𝐸𝓁𝒾𝓃𝒶

You could go to bed tonight and randomly enter, you could come across a new method and it works on your first try, or you could do something you've already tried a hundred times and succeed.

What I'm trying to say is, stop thinking you aren't going to succeed next time because you truly don't know how it will happen or when so why not hope for the best.

Are you trying to look for fucking proof and evidence outside of yourself as to why you don't yet have what you desire. Do you spend most of your waking moments looking for shit as to why your fulfillment is not here, while you're not this identity, while your desires haven't manifested? Because you're only having your own limited perspective, okay? It's only you and your reality, so only you get to filter through what your experiences actually fucking mean for you and what they actually are. 'Cuz a lot of you will sit in some miserable-ass situation crying, "Where the fuck is it though?" and flood my comment section spamming, "Well, what the fuck does this mean for SP manifestation? What does this mean for this bullshit circumstance, or this area of life, for money, for my health, for my body, for blah, fucking, blah?" And "I don't see this shit yet. It's not happening. This shit is not working."

And that's because you spend all of your awareness on looking for reasons as to why you don't yet have what you fucking want—instead of going within, being aware of what you're putting your awareness on, and having that realization that this shit is with you right fucking now because you're the source of your whole-ass experience. You are! You're only having your own perception, okay? You're only your limited perspective.

And then reality shifts when you have that realization like, "Oh shit, I've been looking outside of me this whole time! I've been yapping like, 'That person's acting like a dick, which means they don't give a fuck about me. Money looks fucked up for me, which means I'm not yet the millionaire that I desire to be,' and blah, fucking, blah." You can go down a whole freaking list.

You spend all of your awareness on looking for why you don't have shit and why it's not working, constantly looking for a fucking fix or a solution. Every single tiny-ass thing that pops into your awareness sets you down a fucking spiral, triggers you, or makes you doubt yourself. When in reality, it's literally just making the fucking decision that you are already it—without any sort of proof or evidence of this shit being in your 3D—until you have this realization with enough conviction, and then it will be revealed to you.

so a few months ago I was offered a modeling gig for a local magazine. It was a cute playground themed shoot, I had my hair done, a sweet outfit, things seemed great!

However, after the photos from my photoshoot and others were getting processed for their spring issue, a girl that Im not the biggest fan of decided to merge her way into approving the final photos. Shes been known in the local modeling scene to be extremely rude to stylists and, at least toward me, extremely jealous. She would have a visible attitude whenever designers complimented me (mind you I just turned 19 and she’s at least 2 years older than me), and would ignore me in public while actively stalking me online.

All that to say, I don’t like her 😭 and when the magazines spring issue was released, I noticed something off about my section. The photographers had used so many locations and showed us so many photos that I thought looked great, but all the photos of me that were chosen were extremely unflattering. In one I was half blinking, in another my safety shorts were showing (which I wore under my skirt that was very short, the photographers adjusted it during the shoot for me), and another was at an angle that made it appear I have a double chin. My clothes were also pretty tight but some of the photos made my stomach seem more bloated than it actually was that day (this is not to shame bigger stomachs I’m js naturally a slim thic girly)

Now I didn’t want to blame my photographers because they didn’t have a say in which final photos made it in, but I could tell instantly the girl I wasn’t too fond of had something to do with this. Even my friends told me they did me so dirty with the final copy LOL.

So, I sat down in my room and made a plan.

Whether I was making breakfast, doing my hair, running errands, getting ready to sleep, I was affirming “my photos in *blank* magazine look incredible,” “I was the best model in that entire photoshoot,” “my face card mogs.”

Then one day I was watching YouTube when one of my favorite singers Tyla popped up with a new music video. After watching it I thought, “she’s so beautiful and confident, let me make my body a carbon copy of hers.” It’s so hard to find black girls that have similar features to me, and tyla and I have very similar faces already. But since she’s short and I’m tall I just affirmed “my body is a taller carbon copy of Tyla’s,” and looped a tyla body subliminal as I went through my day.

These are the tyla pics I used as inspiration:

Then lo and behold I was cleaning out my email when I found the creative director of the magazine had sent me a portfolio of our photoshoot that featured pics from the magazine and more. When I opened it I looked so much better than how I remembered the magazine looked! I’ll include some pictures to give an idea (also I blurred me n friends face but I’m in the mini skirt 😭)

The other headshot pictures I didn’t include also looked more like my natural face, since before it looked like they had altered my lip color? They tried to edit makeup on me that was not flattering at all. But now thanks to robotic affirmations and faith in the law, I love how my pictures look <3 I hope you all enjoyed, blessed be! 🪷

i cant believe my mom's husband agreed on sending me money for college. He's so nice now. And his whole attitude changed towards me. (This man was bitter. He enjoyed me suffering/ failing something . He was JEALOUS. Narcissistic. He did everything in his power for me to fail and not make it. But it changed now? That's a result of it) this was a HUGE manifestation for me and it took no time.. its been like 1-2 days ive affirmed this? im schoked right now okay it sounds stupid but it was impossible for me

self concept maybe DOES matter..? cause ive been trying to develop an alter ego whos ''dominant, aggresive (towards him, to avoid getting stepped on) knows what she wants and someone whos he acts timid towards''. wow.

