haven't spoken to one of my grandmas in more than a month and it was weird because, after I moved countries again and isolated myself to the point of not reaching out to anyone, she always put a kind face and sent me a message every now and then. yup, guilt constantly eats my bones since this shitty behavior started, but now she didn't sent me anything so it was due time for me to reach out, I'm not complaining, she still works and has stuff to do and I can't act like this.
anyway, I sent her a voice note of almost 20 mins and I kind of told her that I got even more depressed after this whole uni thing, not exactly using the words depression and stuff because that'd be extremely worrying to her and the last thing I want is her feeling even more sad because of me. I really hate opening up in the slightest about my problems to my grandparents bc they worry a lot but yeah idk my own parents are constantly making my moods worse and I don't have anyone else to talk to, I think it's sad that the first message I send to her in more than a month is discussing a topic like this, but idk I just need her support.
I'm sorry if this sounds like gibberish I didn't proofread before posting bc I'm holding back tears and just wanted to let this thought out before it ate me from inside, tajnk you all
