
"She has her father's heart, Splinter," you said softly, your voice thick with emotion as you squeezed the old rat manâs hand. You looked up at Leo, whose eyes were bright with unshed tears. "And with you and Leo guiding her, sheâll never have to doubt how safe she is. She's going to be so loved."
Leo swallowed hard, his gaze shifting from the baby to you, a brilliant, breathless smile finally breaking through his tense expression. "We'll make sure of it," he murmured.
Raph
Raph spent the hours before your arrival pacing, snapping at his brothers to stay quiet, but the moment you both finally walked through the door, he froze. The sheer size difference between the massive brawler and the tiny bundle was overwhelming. He stood back, crossing his arms and pretending to look tough, but his eyes were wide and completely glued to his newborn son.
He followed you straight back to his room, pacing like a caged beast. You settled onto the edge of the mattress, exhausted but watching him with a soft smile. He held the baby boy tightly against his massive chest armor, his face twisted into a fierce scowl of pure, protective anxiety.
When you reached out and gently asked him to relax, he panicked, backing up against a brick wall. "He won't stop crying," Raph growled softly, his voice thick with frustration and exhaustion as he looked down at you. "I'm tryin', but my hands are too big. I'm gonna break him."
Before you could stand to help him, a slow, familiar step echoed at the doorway. Splinter entered the quiet room, his long robes sweeping the floor. Raph looked up at his father defensively, as if expecting a lecture.
Splinter let out a soft, rumbling chuckle that instantly cut through the tension. He stepped close, forcing Raph to stop pacing. Splinter reached up, his small hands gently lifting the tiny, squirming baby boy away from Raph's spiked armor, while extending his other hand to rest warmly over yours, bringing you both into the moment.
"A fatherâs strength is not measured by the force of his fist, Raphael, but by the gentleness of his touch," Splinter said softly.
He cradled the infant close to his chest, humming a low, ancient melody. You leaned forward, watching as the babyâs cries dwindled into soft whimpers, finally falling fast asleep against the old masterâs robes.
Splinter looked up at his second son, whose tough exterior had completely melted into watery-eyed awe, and then gave you a knowing, affectionate smile. With absolute care, Splinter placed the sleeping baby back into Raphâs massive arms, while you guided his leather-wrapped forearms into a proper cradle shape.
As the tiny weight settled onto his biceps, Raph froze entirely, terrified to breathe. But as you leaned against his shoulder to reassure him, a soft, involuntary purr rumbles in his throatâa sound the brothers hadn't heard since he was a tot.
Splinter smiled deeply at the sound, patting Raph's massive shoulder. "See? He knows your heart is soft, my son. Do not fear your own strength. It is the very shield he needs."
"We'll protect him together, Raph," you whispered softly, squeezing his arm. Raph looked between you and his sleeping boy, his fierce scowl completely replaced by a tender, breathless grin.
Donnie
You and Donnie went to the hidden garage entrance, wearing a pristine, white lab coat over his gear. He immediately ran a handheld air-quality sensor over the baby carrier to ensure the sewer air filtration system he built was working perfectly before guiding you inside.
Instead of going to the usual living spaces, he led you straight into his lab, directing you to a newly constructed, soundproofed corner that he had meticulously transformed into a sterile, cozy nursery. You settled into a comfortable chair he had set up for you, exhausted but amazed by his dedication.
Donnie was frantically adjusting a custom tablet, analyzing data strings of his newbornâs vitals while the baby slept peacefully in a high-tech bassinet. He presented you with the screen, eagerly pointing out the automated tracking charts. While he was explaining the exact decibel levels of his custom white-noise machine, the baby stirred. She reached out from her blankets and wrapped her tiny fingers right around his tech-glove wire. Very loosely, but her father in awe.
Donnie stopped talking mid-sentence. His jaw dropped as he stared down at his hand, completely abandoning his lecture to just admire his child.
In the lab, the rhythmic chiming of medical monitors filled the air as Donnie quickly snapped back into panic mode, staring at the flashing lights. Splinter stepped up behind his third son, placing a firm hand on his shoulder while casting a warm, welcoming look toward you.
"Donatello, please turn off the screens."
"But Splinter, the oxygen saturation levels fluctuated by 0.2 percent andâ" Donnie started, his glasses slipping down his snout in his panic.
Splinter gently but firmly took the tablet from Donnieâs hands and set it face down on the desk. He then walked over to the bassinet, carefully lifted your baby girl, and walked back to where Donnie sat right beside you. Splinter placed the warm bundle directly into Donnieâs lap, while reaching down to gently pat your hand, anchoring the two of you together.
