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If you offer to invest in my fucking life career and immediately say, “but then you have to do _____ for me”..

You can go fuck yourself and your ‘investment’

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you are not your intrusive thoughts - just because you have them doesn’t mean you are a bad person

If you want it done now, do it your fuckin self.

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Why do I focus on other people?

So that I don’t have to focus on myself, duh.

If I focus on other people, other people will like me, and let me control and be controlled. If I focus on other people, I don’t have to think about how I’m letting myself down. If I focus on other people, my dreams stay on hold and perpetually just out of reach.

#focus #dreams #selfsabotage

It makes me really uncomfortable to accept things, anything, from people for a variety of reasons:

1. I like to be the one gifting to others.

2. past experience has shown me that people expect things in return.

3. I don't feel worth it, like a bad investment.

#insecure #generosity

I expect nothing because they will fall short

#expectations #accepted #unbothered #zerofucksgiven #alreadygone

I don’t leave the house because I’m scared to.

Because it’s scary and I’m afraid to be vulnerable.

Because being outside means I could get hurt in any manner of way by any person at anytime.

Because I’ve been told that ‘the freaks come out at night’, ‘it’s not safe out there’, ‘bad people would love to take you’!

#parenting #fear #insecure #security #safety

Why does she get to smile while being a horrible person?

#insecure #fake smile #unhappy #mask

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Why am I afraid I’m not worthy, or as good as others?

I’m afraid that because I don’t know my full personality, others won’t either, and I’ll be misunderstood.

I’m afraid that I’m putting on another phony face, or rather, that I have no personality at all and won’t make a lick of difference to anyone.

#fear #worthy #whyami

Why am I afraid of being intimate?

Because when I tried to express my emotions or my desires, I was either denied, dismissed, yelled at, hit, ignored, judged, disrespected, etc.

When I was sexually intimate it was with people who took advantage of my body and disrespected it.

#disrespectful #abuse #fear #intimacy #trust #whyami

if your consciousness absolutely must intrude upon mine.. leave a message.

Oceans Thirteen

I’m going to need you around in the support capacity.

#business #executive #boss #theboss #doyourjob #canyouhandleit

Me 2 U:

There is this habit of.. saying you want something and really meaning the opposite

#confused #habits

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You pitted me against ####### and ######## and ####### and then took their sides and left me to fucking rot bitch

#betrayal #triangle #triangulation #gangedup #manipulation

I don’t feel like I can trust you. I don’t feel like I can believe you. I want to feel like I can, but I don’t.

I’ve been steadily having nightmares about you for years. And they’re always about the same thing: you lure me back in and then betray me, one more time.

#trust #boyfriend #nightmare

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