Spill Your Guts

I had sex in the back of an elementary school two summers ago.

I can't dream anymore. I'm just dead on the inside

I broke my laptop and phone because of anger issues  Now, my parents don't trust me anymore. I have learned from my mistakes god dammit!

I'm in love with my best friend and always will be no matter how hard I try to not be. He's just always there and throwing me mixed signals and one day he's going to be walking me down the aisle at my wedding and just when we get to the altar he's going to go "by the way I'm in love with you" because that's how he does things and my life will be ruined.

A LITTLE NOTE! MY LAPTOP HAS STOPPED WORKING SO THE NEXT FEW DAYS, ALL CONFESSIONS WILL BE POSTED AS TEXT!

I’m fed up of people on tumblr who I don’t like or who only follow me, to reblog everything I have and claim it as there own. I also hate those people, who reblog things to get people’s attentions, to follow the ‘trend’ and to get followers. Tumblr isn't about how popular you are, that’s Facebook and twitter. Tumblr is here for you to express yourself without being judge. People need to grow up and be there own person, not follow around.

I’m fed up of living. I want to commit suicide. I hate how I am. I hate how I look. I hate how I feel. I just want to give up. I can’t handle anything anymore. I’m all alone. I’m sick of being alone. I just hate feeling useful and pathetic and horrible and I want someone to finally be there for me. I want someone who will take care of me. Someone who will love me. But I’ll never find anyone.

I hate this one girl my boyfriend hangs around with. Just because of the fact she’s so perfect an I’m scared I’ll lose him to her at any minute. Because who wants an ugly piece of shit, when you can have a beautiful goddess. It drives me insane and makes me feel like pure shit. Because I trust him so much… but I don’t think I could ever trust her. She likes him too, which just makes me want to cry my eyes out. I can’t deal with it, and it’s driving us apart. And I don't want to lose the best thing that has happened to me. Not to anyone. Not to her.