Near Death
How close have you come to death? when i honestly think about it i’ve had way too many close calls. I survived a car accident where i rolled 4 times and came out without a scratch only to fall down the stairs due to my bruised up knee and brake my arm / shoulder where i broke it they could not cast it. So i walked around like sloth with my arm just swinging away. I tried to take my own life finally after years of loss upon loss My first love died, sadly overdosed in 2018. My sister died in 2012 sober but drug related. Now my son has passed this year and i almost went with him. His brain sadly couldn’t keep up with his tiny fighting body. Born at 4lbs he was the most amazing experience my whole pregnancy was a shit show, I often just wonder what in gods name am i doing here, i must have a purpose of some reason to be on this earth. I feel i’ve experienced so many losses that now i have abandonment issues, coping issues and quite honestly just straight up issues.