"Look at her, Donatello. Not at the numbers," Splinter instructed softly.
Donnie froze, staring down at the tiny, breathing miracle in his arms. As if hearing her father's voice, the baby opened her eyes, looking up at him with intelligent, dark eyes. Splinter smiled, leaning over his son's shoulder.
"Science can explain how she breathes, but it cannot explain the magic of her existence. You cannot calculate love, my son. Put down the data, and simply be her father."
Donnieâs shoulders finally dropped. He let out a long, shaky breath, letting the data slide completely out of his mind. You leaned your head against his shoulder, watching as he finally relaxed and leaned down to press his snout against his daughterâs forehead.
"She's perfect, Donnie," you whispered softly, reaching over to rest your hand over his. "No bugs, no errors. Just perfect."
Donnie swallowed the lump in his throat, keeping his eyes glued to her face. "Yeah," he murmured, his voice thick with awe. "The coding on this one is absolutely flawless.
Mikey
After you and Mikey cleaned up the baby and prepared yourselves to introduce him to the family, the homecoming became an exercise in suppressed excitement. Mikey had to be physically restrained by his brothers from throwing a full welcome party with banners and confetti. He settled for a handmade, brightly colored "Welcome Home" sign taped to the turnstiles instead.
The moment you both walked through the door, he tiptoed up to you on his knees, his eyes sparkling with unshed tears as he peeked under the blanket. The moment the baby opened his eyes, Mikey let out a gasp, high-pitched whisper of, âlook, he has your eyes." He immediately offered his pinky finger for the baby to hold, gently swaying side-to-side and whispering a list of all the comic books and video games they were going to play together when he grew up.
He practically floated as he led you back to his room, which was cozy and filled with the sounds of a cartoon playing on low volume. You sank into a pile of oversized floor pillows to rest your tired body, smiling as Mikey immediately got down on the carpet. Surrounded by plush toys, he eagerly showed a colorful comic book to his newborn son, who had drifted back to sleep.
"Dad look at him!" Mikey beamed as Splinter slipped inside the room, a warm smile instantly gracing the old master's face. Mikey carefully scooped up the baby and held him up like a proud trophy for his father to see. "Heâs got my smile, right? And look at his little webbed toes. We're gonna build the ultimate blanket fort later."
Splinter knelt down on the floor beside his youngest son and you, an old bone popping as he did so. He reached out to lift the baby into his arms, letting the little boy rest against his gray fur while using his free hand to gently pat your knee, pulling you close into the circle.
The baby instantly twitched in Splinter's arms, his tiny hand reaching up to grab a lock of the old rat's beard. Splinter let out a joyful, raspy laugh, his eyes crinkling with pure delight.
"He possesses your light, Michelangelo. For many years, your joy has kept this family alive in the darkest of places. Now, you have a new light to nurture."
Splinter leaned forward, pressing his forehead against the babyâs, then looked up at Mikey and you with profound tenderness. "Never let the world take away your playfulness. It is the greatest gift you will give to him."
"We won't, Master Splinter," you said softly, leaning into Mikey's side and wrapping your arm around his shoulders. "Between the two of them, I think our home is always going to be full of laughter."
Splinter smiled deeply, carefully passing the sleeping bundle back into Mikey's arms. Mikey held his son close to his chest, the usual hyperactive energy melting into a soft, glowing warmth as he looked from the baby up to you.
"Always," Mikey whispered, his voice quiet and thick with emotion. "We're gonna be the happiest family ever."
Hii guys, I hope you're all doing amazing! I tried hard with this one. Iâm not a mom, but I have younger siblings, so I tried my best to capture them if they had a newborn. Reading other peopleâs headcanons helped me a lot. I would rather melt my brain to get this done than use AI slop. (FYI we donât use/support ai in this blog just so we are clear). Anyways, I also think that Leo is a girl dad, but I think thatâs another head canon for another post đ take care everyone, stay safe đ
Honestly I think heâs one of the best versions of Splinter. He has 2012âs protectiveness and skill, and he also has 2003âs caring nature. Heâs a REALLY good dad in both movies and it shows- heâs patient but firm with Raph, understanding with Mikey and Donnie, and very guiding with Leo in the 2nd movie. The parts where they actually called him âDadâ were really sweet.
