#acevantablack

For nothing actually dies, but it's energy is transmuted and becomes the same energy in another form.

There is a difference between words and their meanings.

Some things sound different, but mean the same thing.

Some things sound the same, but mean different things.

You can be buried in the the dirt and still grow.

Just because some are buried in soil doesn't mean that they grow better than you.

YOU ARE YOU at YOUR OWN GROWTH, always and forever.

It is up to you to take time to ensure your growth.

It isn't anyone else's job.

If you aren't getting what you need, then go get it.

If it takes time to get what you need, then it is worth the wait because ALL PROGRESS IS STILL PROGRESS.

Nobody else gets to decide, rate, judge your own progression.

It's not a race, even the tortoise won the race against the hare.

Expedition, doesn't mean 1st place because you aren't racing against anyone.

Take your time, cherish and nourish yourself to ensure the best care and growth possible.

Utilize and maximize all parts of you with self love and self care.

That does not make you selfish because you cannot truly love someone else, until you truly love yourself.

You can try all you want, but ultimately it is just like a prescription, or a temporary comfort until you learn to do for you what you later can do for others.

Helping yourself help you, will eventually radiate towards others like the suns' rays radiate and help others grow just from being itself.

Be who you are no matter what you are, we all have a part to play and we all matter.

Some are teachers and some are lessons.

It doesn't mean that one is more of a blessing than the other because ultimately a blessing is a blessing, is a blessing...

No matter the magnitude, form, size or shape.

Stand strong, kneel strong, either way the goal is to love.

Love conquers all, so if you have that, who can be against you?

🌌☯️🧘🏾‍♂️☯️🌌

Pretend to love me, but we both know.

Public updates, to wool the masses.

Knowing the truth, still I'm labeled many asses.

Not sure if you want me, or my many assets.

Award Winning Actor, when the Mirage is close.

When you give up, is when you ghost.

Still my heart, you hold it close.

Heart, return to me! Hush, don't boast.

You didn't steal my heart, I loaned it to you.

That meant Grey & Old, I loved you for True.

Bountiful Love, rumors that the rich told.

Tantalizing, mouthwatering Flavors Bold.

In your mind, you read Silver & Gold.

Realizing now, false images sold.

You want riches... This I knew...

Camel through an eye, the same chance as you.

One last cry, emergence from undone glue.

Love's unflavored recipie, Chicken Cordon Bleu.

- Joseph Shawn Johnson ♠️

S.urfs U.p M.an

All groovy, til' the tide comes in, like the end of the reel in all movies.

Bubblin' n heatin' up, don't turn me up, a bigger deal than y'all jacuzzi.

Yall lookin' like that Bear n the Bird, playin' sad songs; Banjo Kazooie.

Team wit me like Venom, Carnage, Blob; What I mean is all Oozies.

Goin in circles with me, you bound to fall n' that's all doozies.

Call me what you what, bottom line, I only react to how y'all do me.

Trouble doin' things myself, even for my health and you think that y'all can move me?

You'll wipe out tryin' to check my chin, if that's what you want, come with it then.

If you don't wanna be outboxed, or outsourced I suggest that you don't box me in.

Why you tryin ride my wave, when you know that you can't hang 10.

You racist, that's fact's, and that's why we can't ever begin.

Trying to keep me quiet won't work, because it's self evident.

Trying to keep me in hell cause you know I'm heaven sent.

I don't need crooked dollars or oppressed red cents.

But in that sense..

Since you wanted to take it all and leave me hangin'...

What goes around comes around, here's your Karma back then..

