Life in words

you kissed my red lips under a sunset sky

the warm breeze glides across my face

I feel so safe while in your embrace

we watched the sun setting in awe of the beauty

me looking at the sun

you looking straight through me

the warm sand under my toes

Dancing in a hourglass as time froze

your blue eyes clearer than the ocean

waves smashing the rocks like a song

I tell you I love you as you smile so gently

you echo my words so proudly

walk the beach hand in hand

my true love my perfect man

I knew the moment I saw you I wanted to be yours

I wished to the sky

the stars aligned

now your mine

my love

my solider

my white shining knight

kissing me under the pale moonlight

insecurites floating away with the wind

I feel your love this isn't a sin

I'm leaving the past for once where it belongs

Giving in

breaking down my walls to open my heart

placing you in it for a brand new start

those sunset skies

the palemoonlight

I wonder if you think of me through the night

I close my eyes and see your face

Feel your breath as I miss your taste

I stare at the moon

wonder if you see me in the dark like I see you

your face so perfect under the light

your hand so tightly wrapped around mine

the sheets with our stories have been washed away

my mind a war zone

I cant wave the white flag

I miss your body so perfect and tanned

your dreams of the future

with me as your wife you my perfect man

coffee is never the same without you as my date

wine is so bitter like your exit that day

I remember your back as I lay and cry

my tears didnt reach your heart

I was alone all night replying our fight

the moon doesnt answer when I ask where you are

it's a Cresent a half like my broken scarred heart

i listen to music to free my mind

every song becomes a reminder of our time together

the promise you broke that we would last forever

I close my eyes and try to sleep

my dreams are the only place your back with me

it's hard to wake alone in bed

your face just pained in the back of my head

I will lay and replay the past

you kiss my pink lips under the city lights

I cry as your warm lips touch mine

I see the end

this feeling isnt going to last

soon we will be a thing of the past

Photo album buried away

old memories dont die

you wipe my eyes as I lie

we both smile

a change from the constant fights

does it matter who is right

we both lose when we run in circles

it doesnt matter who's right

we both play the fool

the cost is to great

the prize is goodbye

these games you played run through my mind all night

your lips dont silence the fears

my eyes speak all to clear

these days of pretending are over

love turned to a cold shoulder

I feel frozen in your arms

the jealousy has torn us apart

your face is so perfect under the light

your lips so full your hand around mine

my heart breaks at the thought of leaving you

your tanned skin and perfect style

once I would have walked broken glass for many miles

I'm done painting on these fake pink smiles

you tell me you know what's on my mind

you feel it to the ending is in sight

we stand there in pieces under the lights

no Cinderella story past midnight

standing under those city lights

I dont think I will ever walk this street again

the reminder of our last kiss will linger

the loss of my best friend

the ring you took off my finger

what could have been

instead of what is

tears on my cheek as your back walks out of sight

it will be to hard to see this street

your soul seeps in as you lay upon me

fingers caressing my hair

my heart pounds as you whisper in my ear

this feeling is lust

there's no love in the air

your body entwined with mine

memories of old love enter my mind

these sheets of cotton warm and soft

bed post stories of loves now lost

your sweat drops onto my lips

snakes vemon as I lose all sense

your body is mine in this hour

my legs wrapped tightly around your waist

shooting stars fill me

your the perfect escape

you light a smoke as you sit on my bed

your eyes look down as we no longer connect

I watch the smoke slip from your mouth

its like a ghost in this house that will soon be gone

your black hair sweaty and messed

you look so perfect as you slide on your Jean's

I hand you your belt with another notch added by me

our time together has come to an end

smile and act like we will be friends

we both know this is not true

the sheets where we met will be all of me and you

the door will close

I watch you drive away as this love ends

your eyes watching me in the rear view mirror

I fall to the ground

you dont blink

please turn around

the autumn leaves under my knees

seasons dying

the blonde crying

the crisp air hits my face

flashbacks of our love

in a better time and place

I want to run and chase you down

make you turn your car around

lead you into the house to tell you

this will crush me

I love you to much to heal and be complete

I call your phone relentlessly

your voice on the machine makes me cry

flashbacks of the past flood like my eyes

this is the hardest of all the goodbyes

the taste of your lips the color of your eyes

tanned skinned pressed on mine

whispering in my ear

taking away all my fear

sharing all our dreams for the future

how did this turn into a disaster

this cant be over you promised me forever

a funeral for our love

I remember our first date

the wine stained dress the laughing all day

kissing in the taxi

those lips so perfect oh made me so happy

I fell in love with you that night

my soul is so complete when you hold me tight

you cant leave please I'm begging stay with me

your my rock trust me I cant move on

you tell me this is over I need to move forward

time is not on my side

I see your face in my dreams at night

imagine different endings where I am your wife

the tears still stream down my face

everytime I see the autumn leafs fall from the trees and feel that cold crisp air on my face

