#ballader

I think he's be pretty good with children, he'd start off a bit rough with them and maybe make a child cry.

But once that child starts crying, Scara remembers how vulnerable he was when he was first created.

"Shhh, shh, no it's okay.... I didn't mean to hurt you..."

He'd mentally berate himself for yelling at a kid who didn't know any better.

"...hey kid, 'm sorry"

"...sowwy?"

"Yeah, sorry, how can I fix it?"

"Can I pway with your hat?"

"Play. My hat?"

"Yeah! It's biiiiig and prebby!"

"Pretty. But is that really what you want?"

"Mister, if you don' wanna lemme pway with your hat, you just hafta say so!"

"I never sai-"

"Hmmm... then I want a huwg!"

"A hug?"

"Yeah! Grandma said that when you fight wiw someone, you need to huwg them to make it better! My grandma is sleeping right now, so they said I couldn't visit...."

"Do you... miss her?"

"Sometimes, but... wait mister! Are you trying to make me forget that I asked for a hwug? The lady that was taking care of me did that whenever I asked for candy!"

"No? Where did that idea come from?"

"Then give me a hug!"

"..."

"Do you not know how to huwg?"

Scaramouche does know how to hug, it's just that he only hugs you. And you normally initiate the hugs so he's out of practice.

"Hmmph! Come here mister! This is how you hug!"

Scara felt their little arms try and wrap around him, and felt that little bit of broken innocent child in him heal while interacting with this spunky kid

A/N this was supposed to be Scara dealing with kids and healing from feeling like being abandoned but uh... the kids kinda stole the show. It might be OOC

The moment when he loses the Gnosis was the moment he loses himself once again.

His weapon, his tool, his...toy.

He didnt want to rule a nation or to destroy another one just because; he wanted to be recognize as someone of value & worth of affection.

The moment he releases that he lost the battle and is going to get the gnosis taken back, is the moment when he starts to have a crisis.

His theatrics and his play of being a god ends; and he begins to plead, asking to please return his "toy" back to him.

He curses, filled with hatred & rage towards the ones that took his toy away, - even if it is for his own good and the sake of others - yet, he doesn't understands this.

"Anything but the gnosis...!"

As a kid, he treasures his toys with great care, and as a kid, he loses he's own control when there are no more toys to play anymore.

He screams & cries, then the wires connecting him to the mecha break aggressively.

He even breaks and hangs from the machine where he is, humiliating himself in desperation to recover what he believes belongs to him.

"I'll never... I'll never go back!"

When his toy was taken away, he lets us know that he doesn't want to go back to his life as The Balladeer.

Where his only purpose was to be subject of experiments and to be used for someone else's plans.

Then he stumbles in his recklessness...

Just to fall deep in his misery & feeling of emptiness.

Now, he's shut down and doesn't respond to any stimulus.

It looks like he enters in a process of grief or depression, which is totally understandable.

He lost a precious thing, something he considered that made him worth of affection & respect, something he has been searching all his life.

He is again… lost in a deep slumber.

But he's not they boy he used to be hundred of years ago.

He's not Kunikzushi anymore, nor he is Kabukimo or The Balladeer, or even Scaramouche.

He doesn't even have a name.

But that's no sign of defeat or emptiness, it is a sign of a new beginning, a sign of choice.

The story of the puppet soldier & the ballerina doll really help to understand him better.

The search to be smth else than a simple & still soldier, to become a beautiful ballerina.

Being threw to the fire and turning into ashes.

But discovering at the end that there's still a hearth within the soldier.

Fortunately, for his own sake…or the good of others, he has people that will help him find a new meaning in his new life.

Not as the puppet of an archon, nor as a Fatui Harbinger, & not even as an omnipresent god.

But as a simple, yet persevering Wanderer.

okay like. imagine reader and scara are both assassins. both despise each other since they're always competitive about their job, like they both are the best in the department. and most of the time reader and scara get paired up together since they're the best (im so sorry for the repetitive words eng is not my first lang💔) aand they always find literally ANYTHING to argue about . like yk.

AAAND what i want to ask a fic abt is when reader gets really badly injured on a mission undercover and what scara will do if that happens. thanks!

A/N Ooo~ that's an awesome idea anon, also sorry for taking so long, I took a break for creativity sake and then got really busy

P.S. And also don't worry, your English is great