- Joseph Shawn Johnson ♠️ aka JSJ ♤

☆4:00pm October 25, 2020☆

#SurfsUpMan

Unforgettable memories, gripping securely on my mind body and soul.... The thought of surrender as a last resort, against an accompanied rebellion of my fears. Asphyxiated like a suffocation, I am smothered into a pacified state. Ushered in by a robustly stubborn tear... As I wipe the single tear from my eye, I stop and stare. Comparing, contrasting, reflecting, relating... The similarity of feeling alone... How alone I feel without you doesn't make any sense. The infinite thoughts and memories of you that surround me like a shroud, or even as a mist or haze. I inhale you... I exhale you... Think you, see you, hear you, the last sense left is one no longer needed... Although not common and yet not commonly used. Common sense... Doesn't seem to make sense here anymore. Either that or I don't see much sense here anymore. Snapping out of my haze again, to see my tear again. Any connection I feel I may have with you is one that I can't let go. Even as my tear tries to run down my face, I sniff, like a line of coke. Letting the salt burn into the wound left behind fr-. Wound left behind!?... Wait!!! I can feel you?! Pain! Ahhh... Yes! Pain! That sense of touch is back again! Pain is what I do to myself to subconsciously make me feel close to you. I don't expect anyone to understand, because like I said, not much common sense here. They speak a new language here, money... Are you fluent enough to translate what it means to not be able to feel someone anymore? For the mere fact that they aren't there anymore because someone else chose to take their life speaking the language of? At the end of the day, what does it mean? If money speaks to you, it will also speak against you. I guarantee it will begin to make sense to you in time, that what goes around, comes around.

- Joseph Shawn Johnson ♠️

It seems that people like when you to lie to them when it comes to how you feel towards them or a decision they should make. Ironically when you tell them that an outfit doesn't look good, or something isn't a good idea, they get offended... You can't pick and choose what someone gets to say and if you think you can then don't try it with me. I don't have time for the nonsense that seems to be what people are continually trying to hide... If you aren't building with me or working towards something positive, then keep your distance AND some. It's been way too long I've been dealing with bs and MANY other things that I didn't have to but chose to out of Love... Doing that for so long has made people comfortable and has dug a hole in their mind that I HAVE to put up with it. The answer is I DON'T HAVE TO! With all of the other serious issues going on, I really have other things to attend to. You want to act grown, tough and "gangsta" when you want to try and step up to me, so put the childish things away and go handle your problems like an adult. Funny how most of these people come at me with weapons because they can't fight, but then turn around and claim they're tough 🙄 smh... Maybe if you addressed your problems the way you try to test me, you'd have more progress in the problematic areas. The last thing you want to do is to keep testing me because it's been a long time coming and believe me when I say I told you so. Either be real with me, or be gone with thee. Being in between leaves you a foot note and an instert away from being in the crack of a space that toilet paper couldnt even reach....

- Joseph Shawn Johnson ♠️

You touch me, but you don't feel me.

You look at me, but you don't see me.

You listen to me, but you don't hear me.

You kiss me, but you don't taste me.

You care for me, but you don't love me.

You have sex with me, but you don't make love to me.

You think about me, but you don't know me.

You want to be around me, but you don't want me.

You have senses, but you are senseless...

Understand this, why am I misunderstood?

If I removed ALL of "You", I'd be emotionless.

If I removed ALL "But", you'd hear me clearly.

Don't even get me started on "Me", because...

Even if I removed ALL "Why", you'd still have a question in the end.

- Joseph Shawn Johnson ♠️

08/03/2015 - 08/03/2020

I sit and I write

I sit and I right

Left, In (back & forth) between the 2, right...

Between being left and right is there really anything In between?

Back & forth between the 2, is there even a Wright?

What constitutes a side that I have to pick, because that’s not right.

They say if I don’t pick then I get left.

If you go back & forth between the 2 for too long then you’re left in the middle.

And then....  Two In...  like M & M?

If I wasn’t then why would they say and then...

The choice was always mine, never yours to begin..

So sit and write and sit and right because 2 left again.

Guess that means you get to march to the beat... Two the beat Of Defeat.

2 wrongs don’t make a right, so 1 left because 2 left feet will stumble..

Am I write? Because the Odd One Out is usually Right.