My one complaint about him is part of his origin. It was really cool seeing the Turtles be lab experiments at first, (since, as you all can guess, I love experiment AUs and OCs) and I liked that part a lot, but with the part of how he learned Ninjstu it just felt really disappointing. Same with MM Splinter, having him know/learn Ninjstu from a book or movies he found in the sewers just feels really out-of-character for him. Not to mention, Ninjstu is an actual HUGE part of Japanese culture and traditions, so honestly having it learned from mainstream, popcorn flicks than actual genuine culture like 2012 Splinter just feels kinda iffy. (I really donât wanna call it cultural appropriation and blow it out of proportion, but in some ways it feels like that a little.)
Other than that, I really like Bayverse Splinter and I wish there had actually been a 3rd movie where there was more to his origin, like him actually being owned by a ninja master from Japan before being sold to the lab. That would make more sense than just him learning the secrets of the universe from a basic ninja book he found in the sewers, yâknow?
Okay. These guys live in a sewer. All versions of them. I thought of this after watching those funny fart spray prank videos. They've smelled the worst of the worst for years. From soggy, moldy diapers to your ex boyfriend's cheap and nasty cologne that you threw out onto the street. To Mikey's gassy moment that one night they returned to the lairđ¤Łđ¤Łđ¤Ł. I think ya'll know where this is about to go.
Leonardo
Having a human girlfriend was never on his list
That includes one who enjoys pranks like his little brother
He was meditating in his room when you peaked in to check on him
This was the perfect opportunity to mess with him
His eyes were closed, silent, in the zone
Though he sensed you, he did not sense what you were about to do
You pulled out the spray, press 2 times and left him alone
When the smell hit him, he scrunched his nose, his body goes rigid
His brain short circuits, for 3 seconds he doesn't move
He starts to struggle keeping his posture, then the smell intensifies
He gets up, leaves his room and starts looking around for the one responsible for planting stink bombs in his room
He found you in a corner, snickering with the spray in your hands
'Busted!'
"You didn't" Long pause,"That's a war crime in twelve countries!"
That was his way of saying what you did was an act of betrayal and a gut punch to his honor
The face he was making would've saturated your underwear but he was not "down to clown" after what you did
His snout wrinkled involuntarily but calmly asked you to hand over the spray
"Consider toilet cleaning duty for an entire week, your punishment. I'll give this to Donnie to put in an undisclosed place so you Do Not get anymore ideas."
At that point, you got your giggles out and took your punishment like a boss
After a week of cleaning up the toilet and being forced to smell their crap, he forgave you
He won't admit it, but he was impressed by your stealth in a way
He cuddled you after patrol, whispering in your ear
"Be grateful I wasn't in one of those blow up suits. Otherwise, you'd be doing more than cleaning toilets. You'd be cleaning Raph and Mikey's room." He chuckled
You gagged at that
Raphael
You're either rotten to the core or quite a risk taker to pull any pranks with this deadly teddy bear
He was a tricky one because Mikey's been taunting him a lot lately so you had to be creative
Hes been at it in the gym and fixing his bike, so hes been on an adrenaline high
He needed to take a break and you needed some nookie
It was easy working the moves on him since he was a frickin' dog every time you shook that naturally formed donk
After an hour of rough whoopie, he fell asleep
You went into action digging through your shorts, took out the spray and did a few spritz
You got up, left the room and waited for him to awaken
It did not take long at all as he jolted up out of bed, stark naked and started flipping his script
If he was lifting his weights mid rep, that floor would be destroyed because he would drop it in an instant
He started hollaring,"WHAT DA ACTUAL CRAP!!!!*coughing* THAT"S DISGUSTING!!!"
He would violently gag, cough and wheeze at the smell, even his eyes watered
You started to feel like crap because he actually threw up
'Maybe I sprayed too much. Note to self, only do 1 spritz. Not 5!' How were you supposed to know how strong this stuff is?
He'd see you peaking in on him, taking the hint
"YOU! YA LITTLE SNEAK! YOU DID DIS!!!??? WHAT WOMAN SMELLS LIKE DAT!!?? COME ERE!!!!!"
He was so annoyed, he burst out of his room in his birthday suit chasing you around the lair with the intent on spanking you
You dropped the spray, Raph sees and wonders whose dumb idea was it to make a fart spray and for how much
The chase came to a halt when you crawled into a tunnel he couldn't fit in
He gave you a warning,"Ya got me now! But best believe I'm gettin' ya back with the real thing!"
Hes standing there yelling at a tunnel then turns around to see Master Splinter behind him
"Have you not outgrown the naked party faze, Raphael?"
