idle heart

however i will concede that eventually it happens that ilya gets sick during the off season and he wakes up and tries to muscle through to have a nice day at the cottage with hisshane but then he gets tricked into getting back in bed (his evil boyfriendfianceehusband lures him there under the guise of sex) and the moment he does he gives in and goes full baby because at the end of the day he is a diva and as it turns out when he doesn’t have any responsibilities it’s actually very nice to get to be mopey and pouty and have his very cute nurse worry over him and pamper him and tuck him in all cozy and bring him medicine and soup and smoothies with vegetables in them that he can whine about but are actually very yummy

to be scarier. Less whimpering—more pyromaniac

urges, more flirting with kerosene.

i've made a home for us. will you learn to play with me?

I love his humiliation kink and his praise kink and his exhibitionism. I love that he loves getting fucked so much that he made sure to tell Rose 2 seconds after she told him he’s gay. I love that he had to be told that he’s gay. I love that he told Ilya just to say it out loud, to see what it feels like on his tongue, to sit with the knowledge that Shane Hollander is a gay man and he can’t stop it, he’s tried so hard to stop it but he can’t. I love that at 25, he stops trying to stop it

Don’t look back

Keep your eyes on the goal ✨