hiiiii my names Stanley and this is my intro post for ppl interacting or any mutuals :3
im aromatic and prefer he/they pronouns
current fixations:
Cookie run kingdom (crk), Inanimate Insanity (II), BFB/ToPT/Bfdi, HFJone, The Arcana, AEwVS, ABiBaZ, BBiEaL, VotV (gotta collect em all am i right)
music i like:
Alex G, Comus, Will Wood, Lemon Demon, They Might Be Giants, ICP, MSI (i don't support them), Adventure Time, Ayesha Erotica, Jack Stauber, The Caretaker, Mitski, and POGO (again don't support)
extra
i do talk a lot if you engage so if ur not super into that this is your only warning
i accept art/moodboard request my ask box is open if you want to request anything
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Last song: when I started writing this it was To Her Door by Paul Kelly (because I am terminally a middle aged Australian man in spirit), now it’s Hitchin a Ride by Green Day. Both are bangers. Hitchin a Ride is one of my all time faves.
Currently watching: I watched Tropic Thunder today so. I don’t really watch TV shows so much as watch Top Gun/TGM on repeat. It’s bad bro, I know it’s bad.
Currently reading: hypothetically I’m about to start reading Frankenstein.
Current obsession: Top Gun. It’s really really bad bro.
Currently working on: I would really like to be working on literally any of my WIPs but writers block has me by the throat and not even in a sexy way 💔
Tagging (no pressure gang): @kazanskyswingman @secretlyamushroom @icemavman @fanficlsbestfood @death2toby (yes I know you’ve been tagged already but I’m hitting you with the ol’ two for one)
last song: as of writing this Say My Name by Florence + the machine Live ver!
currently watching: last thing I watched was sk8 the infinity(yes I’m gay) and interview with a vampire season one ep 3(rewatching for the new season!!)
Currently reading: fanfic(Ryland x Tony) but in terms of novels then Wings of fire book 17 (yes the dragon Yaoi one)
Currently obsessed with: Ryland x Tony, PHM, Bloodymary and my new au!
Currently working on: my new wip as I said, it’s a marvel fic where Peter is kidnapped by hydra and through experimentation and genetic combining he’s made into the ultimate attack animal. Think twilight werewolves meet Jurassic worlds indo-raptor. Originally it was gonna be more so recovery fic but it wasn’t going anywhere so I changed it to make it more horror kinda like the og Jurassic park novels(like animal horror-but not in a way that makes them into monsters- just shows us what they are capable of. ) had a great time with the creature design!)
Dam I yap a lot, no pressure tags!! And anyone else ofc!
oh boy! i haven’t been a part of one of these tag threads in like a decade! thanks for the tag moot!
last song: ah. well i’ve fallen back into old teenage habits and i’ve been listening to fall out boy on repeat. last listened song was fame < infamy, it’s one of my favourites!
currently watching: it’s not often i watch tv shows, though i’m making my way through my long list of movie recs. most recent movie i watched from it was drive!
currently reading: i’m halfway though andy weir’s the martian and i love it! i knew nothing about the story going in but im very much enjoying it!
currently obsessed with: project hail mary. as many of us are. though my love for red dead redemption stays strong as always! and star wars but mostly just luke and din. hehe.
currently working on: i have not been writing much although my current WIP is a vandermatthews fic that takes place in the 80’s. hosea is a science teacher with a 12yr old son (arthur!) that he’s been raising on his own. dutch is a mechanic that meets hosea while they’re both at the local roller rink. i haven’t gotten very far into the story but i’m rly enjoying it!
last song: Family Affair by Mary J. Blige. it’s been in the ROTATION since i’ve been writing a fic set in the 2000s! it’s such a groove, i love it!
currently watching: been on the Love Island game lately. it’s so chaotic and silly. also waiting for a few more episodes of The Vampire Lestat to drop before i jump into that! i’m soooo excited!!
currently reading: project hail mary! yeah y’all have convinced me. started it last night, so it’s very fresh but i’m enjoying it a lot right now!!