Raph looks down, embarrassed, covers himself and gets back to his room
Time flies, he contacts you
"Please don't still be mad at me. I'm really sorry. It was just a joke. I hope you're feeling better."
To your amazement, he reacted differently
"Nah, I ain't mad at ya. Ya outdid Mikey dats fer sure. But, Imma still get ya back, my lil stink pot"
His cackles made you shiver
'He can't smell any worse than that spray! Can he?'
Donatello
Hes been working on and cleaning the truck
Getting fed up with Mikey using it as his private sex room
You came along with the intent on making him feel better
He politely suggested you relax in his room until he is finished
That didn't last long as you started plotting
Unbeknownst to him, you planted little fart devices around the truck
You learned a thing or 2 from watching Donnie and you were determined to get him
You kept watch as he circled the truck, then he stopped in the area where one of the devices was planted
With a Cheshire grin, you pressed a button, and unleashed a cloud of pure stank
He was unfazed at first because he lives in a sewer so hes used to fowl smells, then you took it up a notch and pressed it again to set off the other devices
However, as soon as he inhales, the sneeze fest started
"Achoo. What the.....that has to be the most foul scent I ever had to deal with!"
He starts gagging a little, looking directly at the device that sprayed him
He starts analyzing, using his handheld scanner to identify the chemical composition and study the device
Hes more fascinated and amused than disgusted or upset
You came out of the corner as hes wiping his eyes from the fumes, not emotions
"What do you think of my device? I've invented it so that it can be controlled by remote control, diffusing any substance you so choose. You've also been pranked, My Love." You smirk at him
After looking over the device, he finally spoke
"Marvelous!" He compliments,"Not the pranking part, but very lethal the substance you placed in the device, but an amazing form of technology that could be beneficial during certain missions. Well Done, Love. Well Done."
He has dismissed the fact that hes been pranked, wanting to know more about how you designed the device
You and him talk for a while, however your prank had a con to it
Not only did it spread in his garage, it spread throughout the lair!!
Everyone who was present came to the garage demanding to know what Donnie did
After explaining what happened, Splinter scolded you good
Donnie gave his own little reminder,"My advice to you, My Sweet. Is to sleep with one eye open tonight."
He was either gonna create something more lethal or shut off your electricity and Wi-Fi to your place
Michelangelo
He is the Prank Master
He may even be more tricky than Raph since hes the clown of the group
You and him were in a prank off for the week
The others wanted no part of it so you were pranking each other throughout the lair
It started small with shaken sodas to whoopie cushions
Medium: hand buzzers to switching sugar to salt
Large: filling bedroom with rubber ducks to covering his room with glitter
He was ahead of you so you had to up the ante
Spending $15.99 on a fart spray is not your best choice but you had to get the upper hand against your turtle lover
He was eating his pizza in peace, reading his comics when you acted
You carefully sprayed once a few inches away from him and waited
To your shock, he didn't react right away, so you sprayed some more
He swallowed his pizza, took in a big breath and gagged
"Oh my.....Dang! That's dangerous! Smells like Raph and Leo after fighting for a week straight in the junkyard with skunks as their audience!"
He was hype, being goofy, being more dramatic then those women from those stupid reality shows
"Aww. If this is what Ed's room (from Ed, Edd, N Eddy) smells like? Not even Raph's farts smell like that!! Whoooo Weeee!"
He was even laughing through it, sneezing a little
Dude is used to so much it's not even funny
Finally you came clean,"Gotcha. Hope you enjoyed the new 'air freshener,' Baby. HAHAHAHA!" You tossed the fart spray at him
He laughed with you, then he brought you into a tight hug
"Ya got me, Babe." He surrendered,"You are The Prank Master of the Lair! Congratulations!"
You and him share a kiss, his brothers standing off in the distance wondering what kind of kink you and Mikey are into these days
Bonus: Splinter's Reaction
Just like ya mama smelt your crap since you were young
He had to put up with and smell the turtle's crap
So for you to bring that fart spray into the lair and spray it, is ridiculous
He'll take one whiff and assume it was Mikey
When he finds out it was you pulling a prank, he'll let out a deep sigh
He will call those turtles and you into his quarters, laying it on them as calm as he possibly can despite the distasteful odor
"I did not survive the Foot and The Shredder's attack to die of olfactory assault in my own home." He scolded,"There will be extra meditation. All Of You."