How did I do it

Simple. I've already been pretty stubborn about rejecting what negativ things he say about me or college matters. Even tho I cried all snotty I rejected his effect on me. I replaced my thoughts with the ones I wanted. He already been kinda calmer to me like I mentioned before, but still it was unexpected. That means if you change what you assume it really shows in physicality. Cause you know my brain told me that this man is now much more understanding and supportive and it MUSTve showed me it. And it did just now.

Quick advice cause I feel frantic: work on ur self concept and identity. Be stubborn and you can even try to create an alter ego. You don't have to believe in it you don't have to affirm robotically all day just replace ur dominant former assumptions. Then it'll be ur reality instantly.

for example, let's start with the analogy of driving. i recommend reading this slowly so it can cement correctly, because i'm using a lot of figurative language. you're in the drivers seat of a car operating the wheel with your hands, your right foot operating the brake and pedal, and your complete focus and gaze at your the road in front of you. in order to drive, all three of those components must be implemented, and i will tell you exactly why.

you lose control of the wheel? then the entire frame of your car is veered off to the side as a result, because you're no longer in control of where your car is going. you're in control of the brake (stopping), the pedal (the intensity at which you can go), and your attention, but you have no control over the destination.

this is what occurs when you feel as if you're not in control of your own life. you're observing the direction you're going, and you are controlling the speed, yet internally, you believe you've got no decision over the direction. meanwhile, all you have to do is grip onto the wheel, and steer yourself back into the correct position. all you have to do is reclaim control.

alright, you got that steering wheel issue fixed. now, let's say you lose control of the brake pedal, and the ignition. so you've got a working steering wheel that allows you to steer the car, and your attention is still faced towards what's in front of you, yet you've got no momentum to move forward. you're sitting there in your vehicle, in the middle of the road looking out at your surroundings, holding onto the wheel, but physically going nowhere.

this analogy alludes what happens when we know the direction of the destination we're headed towards; we know how to get there, but we internally self-sabotage movement, and stay stagnant. you cannot stay in two locations at once. you can't stay in the realm of your old life, while constantly looking out towards your desired life because you will continuously be the observer of this other version of yourself rather than just, being them. again, you have simply have to reclaim control, and decide, no, i am not stuck here, i am going to continue moving one way or another.

so, now you're moving again, your brake and pedal are all in service. but, let's say you suddenly lose focus. you're driving, foot on the pedal, hands steering correctly, but something either internally, or externally catches your attention and takes you out of the present moment. now, you're caught up in a fog of thoughts that are clouding your perception of what's right in front of you. your attention should be on where you're going, yet it's not.

you know how manifestation coaches will always tell you, your desire is already yours? that's because it's absolutely true, as long as your perception is veered towards that. you've already got the roadmap in your head, you already know exactly what streets you're supposed to turn at, but somethings taken your attention off of that. so, you've got complete control over your vehicle's components, you've got complete control over your destination and where you end up, but your focus isn't intact. now you're irritated because you're lost, turning down towns, asking around for help, and as each second goes by, you're losing more and more patience. with each passing minute, you're growing more tired, and you'd rather just go home than deal with this annoyance. and as an hour passes of your aggravation, you've lost all motivation.

but again, all you have to do is clear your mind, breathe in and out, and reclaim control of where your attention lays. because if you just turned down two more streets, you'd realize, your destination was much closer than you believed.

- me looking EXTRA EXTRA sexyyyy and ethereal in my relative's wedding

- getting showered with tons of compliments

- less body hair growth

- manifested fever (accidentally 😔)

- hair till my butt

- photogenic smile

- not getting sick by eating junk food (god bless my digestive system 😭😭)

- my ex-crush liking my posts

- tons of clothes, makeup, accessories

- being able to stay awake for 24 hours w/o dying

- money randomly appearing in my purse

- raining

- not raining

- CRAZY ONE; my periods showed up out of nowhere and i manifested them away and the next entire day i had no pain and not a single drop of bl00d 😫

MUCH MOREEEEE

What I mean by "Rest in the Knowing"

because I say it a lot

I should mention that I got this phrase from Lucifer, my father, the deity I work with. When I first started working with him, I was still pretty fresh when it came to nonduality & Loass/shifting and so I'd keep asking him questions like "WHEN are my manifestations going to come? Isn't this too unrealistic? You really think I can manifest this?" and he'd always give me the same answer.