currently obsessed with: red dead, naturally. i don’t know if anything is going to dethrone it for a long time but i have a bunch of fandoms consuming me right now so we’ll see! i just want to mash them all together somehow and see what happens
currently working on: my jovier nascar au!! more specifically, chapter six. there’s some definite angst coming your way so stay tuned for that
New Constellations by Ryn Weaver! Her whole album "The Fool" is great. This one makes me wanna paddle out into the middle of a lake at night to watch the stars
currently watching:
I'm so bad at watching tv unless it's with someone else. I'm watching DS9 for the first time with my spouse, and rewatching Andor with my sister. I'm also watching Narcos with spanish closed captioning so I can practice.
currently reading:
I have so many real books I gotta pick up but I am speeding through All For The Game because I've been roped into a group cosplay in July and I have yet to meet the character I'm cosplaying (it's fine I've done more with less)
currently obsessed with:
red...dead...lol
I first played the game in 2020 during quarantine and then last fall I fell hard back into it. It's hard for me to do anything else lately someone please help
currently working on:
too many fics. specifically chapter 2 of Treading Water in Javier's POV, chapter 2 of the Jack/Francis fic The Wheel, and a Jovier pup play fic for pride month. I'm picking away at outlines to see which multichapter fic I wanna tackle next. we'll see how the dice fall.
My crafting space is now available to me so I'll finally get back into cosplay. Gonna work on a live action version of Ahsoka for Rebel Legion approval, along with Alan Wake for the Remedy-verse party room we're hosting for a con in July. I also have all the materials for a leather backpack that I want to emboss with designs from Javier's gun and put all my jovier charms on...so I should....do that sometime...
last song: Devil In My Car by the B-52s! i should probably listen to more of them lol
currently watching: The plan this summer is FLCL, then Revolutionary Girl Utena! if i feel like it i'll watch the backrooms too
currently reading: Raising Steam by Terry Pratchett, i like discworld and i just got a bunch of them from the bookstore so that's exciting (and daunting lol)
currently obsessed with: red dead redemption obviously. it seems to have a schedule, every 2 years it returns. it's never lasted so long though should i be worried
i also feel the deltarune worms approaching... deltaSOON!!! i'm scared for what chapter 5 will do to me
currently working on: art fight refs. so many art fight refs @_@ all i do is draw
hmmm..... @lucynxd @emporium52house throws myself at you (not forcing/no pressure ^_^)
last song: i had clicked on a song directly after reading this by accident so i guess i'll do both of them
- go down by big freedia and sophie [i was checking on the new sophie upload and you had JUST heard me talk about it like right the fuck now LOLLL]
- in your eyes by badbadnotgood with charlotte day wilson [yo.................. we were listening to this stuff like a day or two ago............. woo woo... woo woo....]
currently watching:
um. uh. i don't watch shows but i last watched like episode 3 of captain laserhawk like 2+ years ago does that count
currently reading:
ao3 like a LAZY IDIOT but i'm also forcing myself to continue 1984. i know winston isn't supposed to be likeable but he's so unlikeable that it's hard to read
directly after that though i will be launching myself at catch-22 or brave new world i haven't exactly decided yet
currently obsessed with:
the hags......... and also gatsby as you already know 😔 so essentially fahrenheit 451, the great gatsby, unfortunately still thond, and i'm also coming back around to have random bouts of insanity about my babies. did you know that terence has brothers?!?!?!?!?!?! yeah!!!!!!!!! crazy!!!!!!!!!! like 3 of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
currently working on:
um. wow i really have no life, i was just about to tell you i was doing nothing until i REALLY thought hard about this. writing for my 4 barely started wips on ao3 [but i might just leave dollhouse as least priority, people seem to REALLY like freaky freitag and aster yellows fever so i'll just keep cranking those out while i figure out how to do the next chapter of 3 in 1]
that and... also artfart refs just like you!!!! [lie] [extremely loud incorrect buzzer] [hasn't even started sketching terence] [still considering redesigning him] [doesn't even have a thoni design] [only has oldstyle and hyppolite somewhat ready] [is the biggest liar of the century]
but anyways, i'm going to pluck @ihavestolenyourkneecaps because of course you will be and @angelicbug for shits and giggles and curiosity and whimsy?!?!?!?!? yeah!!! cause i see you around all the time i wanna know what's going on!!!!!