You will do as your told, unless you want your behind whipped too by that dangerous tail of his
He will shuffle away to his bonsai garden, muttering about 'the youth of today.
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Bay! Splinter is rather cute compared to the other mammalian mutants and would have the easiest time with humans if he ever got caught by a group of them
Special thanks to @the-cauldron-witch for taking the time to beta-read this!
Part 1
Bay Raph x female OC aged up characters.
No TW for this
Summary: Both Raph and Chrissy are still struggling with their feelings and decide to talk things out. Will a tentative date at their favourite bar be just what they need?
There might be a part 3!
A strangled smile fell from your face.
What kills me that I hurt you this way.
The recent reconnection with Chrissy had been weighing heavily on Raph. His mind was a jumble of thoughts, guilt, apprehension, uncertainty, and maybe a slight bit of hope. He didnât know what the hell to do. He knew he missed her, that sheâd just gotten out of a bad situation and probably needed some time to process things. He was overthinking and needed to talk to someone about it.
Since Mikey and Donnie were living at the farmhouse raising their kids, he had Leo to talk to⌠unless he wanted to text the other two. Both options sucked equally, but Mikey was the better choice. He was the one who knew the most about the whole Chrissy situation.
âYo, MikeyâŚI did somethingâŚâ He sighed and hit send. Mikey was gonna freak. The text was too vague but he couldnât bring himself to elaborate much further.
Mikey must have been holding his phone because his reply came through immediately. âWhaaaat?! U okay bro?â
âItâs nothing bad, I just saw Chrissy again, saved her from an asshole, and we got to talking.â
There was an indication that Mikey was typing for a while. The little dots dancing on the bottom of the screen momentarily. âThatâs good! Finally. U still have feelings for her?â
âNo, yeah, maybe doesnât matter. She told me she couldnât do the casual thing anymore.â He replied.
âWell, duh, she wants commitment, give it to her already, whatâs holding you back?â
âShe deserves betterâŚâ he paused and sent another message. âBetter than me.â
âU should let her make that decision for herself. Ur taking it away from her. Has she moved on? Got a bf?â
âNo. some failed relationships, same as me.â
âThen it seems pretty clear that ur just scared, bro. Talk to her, become friends with her again. Go slow, if sheâs the one, sheâs the one. Trust me.â
Ah, Mikey. Always the optimistic romantic, it wasnât bad advice. His little brother only wished him happiness. Raph thanked him and placed his phone down, simultaneously clicking the side button to lock the screen.
His brother was right, of course, but Raphael felt trapped, caged by his fears and insecurities. He never quite felt good enough for Chrissy and believed it was too late to fix things. Heâd already broken her heart once, and heâd be damned if he was going to do that to her again.
Heâd been on the way to his room, intent on trying to relax, when he saw that the light in Splinterâs room was on. Pausing, he lingered by the doorway as he contemplated entering.
âEnter Raphael.â The decision was made for him, and he quietly stepped in, kneeling before his father. The old rat sat serenely on his cushion at his low table. Despite Raphâs conflicted feelings, he felt instantly calmer, taking in the light scent of incense and freshly brewed tea. The relaxing scene that his father had built, complete with about half a dozen lit candles, reminded him that this was a safe space.
A fresh cup of tea was pushed in his direction. âDrink, we shall talk a moment.â His father waited for him to take a sip before twitching his whiskers, easily sensing the inner conflict of his son. âWhat is troubling you?â.
Maybe he could avoid this topic. âItâs nothinââŚâ
âI seeâŚâ His sensei replied, calmly sipping his cup of tea. âIt is far from ânothingâ. I can see that it is something you must deal with on your own.â
Chuckling ruefully, he shrugged, his pessimistic attitude taking over. âI know, and Iâm gonna make the wrong decision like always.â
âYou must trust yourself. Only then will the answer be made clear, and you will be at peace with it.â Splinter found himself wishing he could ease his hotheaded sonâs fears on the matter. If only he could see himself as he saw him. This and most problems in their lives had a way of working themselves out.
Peace was the furthest thing from his mind. The current storm of thoughts had him feeling doubtful that things would ever feel right. âI justâŚI donât deserve her, thatâs all.â He honestly believed this. She deserved a good guy that could give her the perfect life of marriage and kids.
Splinter laid his aged hand on his sonâs larger one. âRaphael, you would do well to remember this. You are deserving of love in all of its forms. Do not shy away because you think yourself unworthy.â
He offered his Sensei a small smile. âThanks⌠Father. Iâll remember that.â Standing, and giving him a small bow, he left to contemplate things further.
