i'm in a loop of thinking about a friend i lost, he passed away about two years ago.
i know i could have forgiven him if i was given the time, he would have thought my kid was hilarious, he would have gotten along swimmingly with my fiance, he would have fit right in with our friend group and dynamics but he'll never get to meet them.
i hear music i know he would have loved and i get a little twinge of nostalgia, remembering when he'd share music with me, i play games we talked about together and feel guilty he isn't here to finish tears of the kingdom, or watch the newest season of what we do in the shadows.
i hurt knowing he won't ever experience the art he loves, so i experience it for him.
grief is weird man.