AAAAAA!!! AAAAAAAA!!!!!! THANK YEW FOR THE TAG, IM HONORED!! :P
Last song: Ocean Man by Ween when I first started writing and Driving in My Car by Yasmin Nur when I finished this :J (DRIVING IN MY CAR IS SOSOSOSOOOOOO PEAKKKKK)
Currently watching: ummm umm im really bad with remembering to watch shows but currently im trying to complete the Danganronpa anime and ideally I’d like to watch all of steven universe since I’ve never actually watched it before (except maybe the first season a while ago!). I also really wanna watch the good place!! But i have nothing to watch it on atm… my list of shows to watch is a little long tbh
Currently reading: Crime and Punishment, Hell Followed With Us, and at least two AO3 fics
Currently obsessed with: PSYCHONAUTS!! It’s reeeeallyyyy got me in a chokehold lately, but I think it’s less strong for my other headmates!! There is a super super good fic that I’ve been reading and auauauaghghh it’s taken over my mind Literally. The other half of us is obsessed with Danganronpa, which sucks ASS but it is so so good at the same time. Super fun game, would not recommend!! Gundham Tanaka <33 OH AND OF COURSE ABBA!! ALWAYS LOVE ABBA!! AND OUR CD COLLECTION!!
Currently working on: Angelic Requiem Act I, a side project for Gabriel and Lucifer’s backstories called Don’t Shoot The Messenger, and a few various drawings for different things! Plus stickers!
Tags (no pressure!!): @santanmantis @raydeovision @crowthingexe @steampunk-luver
Last song: when I started writing this it was To Her Door by Paul Kelly (because I am terminally a middle aged Australian man in spirit), now it’s Hitchin a Ride by Green Day. Both are bangers. Hitchin a Ride is one of my all time faves.
Currently watching: I watched Tropic Thunder today so. I don’t really watch TV shows so much as watch Top Gun/TGM on repeat. It’s bad bro, I know it’s bad.
Currently reading: hypothetically I’m about to start reading Frankenstein.
Current obsession: Top Gun. It’s really really bad bro.
Currently working on: I would really like to be working on literally any of my WIPs but writers block has me by the throat and not even in a sexy way 💔
Tagging (no pressure gang): @kazanskyswingman @secretlyamushroom @icemavman @fanficlsbestfood @death2toby (yes I know you’ve been tagged already but I’m hitting you with the ol’ two for one)
last song: as of writing this Say My Name by Florence + the machine Live ver!
currently watching: last thing I watched was sk8 the infinity(yes I’m gay) and interview with a vampire season one ep 3(rewatching for the new season!!)
Currently reading: fanfic(Ryland x Tony) but in terms of novels then Wings of fire book 17 (yes the dragon Yaoi one)
Currently obsessed with: Ryland x Tony, PHM, Bloodymary and my new au!
Currently working on: my new wip as I said, it’s a marvel fic where Peter is kidnapped by hydra and through experimentation and genetic combining he’s made into the ultimate attack animal. Think twilight werewolves meet Jurassic worlds indo-raptor. Originally it was gonna be more so recovery fic but it wasn’t going anywhere so I changed it to make it more horror kinda like the og Jurassic park novels(like animal horror-but not in a way that makes them into monsters- just shows us what they are capable of. ) had a great time with the creature design!)