A week later, Raph worked up the courage to ask Chrissy back to his favourite dive bar. They used to frequent it often when they were together, and it eventually became a special place for them. This was the first time heâd been back since the breakup.
He sat in the far back, the booth closest to the kitchen entrance. It was the one everyone hated to sit in, but that was exactly why he liked it. No one minded that he looked different; the kitchen staff were used to it, and not many customers, save for the drunk ones, made their way back there.
The soft lilt of a guitar could be heard as a performer gently plucked the strings. The bar's atmosphere was light and relaxing. Everyone was either focused on their food or fixed on the guitarist.
Raph felt tense; this meeting would make or break things between them. The insecure part of himself was telling him he was going to lose her but the deeper, more determined part of him was determined to make things right, for once and for all.
Now thereâs a million reasons for you to go, but if you can find a reason to stay. Iâll do whatever it takes.
He was on his second beer when he saw her enter the bar.
She didnât see him at first and walked to the bar, ordering herself a drink. Then, she searched for him, concerned that maybe he hadnât come.
Damn, she looked beautiful. Sheâd chosen a pink ensemble. A cute, flower-print skirt hovering just above her knees and a tank top with caramel-coloured heels and a purse to match. She loved pink; it was her favourite colour. Finally giving her a wave, Raph decided to end her search.
Her mouth opened in a tiny gasp as she moved toward him. He wore his trench coat and hat. Sheâd secretly admired that look.
Taking her drink, she sauntered over to him, an amused smile on her face. âHey stranger⌠I shouldâve known youâd be hiding back here.â
He smirked and motioned for her to sit down. âHere I was thinkinâ you had changed your mind but nah, here you are, runninâ back into my arms.â He lightly teased.
Chrissy slid into the booth easily and raised one perfect eyebrow. âExcuse me, I was invited.â She huffed, a playful haughtiness to her tone. âIn your arms⌠in your dreams.â
Raph shrugged easily with a soft chuckle. âFair, I did ask you here. Glad you could make itâŚâ he said, sipping his beer and pausing a moment, his eyes on her. âYou look real nice tonight.â
Chrissyâs cheeks were pink as she smiled. She had wanted to look good for him. The tiny bit of hope that they might fix things had spurred her to look her best. âThank you, love the ensemble.â She grinned, pretending to tip an invisible hat to him.
Feeling more at ease, Raph called over the waiter to get their food orders out of the way. He was used to seeing Raph and placed a bowl of pretzels for the two of them to snack on while they waited. There was an awkward pause as Chrissy took one and chewed slowly. It was enough of dancing around their issues, and she needed some honesty. âWe used to come here a lot.â She allowed herself to reminisce about those good times for a moment. Sheâd missed them; she missed this.
âYeahâŚwhen we split, I kept up the tradition.â Heâd missed it too; this place held a lot of memories for him.
She felt anger bubbling up in her, the words pouring out of her before she could stop them. âYou mean, when you broke up with meâŚletâs be real here.â She was still hurt by it, and needed to be honest. âYou decided all on your own to leave.â
Raphael was quiet for a moment. She was angry at him, he had that coming. âChriss⌠you know why I had toâŚâ It pained him to explain why he left. Donât make me say itâŚ
Her answer was quick, interrupting him before he could continue. âDo I? You disappeared from my life, Raph. All I could do was speculate. Was I not⌠good enough for you? Did you find someone else? Was I asking for too much? I meant it when I said Iâd gotten no closure.â
He was at a loss. Her raw honesty was rough for him to listen to. He knew heâd hurt her, but hearing about it made him feel like shit. âI⌠I thought youâd move on from me.â He answered quietly.