your eyes in the mirror

driving away

Are we out of the dark yet

is our love back in the light

do we move forward from this ignorant fight

words scorned as women lie

men stay silent as we cry

a shadow lingers as we say sorry

this will follow us a haunting story

these words will surface on our darkest days

the mistakes we made will never fade

secrets locked in a vault come out

the words are weapons

dirty mouths

my mind tells me I love you

I'm acting insane

pride bites me hard as I remember those days

I could have said sorry and took all the blame

blew out the match and walked away

I threw gasoline igniting our future

smoke fills this love and shadows the light

the devil has come perched on my shoulder tonight

he wants me to leave and be with him

the angels are with you I see your halo

I'm the bad one again your always a hero

red eyes watch me as you tell your version

the victim again I'm left deserted

your twisted tales I believed for a while

these fights were my fault and you didnt write them

our love story has turned to a horror romance

a fiction written by a lying man

the days of rewind im putting behind me

our love is so much prettier in my head

my blue face is porcelain and pretty

you look so perfect I cant see through you

kissing in the rain

its salty as it hits my lips

your love envelopes me

this kaleidoscope of men you become

from Dusk till dawn

your hugs so tight like a straight jacket through the night

this is how he loves me

pain following shame

endless stories my mind creates

everyday you paint our bloody picket fence white

hide the guilt behind your baby blue eyes

flowers you gift me

make me feel so special

the garden is dying the gifts are lying

the appologies now novels

harlequin stories so frightening

princes armour no longer shining

rusty and dull it's becoming hard to hide it

I live in my head where everything is perfect

a queen in the twin size bed

the romance is dying

the drink has stolen you

my soul has left

its flown it's gone

all that's left is regret

lost girl so scared of how this will end

I stare at the garden that once was so pretty

picture a grave for our love to escape

no more rain streaming down my tired face

this was never love

I see the shadow of your feet at my door

my broken heart wont let me move forward

close my eyes and escape this room

your voice trembles as you say sorry

we can fix this

just listen to me we dont need to make us history

my trust for you is sailing away

stormy clouds raining down today

the fog is thick I cant see your old self

this new man I see is not the one for I fell

the blankets cover my head as I cry

I want to forgive you

but I still see her face

the letters you wrote I cannot erase

the trust you severed and threw to the wolves

enchanted forest we once walked

decayed the fimiliar path now a maze

monsters lurk in the trees

friends and family are going to blame me

I turn to the moon and ask for sign

miss your face and your touch

your shoulders I cried on during my times of doubt

remember our first date your smiling eyes

the words you whispered that you will one day be mine

singing along

getting coffee at night

I don't know if I will ever recover

wishing on stars

your hand gripping mine so tight

I'm back in my room under the covers

I want to run to the door and jump in your arms forever

your shadow is gone i know i am free

this love has killed me because you chose another

I think about him as your warm body covers mine

dream off into a different land and time

when we were together and I wasnt with him

I think of your hands caressing my hip

rubbing me down warm breath in the air

our bodies align your fingers in my hair

sucking your soul into my own

a dream for lovers were never alone

the sheets feel warm as we roll in circles

a carousel my mind is

a fun house circus

our bodies joined from two now one

my temperature rises as I remember those nights

I wish it was you not my new lover tonight

your body a map I am the compass

exploring those feelings in sheets of cotton

I look in his eyes and wish they were blue

this man is mine but he isnt you

his sweat drips on me it smells so different

I picture those times you brought me to heaven

wondering if ever you think the same things

about those nights that we joined and forgot about life

love filled the room from dawn till night

rolling in sheets

drinking red wine

loving eachother for the rest of our

I'm floating off cloud 9 as I listen to you talk about her

wishing your words were about me

why are you sitting at the candle lit table with three

shes so perfect in your eyes

you cant focus on me

she lives in your mind

you tell me how you loved her so long

your love would be perfect

she just cant see it yet but in time you will be worth it

