coding + dreaming

maybe if i keep ignoring this feeling of impending doom it'll go away

if something fundamental in me wasn’t missing i would be so fun to be around

those days where your entire train of thought is just “I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS I CAN’T DO THIS I’M NOT GONNA MAKE IT PLEASE HELP ME” and whole time ur just like. sitting at your desk completely fine

I just saw an acquaintance use "👖🛝" in place of the word genocide and. like. at what point are we going to decide that this kind of self-censorship is too degrading to abide anymore.

"grape" "sewer-slide" "the panini" I feel like I'm surrounded by Rugrats who overheard the grown ups talking about the news.

I'm tired of seeing people excuse algospeak because "corporations are making us do it." Why are we all letting them do that. The Internet is real life. Get mad about it.

Hope everybody finds their purpose in this world and I hope y’all experience real genuine love and happiness

desperately need to read or watch something that will alter my brain chemistry and turn me into a new person

it has gotten better before. it will get better again. and again and again and again.

constantly remembering that the big beautiful life i made for myself takes energy and time and dedication all the time every day forever not just once to build it but every day to live it