Rest in the Knowing.

Of course, I didn't hear his voice or anything like that, I use tarot and so I'd always get The Four of Swords whenever I would ask him a myriad of questions.

Four of swords. Four of swords. Four of swords. FoUr oF SwoRds.

Gods was it frustrating!! Especially because I didn't truly understand what he meant then.

I'm sure if I keep getting more asks and I keep responding with/posting about "just rest in the knowing" some of you might start feeling just as frustrated if you don't fully understand what I mean.

What I mean.

Literally STOP 'doing'

I know, I know, I've said it a million times on my blog but that's literally just it. A lot of people (me included) just feel like they constantly need to be affirming or listening to subliminals or doing spell work or praying or whatever just so they can get the desires they're manifesting when there's no need to!! Once you've decided that something is yours, it just IS.

I'll give an example. Imagine, you're an abandoned orphan, you've been living in poverty your whole life and one day you find out that apparently you're the last decendant in a lineage of extremely wealthy aristrocrats and that in one year, once you turn 18, you're going to inherit the massive fortune they left behind. Unfortunately, you'll have to keep living in the orphanage, that's mostly a ramshackle of a house being held together by hopes and dreams, until it's time for you to inherit everything.

Are you, the orphan, going to start begging the universe for the fortune that you already know is yours?? Are you going to look at your surroundings and start doubting? questioning whether you're ever going to get your inheritance?

It's YOURS btw, this is all legit.

Are you going to start chanting and rocking back and forth in your room all day everyday just saying "I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance. I have my inheritance..."

if you're a normal average person, your answer is probably something like

"Why tf would I need to do all that??"

EXACTLY.

If you were in the scenario I've given, you'd probably be pretty relaxed. Even if you encounter stressful days and are constantly faced with the poverty you're living in, in that moment, you'd probably think something along the lines of "I don't need to let these circumstances get to me because I know my life's already changed."

THAT is resting in the knowing.

You KNOW you already have your desires and you're RELAXED about it, despite everything you might be seeing and experiencing.

If you choose to affirm or do anything else, it's because you're just reminding yourself of what's already true in your reality but you're still holding the knowing that you already have what you're manifesting and that you don't need to do anything.

I know Lucifer's happy that I finally got it well enough to explain it lmaooo. We had a rough beginning because I would constantly be running around doing too much and just ignoring his advice (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ) (that I asked for, mind you).

Anyway, remember:

✿♡ You already have all that you desire. You are sovereign. ♡✿

𓅰 𓅬 𓅭 𓅮 𓅯

*Four of swords meaning: Taking a conscious break from a tough situation/ stepping back from an anxious state and letting yourself calm down.

People out here yapping like "I need the 3D to change" don't get this shit at all. It literally doesn't work like that, so stop trying to force it! It’s like, "I need them! I need them right here right now!" Bro, do you even get what "them" is? They’re literally just a reflection of who you’re being. So how the fuck are you gonna experience them in real life just by sitting there wanting to? It doesn't even make sense. You wanna talk about delusional? That is delusional as fuck!

If you actually accept what this is—which is pretty fucking obvious at this point—why do you keep chasing something that isn't even there? I don't know how many times I gotta tell y'all: you don't get anything. You don't receive shit. Reality is literally just the projection of who you’re being! So you don't even have a choice except to just stand ten toes down and be like, "I am already that."

this is all based on my own experiences!! take what you want from this but it is what has worked for me time after time.

choose an area of your life you want to change, for this post i will use love and relationships as an example. look at the version of your love life that you've been identifying with.

let's say you're always focusing on how nobody is ever interested in you, and everyone you like rejects you or they're in a relationship. you're not the person who can get anyone you want, and so that is what reality is reflecting back to you because you are deciding that is your reality and you believe all those things are true about you. but that's not what you want, so we need to do a complete 180 on that identity. all you need to do is decide, i can get any person i want, everyone i like likes me back. and thats it. you don't need to constantly affirm, you just need to switch your identity by deciding you are lucky in your love life and thats final!

no constant affirming, acknowledging & reacting to the 3d, no methods, no living in the end — just choosing my truth.

