Me And My Thoughts

Due to their deep-seated Confucian beliefs throughout their history, women were rarely known by their actual names both in public and in private. They were know only by names of the men in their lives (this man's daughter, this man's wife, this man's mother) or by the title of their status or occupation. That still exists today to a certain extent. Also, women were very restricted on when and where they could go places publicly and had to hide their faces when they went out. The individual identity of women was therefore hidden from the world since they were not allowed to be truly seen or spoken about in a way where their unique defining personal attributes could be known.

so when he confessed to her, he basically gave her the day she lost everything, back to her, by letting her enjoy the merry-go-round, eat ice cream, walk around an amusement park at her own pace, before assuring her that he'll be there for her at the end of that journey.

he's letting her relive the day over with happier memories, to start fresh for herself/ their relationship, to no longer let that day define her.

when they meet again, he doesn't just tell her that he "loves her," because he knows that hee-joo probably won't accept that answer.

he sees her scared and understands that she fears being rejected by him, so he instead, acknowledges her feelings:

"tell me how to hate you. tell me how to not love you."

the first word he ever heard from her with her real voice was "Baek SaEon"

the second word that she said to him was "가지마 (gajima) [don't go]"

how melancholic it is for the combine words to turns into a phrase "Baek SaEon, don't go." for someone who's life was never his since the beginning.

"did I asked for this life? stop shoving it down my throat. as I'm at the edge of throwing it all up."

"if i didn't act reckless, i have nowhere to hide. there is nowhere to hide except my back."

you don't talk about baek saeon being a red flag without understanding that he is a trauma on legs. the guy's whole life was built on lie. a lie that we currently don't know which way the writer will reveal to us. I'm not sure whether they will follow the webnovel route or their own route. from the way the story goes, maybe they'll went a different way from the webnovel regarding baek saeon's real identity.

please heejoo save this guy... you're his only salvation, the only one who can let him breathe.

"the only thing that can calm me down was the hand movement of a girl next door practicing sign language every night."