I watch the flames dance like lovers entwined

this isnt a date this is a heartbreak

but not mine

you cut me off as I try to speak

it's her you must focus on

you cant even see me

I'm not given a chance you refuse to love forward

I wonder why I'm here as I listen to you love her

I watch other couples and wonder what they say

how much they love eachother more each and every day

I want to run and scream and hide

be at home in my bed with a glass of wine

living in my head where I'm so in love

the man of my dreams kissing my mouth

caressing my face and whispering no lies

a prince in armour committing no crimes

the candle burns out and I see you clearly

grab my phone and say it's an emergency

I walk away tall

head held high

I think of the end during our first date

I will love you so deeply then you will tell me this isnt fate

I will wait for your texts though the cold night

stare at our pictures we took before our last fight

wish for a different ending a much happier story

our house a home will become a maze

I will question my motives and all your mistakes

the dreams we shared will become nightmares

cupid has turned to Lucifer in this novel

we have written together

you touch my hand and i snap back to reality

it's our first date were laughing and happy

the fears I envision love in my mind

they make me reject you and leave you behind

my pen ink is black there is no glitter

no Instagram filter can make this prettier

I close my eyes and go to sleep

drowning in your love turned lies

white lines smoke filled cries

love letters burning in the fire you built

pictures of two torn to one

friend now foe

yellow brick road old and worn

the visions of love flood my mind

pain takes over

mascara tears stain my pillow tonight

dreams fill my mind as I stare at the ceiling

wishing you were still mine

lost in this feeling

I see shooting stars through my roof painted black

the lessons you taught me are hard to digest

ghosts creep into my dreams this night

I still miss your lies that light up my life

you love me you need me you will always be true

the words turned from pink now black and blue

you've left me broken but I still hear your voice

visons of watching you sleep through the night

this love made me live and thought I would die

day by day becomes a mile away

your love seems to far as the hourglass flips

Crysyal ball foggy not clear

Visons of heartbreak in a broken mirror

Tv snow fuzzzy and black

Memories of loves flooding back

Your promise i heard so many nights

I love you i will never make you cry

I want so hard to feel your words

forget the past

Let bygons be gone let new love grow

Old loves let go

new stories being told

I hold back my fears to step in your heart

fimiliar place a familiar dark

Black walls in purple skies

my tears streaming from my hazel eyes

I taste the salt on my lips

bitter and cruel the broken promise

another let down another heartbreak novel

Another boyfriend saying goodbye

I stare at my reflection as i cry

How can i find the perfect man to stand by my side

red glowing exit sign of past days

My body not thin my hair not perfect

The warped reflection love a burden

I beg you to stay i fall to my knees

Clasp my hands a prayer for love please

Ur back cold like the shoulder you give

Why am i not good enough why not a win

These games are cruel these games arent fair

You have the cheat codes

another girls perfume in the air

I stop eating hope for quick change

Tighter clothes may make you stay

I wrap a belt around your neck

I want to snap it you cant even pretend

The candle is dancing shadows of ghosts

A phanton a man a disappearance a show

Wax melted like my trust for you

my heart from red now so blue

This curse must be lifted i need to let go

Clean the ball see through your eyes

Its your indiscretion its your love denied

My life feels over my heart shattered

Feet bleeding from yet another disaster

The bottle i grab to help heal my pain

Another let down another man not today

Years later you pick up the phone

My resemtment still fresh like the exit sign you showed

Fimiliar glow of time travelling back

Same old story with a different man

Ive said goodbye i sealed the letter

A postcard stamped registered delievered

You broke my heart and built my walls

Flowers with thorns stinging like your words

Im letting you sleep in history

With those books of lost loves

Old memories

Your eyes undressing me as i pass by

your hand grazes me

Our eyes lock

i feel scared

Should i smile or step on my fear

Reject your advances my come with a crime

Punishment a whore a stupid blonde with no mind

You all laugh as you tell them she is having a bad day

Hun do you need a hug as im walking away

You follow my steps the cat of a call

Come on baby i can make you forget it all