Dam I yap a lot, no pressure tags!! And anyone else ofc!
oh boy! i haven’t been a part of one of these tag threads in like a decade! thanks for the tag moot!
last song: ah. well i’ve fallen back into old teenage habits and i’ve been listening to fall out boy on repeat. last listened song was fame < infamy, it’s one of my favourites!
currently watching: it’s not often i watch tv shows, though i’m making my way through my long list of movie recs. most recent movie i watched from it was drive!
currently reading: i’m halfway though andy weir’s the martian and i love it! i knew nothing about the story going in but im very much enjoying it!
currently obsessed with: project hail mary. as many of us are. though my love for red dead redemption stays strong as always! and star wars but mostly just luke and din. hehe.
currently working on: i have not been writing much although my current WIP is a vandermatthews fic that takes place in the 80’s. hosea is a science teacher with a 12yr old son (arthur!) that he’s been raising on his own. dutch is a mechanic that meets hosea while they’re both at the local roller rink. i haven’t gotten very far into the story but i’m rly enjoying it!
last song: Family Affair by Mary J. Blige. it’s been in the ROTATION since i’ve been writing a fic set in the 2000s! it’s such a groove, i love it!
currently watching: been on the Love Island game lately. it’s so chaotic and silly. also waiting for a few more episodes of The Vampire Lestat to drop before i jump into that! i’m soooo excited!!
currently reading: project hail mary! yeah y’all have convinced me. started it last night, so it’s very fresh but i’m enjoying it a lot right now!!
currently obsessed with: red dead, naturally. i don’t know if anything is going to dethrone it for a long time but i have a bunch of fandoms consuming me right now so we’ll see! i just want to mash them all together somehow and see what happens
currently working on: my jovier nascar au!! more specifically, chapter six. there’s some definite angst coming your way so stay tuned for that
New Constellations by Ryn Weaver! Her whole album "The Fool" is great. This one makes me wanna paddle out into the middle of a lake at night to watch the stars
currently watching:
I'm so bad at watching tv unless it's with someone else. I'm watching DS9 for the first time with my spouse, and rewatching Andor with my sister. I'm also watching Narcos with spanish closed captioning so I can practice.
currently reading:
I have so many real books I gotta pick up but I am speeding through All For The Game because I've been roped into a group cosplay in July and I have yet to meet the character I'm cosplaying (it's fine I've done more with less)
currently obsessed with:
red...dead...lol
I first played the game in 2020 during quarantine and then last fall I fell hard back into it. It's hard for me to do anything else lately someone please help
currently working on:
too many fics. specifically chapter 2 of Treading Water in Javier's POV, chapter 2 of the Jack/Francis fic The Wheel, and a Jovier pup play fic for pride month. I'm picking away at outlines to see which multichapter fic I wanna tackle next. we'll see how the dice fall.
My crafting space is now available to me so I'll finally get back into cosplay. Gonna work on a live action version of Ahsoka for Rebel Legion approval, along with Alan Wake for the Remedy-verse party room we're hosting for a con in July. I also have all the materials for a leather backpack that I want to emboss with designs from Javier's gun and put all my jovier charms on...so I should....do that sometime...
last song: Devil In My Car by the B-52s! i should probably listen to more of them lol
currently watching: The plan this summer is FLCL, then Revolutionary Girl Utena! if i feel like it i'll watch the backrooms too
currently reading: Raising Steam by Terry Pratchett, i like discworld and i just got a bunch of them from the bookstore so that's exciting (and daunting lol)
currently obsessed with: red dead redemption obviously. it seems to have a schedule, every 2 years it returns. it's never lasted so long though should i be worried
i also feel the deltarune worms approaching... deltaSOON!!! i'm scared for what chapter 5 will do to me
currently working on: art fight refs. so many art fight refs @_@ all i do is draw
hmmm..... @lucynxd @emporium52house throws myself at you (not forcing/no pressure ^_^)
last song: i had clicked on a song directly after reading this by accident so i guess i'll do both of them
- go down by big freedia and sophie [i was checking on the new sophie upload and you had JUST heard me talk about it like right the fuck now LOLLL]
- in your eyes by badbadnotgood with charlotte day wilson [yo.................. we were listening to this stuff like a day or two ago............. woo woo... woo woo....]
