Assigned Iruma At Birth

rinney sludge (+ one Donna) for the 5 people left in this fandom

He looks SUPER young here, like 10, or maybe less than that

"Apparently the Labor Standards Act doesn't apply to deadlines." "Now that's scary..." and yet they hired him, they're not doing anything to stop the exploitation of a child's labor

The only art I have of her,,,,

The fracture in his psyche begins with feeling like he’ll never be enough, that the only value he holds is what he can do for others. And so much of his story revolves around allowing himself to reframe that narrative to move through his trauma and truly develop his own identity and agency. And of course being provided a safe and nurturing environment to do so. He wants to help people because he’s greedy and it makes him happy and it’s HIS choice.

I think where Kirio’s psychology diverges is the fact that his empathy was punished, first by his family and then systematically by way of institutional abuse. His fixation with despair is always framed as this like..ugly sadistic innate nature. But I actually think he’s extremely fascinated by all strong emotions, even his own.

Like he looks so silly here lol but I don’t think he’s lying when he says the sound of people’s laughter makes him so happy! He’s also HIGHLY in tune with the emotions of others for better or worse, it’s why he’s able to name Iruma’s insecurities so easily in the Deviculum scene. You can’t pick away at feelings like those without immense empathy to understand them. I think the fact that he would have never felt safe exploring his own feelings as a child probably contributed a lot to his just like..raw desire to experience it all. Despair is just the strongest and most familiar emotion he knows.

His deepest core fear is that his empathy is what will drive the people he loves away, that he’s too much. Nishi has always framed demons as very stoic and apathetic, self serving in a detached way. He’s abandoned by his family for not being enough of a demon and those same extremely “human” qualities are ultimately what allow Baal to manipulate him so effectively. “I see and accept all of you and you’re not a mistake.” But the way his narrative is groomed by all these adults around him is so poisoned and insidious. It’s not true agency, and without a doubt he’s self aware and emotionally intelligent enough to know that.

Nishi’s core message in this story has always been that the adults should protect children, and Kirio is the ultimate failure of that ideal. I think his character page hints at this too. He hates adults. Even though he’s exclusively surrounded by them in his daily life? I absolutely think we’re heading towards a redemption story for Kirio. Him and Iruma mutually understand and accept each other so deeply, they’re trying so hard to teach each other true belonging in their own extremely messy ways. But I think Iruma will have to find a way to give him the agency he’s still missing.

It’ll all hinge on Kirio being able to confront his fearful younger self that’s never had control over what’s happened to him, and choosing a path forward where he can truly reframe his narrative too. Autonomy and his own identity. How we get there idk but I’ll never be convinced that he’s happy, wherever he’s been all this time. We’re praying for you Iruma lmao

Ahhhh anyways come visit again soon so I can pick your brain more cat boy.

Anyways yeah GET CRAMPED, YOU DAMN ASSHOLE (affectionate,, but also derogatory)

This drawing was very rushed & messy so don't look too closely at the details,, (it's also a version of a different drawing that I made with the same concept lmfaoo)

Also yayyyyyyy transmasc Ciel yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (everyone cheered) /silly

@killdemwithlove @starboys-headspace @bisquuet

It's what I love about you Demons ..how you can smile and laugh, after everything. I want to protect that ..more than anything, so the demoness Lilith that I choose to portray tonight ..may she light up your faces once more!

also like. i don't want Sebastian to die. it wouldn't solve anything but the big thing keeping them bonded. like cool he's not going to be eaten by a demon and groomed to being a lil evil lord anymore............he's still severely traumatized, messed up, has his own twisted values and respects his servants like they are his new family, something that would be impossible to still do if he just went home. It would mean a worse life for Finny, Bard and May-rin. It would mean o!Ciel would still be seen as sickly and the spare. What comes with the evil shadow looming over him, he has gained respect from people who genuinely care about him beyond his ability. and i would never want to take that away from Ciel just because Sebastian bad.

i also feel like people act like EVERYTHING Sebastian does has evil mastermind intent when like. did we all watch book of the Atlantic? he's not some evil mastermind of the series. he's a starving dog with the brain of one. acting like everything he does comes with malicious intent is like saying he wanted to get blood on ciel's clothes when offering his hands to get them off those crates when no, he genuinely just forgot to change his gloves. some shit GENUINELY JUST DOESNT CROSS HIS MIND BECAUSE HES A DEMON. and stuff always fascinates, startles and perplexes him. he's in the same boat as ciel like. look at him in this latest chapter. him and Ciel are BOTH shocked, BOTH confused and BOTH screwed. I'm tired of people acting like he's this grand overseer evil mastermind that needs to be defeated. he's a creature acting like a butler. he CAN be manipulative, he CAN be fucked up, he HAS actively harmed ciel in numerous scenes and and IS grooming him to be worse. we ALL WATCHED THE EMERALD WITCH SCENE. He is a active threat and still an adult man who uses that to deceive people. He still holds a lot of power. but I'm not going to sit here and act like Sebastian isn't also sometimes impulsive, clueless, hasty, egotistical, and overly confident. people act like he's some grand powerful being........................every grim reaper (besides maybe Grelle) sees him as gum under their shoe. a threat to their job but vermin none the less. he's a rat in a trashcan to them. he's not some all powerful god. he's a bottom feeder creature with a ego the size of England. his boastful ego shouldn't blind people to him being honestly rather fucking pathetic.