And honestly? I'm allowed to dislike the people who've hurt me. I'm allowed to want them to feel bad for what they've done to me. I'm allowed to have people in my life who lift me up and help me see that I'm not worthless. And I'm allowed to be a little petty and hope that the people who've berated me don't get the same until they start being better people.

CONTAINS DRAWN SH, BRIGHT COLORS, AND KINDA CREEPY IMAGERY

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TW: sa and abus3 mentioned

I hate wishing that i was s3x@1y or phy1s1cally @$$@ul@ted like i was just bullied cause im a fucking bitch if someone did something phyiscal i would be taken more seriously i know thats a terrible thing to say and downplays those who went through those things but i just wish i was hurt more maybe i feel like i deserved more pain

To my EX of 4-5 years that emotionally psychologically, and mentally abused me, isolated me entirely from my friends and family, dragged me into dangerous situations, conditioned me so heavily for years that I feel like I cannot have normal relationships anymore, made me have a deep seated belief that I was a worthless, mean, disgusting, two-faced evil person so that I wouldn't call you out on your own flaws and actions, and manipulated me to get me to drop out of things I loved - where I felt safe and understood, so that I could be under your thumb every hour of every day,

FUCK. YOU.

I wish I never met you, I wish we were never friends, I wish I was never as kind to you as I was, I wish I didn't waste my years on you.