currently watching:
um. uh. i don't watch shows but i last watched like episode 3 of captain laserhawk like 2+ years ago does that count
currently reading:
ao3 like a LAZY IDIOT but i'm also forcing myself to continue 1984. i know winston isn't supposed to be likeable but he's so unlikeable that it's hard to read
directly after that though i will be launching myself at catch-22 or brave new world i haven't exactly decided yet
currently obsessed with:
the hags......... and also gatsby as you already know 😔 so essentially fahrenheit 451, the great gatsby, unfortunately still thond, and i'm also coming back around to have random bouts of insanity about my babies. did you know that terence has brothers?!?!?!?!?!?! yeah!!!!!!!!! crazy!!!!!!!!!! like 3 of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
currently working on:
um. wow i really have no life, i was just about to tell you i was doing nothing until i REALLY thought hard about this. writing for my 4 barely started wips on ao3 [but i might just leave dollhouse as least priority, people seem to REALLY like freaky freitag and aster yellows fever so i'll just keep cranking those out while i figure out how to do the next chapter of 3 in 1]
that and... also artfart refs just like you!!!! [lie] [extremely loud incorrect buzzer] [hasn't even started sketching terence] [still considering redesigning him] [doesn't even have a thoni design] [only has oldstyle and hyppolite somewhat ready] [is the biggest liar of the century]
but anyways, i'm going to pluck @ihavestolenyourkneecaps because of course you will be and @angelicbug for shits and giggles and curiosity and whimsy?!?!?!?!? yeah!!! cause i see you around all the time i wanna know what's going on!!!!!
AAAAAA!!! AAAAAAAA!!!!!! THANK YEW FOR THE TAG, IM HONORED!! :P
Last song: Ocean Man by Ween when I first started writing and Driving in My Car by Yasmin Nur when I finished this :J (DRIVING IN MY CAR IS SOSOSOSOOOOOO PEAKKKKK)
Currently watching: ummm umm im really bad with remembering to watch shows but currently im trying to complete the Danganronpa anime and ideally I’d like to watch all of steven universe since I’ve never actually watched it before (except maybe the first season a while ago!). I also really wanna watch the good place!! But i have nothing to watch it on atm… my list of shows to watch is a little long tbh
Currently reading: Crime and Punishment, Hell Followed With Us, and at least two AO3 fics
Currently obsessed with: PSYCHONAUTS!! It’s reeeeallyyyy got me in a chokehold lately, but I think it’s less strong for my other headmates!! There is a super super good fic that I’ve been reading and auauauaghghh it’s taken over my mind Literally. The other half of us is obsessed with Danganronpa, which sucks ASS but it is so so good at the same time. Super fun game, would not recommend!! Gundham Tanaka <33 OH AND OF COURSE ABBA!! ALWAYS LOVE ABBA!! AND OUR CD COLLECTION!!
Currently working on: Angelic Requiem Act I, a side project for Gabriel and Lucifer’s backstories called Don’t Shoot The Messenger, and a few various drawings for different things! Plus stickers!
Tags (no pressure!!): @santanmantis @raydeovision @crowthingexe @steampunk-luver
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
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Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
2 months now and still Shadow Milk had made no progress in obtaining his soul jam. He was completely torn between his own selfish power and the possibility of building a family. It wasn't like he saw himself as a good father anyway. However he was much more focused on Pure Vanillas increasingly concerning behavior.
It seemed as the days went by Pure Vanilla was almost deteriorating mentally and physically. It was strange to say yet it was the truth Pure Vanilla wasn't doing too great.
He was sluggish and lazy, hardly putting up a resistance to rest anymore, his emotional state tanked, he acted out, he'd cry more often, and all in all he was just a mess. It was starting to worry those around him; Shadow Milk especially.
It was odd. Shadow Milk knew mood swings were normal for a pregnant cookie and yet something about it felt off.
The first month at the very least Pure Vanilla was active and acting normal. He'd put up a resistance towards relaxing and went on with his normal routine, but now? Now he was acting like he was when he was Truthless Recluse, all cooped up in his chambers and building up and laying in his proclaimed ‘nest’.
It was really worrying Shadow Milk and the others around the kingdom. Black Raisin pulled him aside once and very sternly told him:
“Make sure he eats.”
Shadow Milk did listen. He was the one mostly bringing food to Pure Vanilla. Pure Vanilla seemed more receptive to food as his selected ‘mate’ brought it to him. Otherwise he didn't fully emerge from his room.
It was worrying. Very very worrying.