Just like that after years if begging and crying, I did it in less that 5 minutes while I did SATS. The thing I'm most excited for is my remote job which pays wayy more than my previous one (I used to be a waitress) with barely any work to do. I also manifested being able to enter the void instantly and manifest instantly too. Those three things are the only things I could remember when I was in the void lol. I don't know why I didn't think of doing an umbrella affirmation.

Anyway, that's my success story :D

One of the biggest epiphanies I ever had as Source was realizing that since none of these circumstances are final, why the hell would I go out of my way to try and change them? Why waste energy trying to fix temporary appearances that have zero to do with what I already chose?

Circumstances are not final. They are not the answer. I don't give a fuck if you applied for a job and got a rejection letter, or if you decided you have a band in your bank account but it shows zero, or if you decided your SP is texting you and you wake up to dry-ass notifications. What does that mean? Absolutely nothing. Why? Because circumstances aren't final—your decision is everything. That’s the real tea.

Who gives a fuck about what’s showing up in the 3D? If you decided you’re the person who has it right now, what’s the point of running around trying to fix unnecessary BS that’s temporary, neutral, and completely meaningless?

"But what about the rejection letter I got?!" What about it? Who said that means you didn't get the job? "But the letter said—" I don't care! Who decided that letter has the final say? You either fold and accept that as your truth, or you lock back into your new story.

"But my SP hasn't reached out—" So what?! Who said that means y'all aren't together? Who said that means he ain't pulling up your profile 24/7? Who said that means he doesn't want you? Who said that means anything? Nobody is deciding that's final except you.

"Oh, but that's just delusional! How do I know that's real?" Bro, you have zero proof these circumstances are final. You have zero evidence that this exact moment means you lost, or that it's over, or that it's the ultimate truth. You’re just buying into that L based on the weak identity you’re operating out of.

If you find it so hard to believe you’re that person right now, then real talk, you were never standing on business in the first place. If you’re constantly looking for excuses as to why it’s not working, you never actually made the decision. There is no proof pointing to "yeah, this is final." Nobody decides that but you. And whatever "evidence" you pull out of your head, you’re still just feeding it clout and saying, "This is proof I don't have it."

Every single circumstance is just another temporary, neutral vibe. Nothing has power unless you write the script for it. If your SP isn't texting, and your first thought is, "Oh, he's probably with her, texting her, ghosting me, doing x, y, z"—boom, that's your script now. You just forced the 3D to play that out.

If you said you have $1,000, wake up broke, and start spiraling like, "It's not working, I'm broke, I gotta do more!"—then that's exactly what it has to be, because you literally called it. The circumstance never said a word to you. You're the one assigning the meaning.

Stop giving these useless circumstances a narrative! I do not care what's popping up—it's completely meaningless. The only reason it feels so heavy and real is because you keep giving it main-character energy. You want a new reality? Stop running back to the old script over and over.

I’ve known about the void state for a while now. At first, I was overcomplicating the void and overconsuming content from Tumblr and Reddit. I was obsessed with the idea of entering the void. Because of this, I kept going back and forth and did not stay consistent. After every failed attempt, I became discouraged, so I moved on from the void for some time.

A few days ago, I rediscovered the void and thought, why not? I knew I didn’t want to repeat the same cycle of overconsumption and wavering like last time, so I stuck to a routine. Keep in mind that this was what worked for me; you can use any “method.” What matters most is your consistent belief that you are a master of the void state! Whenever I thought about the void throughout the day, I would affirm “I always enter the void state.” I would also listen to void subliminals on YouTube (I recommend Slade and IWIIGI) and was adamant that I was going to enter the void and manifest my dream life. I stopped putting the void on a pedestal because as a master of the void state, why would I? The void is so easy to enter!

Two nights ago, I entered the void. First, I completed relaxed my body. As someone whose brain is constantly racing with thoughts, this took some practice. If you struggle with this too, I recommend meditating beforehand. I’ve seen people suggest guided void state meditations on YouTube. I took deep breaths and gradually felt my body sink into the mattress. Suddenly, it felt as though I was being pulled into a vacuum. As this happened, I started affirming “I am in the void” and “I am pure consciousness”. Soon, I realized that I could not feel or hear anything. I then started thinking about the lists I wrote in my Notes app detailing every aspect of my desired life.

When I exited the void, I woke up in my desired bedroom. It was exactly how I pictured it. I couldn’t believe it. I ran to the bathroom and saw myself in the reflection. I had my desired face and body. I burst into happy tears. I have been living my dream life since then. It still feels surreal.

Anyway, I just wanted to make this post to motivate others. I know that some people are desperate to enter the void, and trust me, I was one of those people too. You will enter the void! The void is very real! My biggest piece of advice is to just relax, know that you will enter the void no matter what, and persist in that belief. You’ve got this!