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The album cover is sick as hell, I initially thought it was skeletal parts, but it looks the most like an MRI scan showing a brain with a lot of abnormalities, including signs of head trauma.

The most profound detail I found in the "brain" is the dark spots.

Dark spots in the brain are usually the result of a brain lesion, a permanently damaged area of the brain usually caused by injury, infections, exposure to certain chemicals, etc. General trauma.

If it's someone's brain, I suspect it's Till's brain. aside from Luka, he has been through the worst of the Alien's mistreatment since he was a child, under Urak's (the bastard's) care he had been exposed to much abuse. The sheer harshness and hostility of Urak's "training" make it obvious why he was probably one of the only pets to withstand it all.

Life-long injury in some form is surely a given to me. Seeing as it's already been mentioned that because of Urak's abuse, his pets rarely make it to the end because of the mental issues they had developed, and experiments can kill them before they even make it to the stage.

Back to the brain, it has a lot of abnormalities (especially in its appearance). I can't explain much, I'm not a neurologist. But based on the research I did the the most damage seems to be near the Frontal lobe and the Precentral gyrus.

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This could explain Till's already implied mental problems, one of them (In my opinion) being some form of dissociation, round 6 was the most telling as his behavior was out of sorts having been broken down he changed drastically, throughout the whole round he was emotionally distant, i'd probably describe it as him being in a daze.

And his hallucination of Mizi during the karaoke scene could be a symptom of that to ease out of the moment.

(I also see that as more of a coping mechanism for Till, but I'm taking it into account for this since it's likely.)

Experiments always looked intense, I wonder just what chemicals and substances he was exposed to, in one of the opening scenes of CURE we're shown what looks to be DNA splitting, or duplicating? there could be a multitude of reasons for that. But it makes me curious just how deep this goes, and how much it affected Till. There is a lot of things about him that could be explained with Urak's presence in his life.

Death mark AU-have the way your soulmate will die symbolised on your body (perhaps tattoos, perhaps scars, lil symbols idk)

Helen always wearing turtlenecks to hide her phantom neck scars. (Madeline figuring her soulmates probably in combat from the shotgun wound. maybe she goes after soldiers to date? maybe she avoids them?)

Even juicier, if they know about the others soulmate mark and still kill each other like in canon. (Maybe helen plans to kill madeline with a sleeping pill and drowning cause she knows deep down it won’t work or maybe to prove the little voice in her ear that keeps saying she obsesses over Mad a little too much wrong). Would Madeline figure out about Helen immediately after she dies? Is her choice to shoot helen hers or fates? dbsbvagdjsjbq

Maybe it’s unrequited soulmatism in that maybe Helen is Ernest’s soulmate or neither of the ladies or maybe Helen and Mad aren’t even soulmates and choose each other anyway?! the possibilities (0.0)