Sweetly spiralling

women keep trying to do evil mindbreak hypnosis on me by being nice to me and telling me i'm doing a good job and offering me treats and saying i'm a really good girl and that i should try to be kinder to myself and maybe just take this moment to enjoy, just the two of us, no pressure, no mask, nothing more to be afraid of or to constrict or constrain, just be present and feel the warmth and comfort that comes from being cared for. theyre doing this because they want to hurt me sexually

subject muttering a suggestion or mantra under their breath the way you do when you need to remember something. quietly talking themself through a suggestion step by step like when you're alone in your house trying to focus on something or figure something out. like it's just some mundane normal thing they're doing

saying stuff like "just relax... don't think about anything... just go into trance..." to themself the same way someone mutters to themself that they need to get their keys and their wallet before they leave the house. just reminding themself what they're supposed to be doing. making sure they don't forget. or repeating the same word or phrase over and over like you do if you need to remember an address or a number for a second, just to keep it in your head, trying not to lose it.

thinking about a controlling and possessive hypnotist saying that you're just so hypnotically susceptible that they need to make sure that they're the only one who can hypnotize you before anyone else gets to you and takes advantage of it. because it's just so worrying to them how easy you are.

maybe i want to be talked to really softly. and manipulated a little

Cute girl who finds being mindfucked really comfy rather than just hot, because it means the girl fucking her will have access to every part of her mind without restriction, and being controlled and reprogrammed is the coziest thing in the world. The entire time leading up to it she's all excited before her mind is broken, and even then, she's still mumbling a blank "I love you Miss" over and over as it happens. Only to wake up and desperately cling to her Miss, so eager to be by her side, so eager to learn what Miss chose to do with her broken, mindfucked doll.

Spreading your legs is easier than thinking.

the word docile comes from the latin word docilis meaning “teachable”. it comes from the same root as the word doctor “teacher”. docile. teachable. instructible. ready for a teacher. ideal for one. it’s a fun word :)

prety paternn

Look at me. Don't listen to her. Look at me. Focus on my words. Good. Now breathe. In. And out. Just focus on breathing. In. And out. Ok. She's wrong. All your problems can and should be solved by copious application of mind control. Ok. Are you feeling better, now?

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

Anybody else up mourning the loss of the experiences you were promised as a teenager/young adult but never had

Touch me because im sick of doing it for myself

maybe i want to be talked to really softly. and manipulated a little