âI tried⌠donât you think I did my best to forget you?â Emotions were running high now as the honest words kept coming. âI couldnât⌠because no one compared to you. You ruined me for all other men, Raphael. They werenât you.â
Raph was stunned. Here he was, sitting in the bar feeling like the worst thing a woman could want, and her words conveyed something very different. No, he was a piece of shit, and that was that. âBut⌠thatâs⌠I donât think IâmâŚâ Fuck, he could barely string together a sentence after hearing that. âI couldnât give you what you wanted!â He finally exploded. âA⌠a fucking, house in the suburbs, a normal life! You donât want this; you donât want a goddamn boyfriend who canât even go out in broad daylight to take you out. Iâm not good enough for you! Iâm never⌠gonna be good enough.â
This dose of honesty was exactly what she needed to hear. Chrissy reached for him, placing quiet hands on those tightly clenched fists of his. âRaphâŚâ
He was taking deep breaths, attempting to calm himself. âIt was mutual. We wanted different things, I wanted to keep it casual, and you wanted commitment. It wasnât gonna work.â
That was correct; she had wanted him to give himself over to her completely. âYes, I wanted commitment, and I know that scared the hell out of you. But, Raph, I was scared too. My worst fear was that youâd leave, and you did. I beat myself up about that for months; I shouldnât have pressured you like that. Iâm sorry.â
His shoulders lowered, the anger and tension leaving his body replaced with regret. He needed to tell her the truth. He was the one who needed to apologize. ââŚI was scared. I didnât want you to have to deal with my shit. Enemy clans, other mutants, aliens, mob bosses, gangs. Chrissy, what if I canât protect you from all of that? You better believe that Iâm fuckinâ scared.â
Her gaze softened. Sheâd managed to pry open his clenched hands to slide her fingers into his. âI know, Raph⌠when I first met you, you were in bad shape⌠I knew it wasnât normal, but I didnât give a damn because I wanted to be with you. Also, donât give me that, you will protect me and Iâm not as helpless as you think.â
He was running out of excuses and she knew it. She took his silence as a cue to keep going.
She said if weâre gonna make this work, you gotta let me inside even though it hurts.
Donât hide the broken parts of you that I need to see.
She said like it or not, itâs the way itâs gotta be.
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me.
She really needed a stronger drink for this. Time for a healthy dose of honesty. âIâm just gonna lay it out for you right here and now. You never even gave us a chance to try, you just went ahead and cut me out of your life.â She scoffed ruefully. âDid you ever think for a second that maybe, just maybe, I might not give a shit about how dangerous your life is? I cared about you so fucking much. I was willing to accept that, and yes, I still have feelings for you Raph.â Taking a breath and staring directly into his eyes, she swallowed. âI love you.â She gave him a small, nervous laugh. âThere, I said it. I know you probably donât feel the same way, but I wanted you to know.â Sheâd released his hands and had gotten up from her seat. She hid her tears. She couldnât face another rejection from him.
Her declaration had him out of his seat, taking hold of her wrist a second later. âWait, hold on a minuteâŚâ It was so clear to him now. Everything made sense. The veil of uncertainty was lifted and tossed away. âYou⌠love me? Still? Even after⌠well, everything?â
âI never stopped.â She uttered quietly, her eyes shimmering with unshed tears.
Heâs quiet for a moment. âIt hurt⌠leavinâ you⌠Iâve had gunshot wounds that hurt lessâŚâ Heâs being serious now as he drops her wrist and takes her hand. âEvery. Damn. Time. I knew you had feelings for me, and I was a fucking coward for not telling you⌠I was starting to feel the same way, and still do.â He held his gaze on the floor before looking at her again. âIf someone used you against me or worse, killed you.â He continued, speaking in a low voice. âThat would kill me.â
âI could say the same thing about you, Raph, but are we really going to let fear dictate our lives?â She stepped closer and pressed a soft kiss to that scar just above his lip. âAre we going to deny ourselves this chance to be happy?â
She was right. Fuck it. Heâd be a goddamn idiot if he let her go again. âNo. No, I ainât.â He tilted her face up to his and pressed a hand into the small of her back, drawing her closer. âI love you, Chrissy, Iâm done letting you go. I want you to be mine. Only mine, for as long as youâll have me.â
With a happy cry, Chrissy let her tears fall. She pressed her soft body against his and kissed him for all she was worth. âGet ready, big guy, because thatâs going to be a long, fucking time.â She laughed softly, giddy from the amount of relief she felt.
Raph pressed her a little more firmly to him, claiming her mouth again. He left everything else unsaid but conveyed it through the kiss. This was him giving himself over to her fully and completely, finally.
The kitchen staff had been sneakily watching and boxed up their meals before covertly placing them on the table. They had secretly hoped they would fix things up and get back together.
Pulling back just slightly, he cupped her cheek, rubbing her silky skin. âCan we⌠date again?â He asked hesitantly.
Chrissy buried her face in his neck with a soft laugh. âYes, Raph⌠we can date again.â Looking up, she kissed him softly once more. maybe even âgo steady.ââ
I know you deserve much better.
Remember the time I told you the way that I felt, and that Iâd be lost without you and never find myself.
Letâs hold onto each other above everything else.
Start over, start over.
