BentForBlack

I used to be straight... then I watched interracial porn. I'm not a sissy; I'm not weak or inferior; I don't have a small dick; I'm not incapable of pleasing a woman. I am confident, fit, masculine. But when it comes to sex I'm very submissive. In the bedroom I turn into a bitch who wants to serve, even be degraded sometimes. I want to be in an open relationship; I want to be in a relationship where we don't equate sex with love and we are comfortable, in certain situations, having sex with other people. I'm not sure I'd ever take advantage of the relationship being open, it may be only open in theory but a cuckold/hotwife relationship in practice. Frankly I think that's what I want. But I also want her to care about me enough to be okay with me having sex with another woman should I desire. I want her to extend me the same freedom I extend her. But honestly, I'm not sure a Queen of Spades hotwife would do that; it may be that I have to choose between an open relationship but one in which she doesn't believe in the superiority of black men or a cuckold relationship with a woman who acknowledges the superiority of Big Black Cock and therefore doesn't believe I should be fucking any women. If that's the case then there's no real choice. I need to find a woman that is the female version of the male stereotype regarding lesbians and threesomes. I need a woman who is a switch; who loves being used by black men but then can turn around and dominate me. Sometimes in gentle ways, allowing me to worship feet, ass, pussy, but also in extreme ways, spanking, smothering, and pegging me, with hair pulling. And especially enjoys watching - or better yet, "forcing" - me to submit to BBC. I want a woman who wants the best of both worlds: a white man's tongue, mouth, and lips worshipping her body, and a black stud's Big Black Cock pleasuring her in all the ways I won't. Hopefully at the same time. I love the thought of somebody being degraded and loving it; part of them knows they shouldn't want to submit to such domination but their lust overwhelms them. Originally, my fantasies were either about a straight woman being dominated by another woman, slowly seduced into being a lesbian, or they were about me submitting to a woman. All it took was seeing some interracial porn and I was on the path to fantasizing about Big Black Cock. It didn't happen immediately but it planted a seed. Eventually I realized how sexy I find Big Black Cock and I started fantasizing about submitting to a black stud; kneeling and kissing his Big Black Cock, licking it, having his Big Black Cock slapping my face, sucking him off... going down on my knees and shoulders so he can fuck my ass. At first, I fantasized about a woman "forcing" me to submit to BBC, but I no longer need her in my fantasy; I've embraced, finally, that I'm bisexual. I only want a romantic relationship with a woman but I'm also excited by a physical relationship with other men, as long as they are black and hung. And I'm going to share her with black men, and I want her to share me with them to. I want her to want me to serve her black bulls, before, during, after. I want her to get off on it; enjoying the sight of me serving a black man as well as all the wonderful psychological pleasure the dirty, nasty, shameful acts inspire. If you want to know more about me: https://www.literotica.com/s/getting-to-know-me and why I want a hotwife: https://www.literotica.com/s/my-sexuality-ch-01 https://www.literotica.com/s/my-sexuality-ch-02 https://www.literotica.com/s/my-sexuality-ch-03 https://www.literotica.com/s/my-sexuality-ch-04 and some of my naughtiest fantasies: https://www.literotica.com/s/love-and-marriage