He encountered Black Raisin one day after Pure Vanilla wasn't speaking once more. He knew she knew Pure Vanilla much better than him.
“So… You know about Pure Vanilla right?”
His sudden appearance made her jump and cry out as she was startled. Black Raisin was currently working on scouting and setting up traps.
She glared at him.
“What about him?”
Shadow Milk floated back and shrugged once again hiding his feelings behind an act.
“Oh… I dunno, maybe you haven't noticed how much of a shut in he's been lately! Honestly he's much worse than he was at my spire! Oops… I mean-”
“What?”
“Nothing! Nothing! Haha… Anyway, I thought you'd know something about this… Behavior. He won't talk to me!”
Black Raisin looked at him suspiciously. Shadow Milk sure did talk a lot (especially when hiding his feelings). She sighed and shook her head.
“I… Have my suspicions but…” She looked away almost like she was hesitating to actually tell him her suspicions. “Well… He told me that once before the war he…”
She paused for a moment and looked away. She took a deep breath in.
“I think it would be best if he told you himself."
“Wha-”
“Go!!”
Black Raisin was making it clear she did not want Shadow Milk to be there. Shadow Milk only scoffed and floated away.
“Fine then.”
He rolled his eyes and teleported off back to the castle. He gave himself time to ponder about what could've happened to Pure Vanilla before the Dark Flour War that could be making him such a depressive shut in.
Loss maybe? Or something more drastic? He was unsure as he floated through the halls towards Pure Vanilla’s chambers.
The space was neat and clean which came as a bit of a surprise to him as just days before his room was a mess as he tried to build his ‘nest’.
Pure Vanilla was curled up on the bed reading a book and cradling his stomach protectively. He seemed to be in a good mood for now.
He looked up at Shadow Milk and smiled. He looked very tired.
“Have you gotten any rest at all, Pure Vanilla?” Shadow Milk crossed his arms.
Pure Vanilla seemed to sense the confrontational attitude and looked slightly anxious. He set the book down and sighed.
“No… Not really.” He admitted making Shadow Milk sigh. Shadow Milk floated over towards the bed and sat down at the edge.
“You know you should be.”
Pure Vanilla sighed and looked guilty. He knew he should be taking care of himself better but he…
“What's really going on?” Shadow Milk asked critically and narrowed his eyes.
“It's… Nothing really. I promise you I'm fine.” He offered a soft smile for reassurance. Shadow Milk knew he was hiding something.
“Well…" Shadow Milk leaned in closer. “I spoke with Black Raisin Cookie earlier,” He watched as Pure Vanilla's face fell and was replaced by a look of panic. “She told me that you knew this situation better than she did.”
He raised an eyebrow.
Pure Vanilla's face dawned with a tragic realization, his eyes filling up with tears immediately.
“I…”
It was like a switch had flipped. Pure Vanilla started to bawl hysterically, tears immediately falling down his cheeks as his sobs started to fill the room.
Shadow Milk was stunned by this sudden reaction. He tried jumping back but Pure Vanilla grabbed onto him and wailed into his chest. Whatever it was that had happened to him it must've affected him greatly.
It took a while for Pure Vanilla to calm down enough to actually explain why he was crying and what had affected him this much.
“I-I’m sorry… I just…” He took a few breaths to calm himself. “I can explain everything.”
✧✦✧
A long time ago, way before the war, or maybe it wasn't that long ago… My kingdom and the Dark Cacao Kingdom had an allyship. For a while the relationship was strictly political but… Things change of course.
Dark Cacao has been my friend for so long… It was hard not to fall for him.
He chuckles softly, nuzzling into Shadow Milk further.
I courted him… the marriage was seen as a political achievement.
His voice trembled slightly but he steadied himself.
I got pregnant after a while, triplets. It was odd for my species to bear three eggs, we usually lay only two! It was a miracle, three potential heirs to the thrones.
It was difficult being pregnant for the first time but I was in good hands with Dark Cacao. When the eggs finally arrived he insisted they stay in my kingdom. His kingdom was cold and harsh, truthfully it was a good idea.