Your friend has joined in the chase and the words

My eyes close as i feel this getting worse

Please leave me be i say in my mind

I dont even know these men

Your voice becomes louder and madder

A hatter alice lost in a maze

Is he going to hit me please just leave me go my way

More men are yelling a good fuck she needs

Please someone help i feel these men may rape me

I feel the shame of the other eyes that see

Shes pretty a mini skirt what do you expect sweetie

Your on display a snack for men

Your clothes are telling me you want me to come in

My voice i cant find my fear i can feel

You bitch you slut just give me your kitty for a meal

Im shaking my nails digging in my palms

My keys holding as a weapon to fend you off

Turn around raise my voice

Get the fuck away you little boys

Someones brother with a mother a sister a daughter

None of that matters when im showing skin

Shes asking for it she wants it

Taking a stance comes with chance

You may get a slap a dick from an unknown man

Fire you yell as rape is to real

You question telling anyone knowing your clothes will make you less of a victim

The blame comes your way along with the shame

Pretend it didnt happen just wear more baggy clothes maybe their eyes will look another way

Black party dress for this picnic table

Holding back the tears of yet another let down

A date so hidden out of sight

perfect make up

Shoes adding height

hair pin straight

perfect look for a date.

Why do I keep revisiting the same scene

Action cut hide out of plain sight

Picnic table old and wobbly slivers reaching right to bone

You wear a hood to hide your face

embarrassed of the girl in the party dress

all this time wasted trying to impress

you dont care to show me off

Rusted trophy wife hidden again

no date tonight.

Different movie same script

Not man enough for a women like me on your hip

You tell me how you wish it was different

how u wish we could be an item.

Double double like the coffee you bring

This party dress has lost its shine.

The movie is over there is no rewind

A tear drop glistening in the moonlight

You touch my leg and tell me I'm so kind

You just cant sacrifice any of your time.

Your friends your family just wouldn't understand

Build a wall to keep me hidden.

Party dress

party loves

another guy making me feel worthless

Full of false Hope's

I see the windmill turn as you stand above me

Your so pretty just not enough for me.

Your so kind but I need a more dramatic queen by my side

You fly up in the sky a hero with a hat

Around the world taking hearts

Every few years you pop back up

Flying into my city trying to apologize

You have grown and you have changed

But that picnic table has decayed.

The party dress is put away

back shelf Like I felt on that date

Reappearneces.

This movies doesn't have a part two

Part one was emabaressing enough

You send money and gifts my way

Plead and lie

try to buy my time.

That picnic table I have revisited many nights

As a old memory a vision

The girl sitting in the party dress crying

Another time i feel like dying.

My shoes like stilts a clown a circus

3 rings

none for me

Maybe in another life fate will make us entwine

sad but true I left you to rot with that wood

I have built a new table for me to sit

Reserved for the man who will help me fit In

Lend his shoulders for my tears

Break down all the walls built over years

He will be perfect for me

I will treat him so kindly

A love we will share like the big screen

Suddenly I wake

Rooftop Dreams

Sleeping on roofs talking about life

Who is this toronto girl

Is she my friend

yup Friend for life

Those roofs bonded us

jumping through hoops a circus act

a ring leader

things are changing to fast

Blunts wine

cut or dye

Laughing out loud loving life

Bikini tops and motel rooms

Beaches and lies

joints smoke signal in your eyes

teasing the boys all hours of the night

Stolen cars and celebrity dreams

Hitchiking to barrie with a bag full of green

Those days grow longer and time grew wiser

those roofs became houses and children soon followed

Heartbreaks and tears

the drugs and the beers

The crying all hours

the hugs

Here borrow my power

Pool halls and wadgers

run down arcades

Mexican money babysitting all day

Penthouse living wining and dining

Running from the cops hurry up come

Find us

The platform shoes became slippers

time went away but the stories of love

life and friends always remain

4 corners each had a post 2 fell off

2 held the bond

Our paths have crossed our paths have changed

But those rooftop memories light my darkest days

13 seems so far away so many paths

so many mistakes

The lessons we learned the lessons we take

love we shared makes the hurt less each day

I tied my soul onto your own

a new life an adventure

Friendship still so many years down the road