It was a funny thing, dating Raph. Before, theyâd only ever contacted one another for one thing. Sex. The only talking theyâd done had been after the act and Raph had rarely spent the night. Now, he was nervously standing on her balcony, hesitantly tapping on the glass to see if she was ready.
It was like getting to know her all over again. They talked now, asking questions about each other and learning their likes and dislikes.
Raph hated pineapple on pizza. Fruit didnât belong on a goddamn pizza. His words. He liked using his arms as a pillow when he was too lazy to grab one off the floor. He had a tick on his jaw every time he was annoyed by something. A soft caress of his skin caused it to ripple slightly, a perfectly placed shell scritch caused a churr.
His favourite meal was teriyaki steak and roasted potatoes, but only if he barbecued the steak the way he liked. Medium rare with a good amount of pink. His favourite cookies were Snickerdoodles.
Chrissy did know about his ability to knit, but she was unaware of his pet, a little bearded dragon named Ryuji, who liked to sit on his head during the knitting sessions. She was delighted to discover this about him when sheâd come down to the lair for a visit. Ryu got a lot of careful pets and treats that day.
To his amusement, Raph discovered she could eat a whole tub of Ben and Jerryâs in one sitting. She liked true crime TV shows and rewatched old Disney movies when she got scared. She knew all the words to every single Spice Girls song. She twirled her hair whenever she felt nervous about something, the action calming her. Every time she sneezed, she scrunched up her nose most adorably and did a âkitten sneeze.â Raph loved that especially. She hated how her hair would âfluffâ up in humid weather and go limp in cold weather.
Chrissy loved comfort food, such as kraft macaroni and cheese with extra cheese, mashed potatoes and gravy, and garlic bread. Raph had actually gotten pretty good at making these types of meals for her, especially after sheâd had a long day.
Raph had been highly amused by her admission of being partial to monster romance. He couldnât help but tease her just a bit.
âRegular guys ainât doinâ it for ya anymore? You had to switch to aliens and snake guys with two dicks?â He snorted softly. âI mean, I get it, this ainât somethinâ you can replicate.â He did a wide sweeping gesture of himself, looking smug. âThere ainât nothing a book can do that I canât do better.â
She was about to clap right back with a teasing jab of her own. Raph was secretly an anime nerd and Mikey had let it slip the last time they were on a call with him and Raph had left the two of them to talk.
âSays the turtle who secretly watches Naruto.â Her own smug look only intensified as the realization dawned on his face.
âFucking, MikeyâŚâ he muttered. âHeâs lyinâ I donât watch that crap.â Guys like him did not watch anime, heâd deny it until it killed him.
âOh, really.â Chrissy crossed her arms. Game on, big guy. âAt least Iâm being honest, you hypocrite.â Airily, she added. âBut, fine⌠if youâre not willing to admit it, then I wonât tell you some of the ideas I gained from reading those books⌠and trust me, I got some good ones.â She could tell from the way his body language changed that he was interested.
Trying to appear nonchalant but failing miserably, Raph shrugged. âWhat, um, what kinda ideasâŚ?â
She had him now. âOhhh⌠no, I thought you didnât need any help⌠you know everything there is to know about pleasing a woman, donât you?â She brushed her fingers lightly along his forearm. âI might tell you⌠just admit you watch Naruto.â
There was quite an internal battle as Raph wrestled with himself about whether to give in. Her innocent Cheshire cat grin had piqued his curiosity, and he had to know. âFuck, fine, ya got me, I watch it⌠sometimes.â
She couldnât help but giggle with a soft squeal and wrapped her arms around his neck. Her soft lips pressed against his cheek as she grinned. âI wouldâve told you anyway, I just wanted to hear you admit you liked something nerdy.â
âWhy ya littleâŚâ Raph sprung then, pinning her down and tickling her sides as she squirmed and laughed beneath him. âHoldinâ your sexy book secrets over me?â
âRaaaaph!â Chrissy cried out in surprise as her laughter burst out of her. She writhed and squirmed under his relentless fingers, gasping for her breath. âStaaap!â
Easing up on his playful assault, Raph pressed his lips against hers. There was a deep, rumbling sound of satisfaction as he deepened the kiss. He only pulled back when her cheeks were flushed and he caught the sweet scent of her arousal. âYa better deliver on that⌠cuz I wanna be the best at makinâ you feel good.â
Fuck, he was good⌠âYes⌠I will.â That night, she divulged all her romance novel secrets, and it definitely paid off.