For a while… It went well for the first few months. I kept the eggs safe and made sure they were warm in my nest.
They grew so fast! It only felt like an instant before they hatched.
Three healthy little girls.
Tears welled up in his eyes despite the soft smile on his face. He wiped them away quickly.
I thought they were healthy. I thought we were going to be happy. Dark Cacao and I were so proud of our little girls.
Everything was going so well… For so long. It felt so… Abrupt!
One night, one of the triplets started crying, like she was in pain. I went to her crib and saw the rash on her and the temperature she was running. I did everything I could to keep the fever down.
It felt even more futile when my other daughters got sick as well… rashes and fevers. It kept getting worse… They wouldn't stop crying. They were in pain and I knew it!
I-I did everything in my power… Medics and healing spells but it was like they were resistant! Nothing worked and not even I could figure out what was wrong with them.
He started to cry again and then he started to ramble. He buries his face in his hands.
I-It was just… They kept getting… Sicker and sicker and I… I… I was powerless to st… Stop it! And…. And they just… Kept wailing! Screaming and crying! I knew they were in s-so much pain but I… I… oh!!
Shadow Milk shook Pure Vanilla's shoulders to at least try and keep him grounded. He went silent and just cried for a minute. Shadow Milk let him.
And then… One day… It stopped. All of my girls just stopped crying. I wished that a miracle happened, that they somehow got better, but they didn't. They never cried again.
I didn't know what to do anymore. I spiraled. Nothing was even going right anymore. I wrote to Dark Cacao informing him of our daughters deaths.
By the time he came I was deep in my depression. It was like denial had set in. I refused to believe they were dead. He found me in my chambers crying my eyes out. I remember reaching out for him.
He embraced me. He held me close. I… Don't remember what he said to me… I remember him stroking my hair and saying something like, “It'll be okay. We still have each other."
Pure Vanilla shook his head.
No… That wasn't what he said. But he held me… Like this.
He took Shadow Milk's arms and wrapped them around himself. One arm rested against his wing, the other on top of his head.
Just like this…
It was so hard to even have the thought of a funeral for them… But I could swear that night after the funeral there were three small stars shining brighter than the others..
✦✧✦
Pure Vanilla sniffles one final time. He curls up on himself against Shadow Milk who'd been uncharacteristically silent the whole time.
Despite the stone face Shadow Milk had, the eyes in his hair said everything. They were blurry and teared up.
Pure Vanilla tilted his head and looked away.
“I'm sorry… You didn't need to hear all of that..”
“No.” Shadow Milk shut down the self deprecation immediately. He grabbed Pure Vanilla's chin and tilted it up. "Stop saying that stuff. You didn't deserve that… No cookie does.”
Pure Vanilla's eyes widened. Shadow Milk didn't sound much like himself… Maybe he was finally rubbing off on the beast.
“I-I just… Needed to get that out..”
“Feel better?”
“Yes…”
He cuddled up against the jester's chest. Everything had taken a toll out of him. He closed his eyes as Shadow Milk started to stroke his wings.
After Pure Vanilla had finally fallen asleep one thing still lingered in Shadow Milk's mind. He knew grief can do things to cookies; he didn't fully believe the bit about the stars.
He laid Pure Vanilla down on the bed and floated out to the balcony.
It was starting to get dark out anyway most stars weren't evident fully. He looked up and scanned the sky, looking for the three small stars Pure Vanilla supposedly saw. To his surprise, he saw them. Even in the dim light the triplets shined brighter than the rest.
The jester smiled to himself. A sad pitying smile as he watched the stars twinkle in the sky. Pure Vanilla didn't deserve such heartbreak… He couldn't believe he was thinking that.
Shadow Milk decided to put a hold in his quest for the soul jam. For now at least…
He was thinking about teleporting to his other realm to speak with his dearest minions, but his little dove felt more important at the moment. He went back inside. Pure Vanilla was trembling. He climbed in bed and cuddled against Pure Vanilla. The trembling and distress died down.
… He was never going to get that soul jam was he?
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was activity taking damage writing this i hate making PV suffer 💔💔
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