Sullen Roses

sympL “Lie To Me” - featuring The One Lavic

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you give me that look

and I already know

it’s time to grow

so let me slip into something a little more uncomfortable,

like a rock climbing harness.

They talk a lot about facing our fears,

but what about loving our peers in a few other ways

Summer days

and honey glaze

sweetness in a shine

that lets her know she’s one of a kind

Your friend is yours

to ring in the new year,

life wouldn’t be the same without you here

What is it that you can not spill?

Through only your tears do tell…

Is it your mind screaming, “run for the hills!”

Or is that what my fear compels?

Wonder how far you are willing

To love me… back to the fretful dwelling. 

But swords can go only plunge so far until

All my cups fill, tipping the bell.

If your pith aches still,

Please beat what I can not spell.

If there is sorrow sitting on your window sills,

Maybe these lips could kiss the pain that swells.

Trust is a river with time to distill. 

These ears are here, opening for you, 

Like the heart of a citadel.

Onwards into the deeper dark.

What is it that you can not spill?

Through only your tears do tell…

Is it your mind screaming, “run for the hills!”

Or is that what my fear compels?

Wonder how far you are willing

To love me… back to the fretful dwelling. 

But swords can go only plunge so far until

All my cups fill, tipping the bell.

If your pith aches still,

Please beat what I can not spell.

If there is sorrow sitting on your window sills,

Maybe these lips could kiss the pain that swells.

Trust is a river with time to distill. 

These ears are here, opening for you, 

Like the heart of a citadel.

Let peace commune between us

The Lovers, the Star blesses our bond

Sometimes the Devil appears,

The ego wants control

This Knight too brash, a defense too impotent

Still, I open my ears, my eyes, sheathing my sword

My devotion is the World travelling

Where you share the center of its gravity

I want change of self, I need it

Break patterns that block to my truest path

I know you push me towards it

In earnest and care

This effort is not fruitless dear

I fight the reluctant pride

Like a child in a tantrum

Who should know by now why

She should let go

Which she does understand but can not accept

Fearing to be wrong, pointless

Fearing happiness won’t be met or

Fleeting soon as our lips touch it

I try another attempt, eager to begin again

I do see progress when her arms unfold

Exhausted from the spinning frustration

I touch her hand

“Giving in is not weakness,”

She look to me in silence, slowly opening

Yet from years of rooting in this stance,

She forgotten to walk

On the bedrock of doubt, the child falls

On her bent knees

I must be my own teacher now

Disturb the solid, foul boulder

Shatter into dust

I rub her skin, allowing blood to flow through her veins

Until legs make movement

I, like you Hermit,

Light and carry my lantern

Through the murky unknown

Stretching our feet, wading towards my well

Over hills of memories, through the river of countless tears

So we can see the night sky in the clear

Peering at the Starress winking through

The reflection of my pool

There, the child finds happiness endless

In glass chalices left on pebbles of blush and blue

Dipping our cups in cool, elixir of love that warms our soul

Dripping water over our naked forms,

Cleaning the scars, the wounds

We will cut them open no more

We lay in the soft grass,

Holding each other close,

Touching tête-à-tête

Watching the celestials dance

She will absorb into me, becoming whole once more

Where I wait for you

To taste my heart

To interlock ourselves in the other’s grace

Beauty will be born from our intercourse

As the fierce Sun rises to illuminate

Our dewdrop bodies

Shivering between a symphony of temperature and pleasure

The gates will unlock

Our bridge will strengthen in metals and stone

Our worlds will open wide

A garden to flourish and spread over

Blossoms of trust, sound substance of

Citrus, honey, and supple pomegranates

Feeding our lives nutrients, thriving

The severe knight now transforms

Into the Empress, a balance

Of nourishment and power

I hold my scepter high

Gathering abundance of joy, prosperity

They shine down unto those precious to me

The dragon and phoenix coexist within my being

While Spirit trickles diamonds through my crown, down to my toes

Expanding my domain

Shedding what was never meant to be

Shame, fear, insecurity, a weak devil is left ineffectual

Embracing this victory, smiling, my well brimming of intimacy

My cups ready to give tenderness

For me and for you

I am free.