#no trust

You realize you were holding a connection they were just passing through. Digital distance doesn't mean the heart you put into it wasn't real. Being written off and minimized by people you genuinely cared about, people you thought cared about you back, just leaves a huge ache.

Oh, well. Glad to know it was all fake and that it meant nothing. Glad to know I will just build up my walls again and reevealuate everyone in my life currently whom I love and see if they love me back or if those friendships are fake, too.

I feel love but i think back to is it true?

I get it.

Love is happiness, not meant to be a fluke

But as soon as you feel hurt, it's like reality hit you with

A sudden boom and then your life is ruined.

You look back, like a lost student wondering which way

To go.

Is it you, her, or is the way your going leading

To you to be shot with a bow.

Then you feel like it was miss fire, an accidental shooting

That happened to hit you in the back with a sudden blow

And you wonder, is this it?

I love you.

No, I loved this.

The feeling of bliss when i saw you and it made me want to give

You a kiss, but then you went.

Without a trace, you left out my life no good bye nor a last chance

To see your face.

Even though i see you everyday in the same place in the same kind

Of way.

I'm lost.

Astray.

So, when I'm told I like you, I feel scared, not knowing what to say.

Not because of me saying I like you back is fearful ,but to be scared of the future.

The way i feel about that person could lead to love or me falling

Into a grave, trying to race love and also trying to beat fear.

I'm not above anyone else but its just the way I feel.

My heart races very very very fast paces then my mind spaces

Into doubt and then i lost my way and,

Now I'm chasing.

Not love but fear.

It’s reversed, i made a life full of love and luck then im now scared

Of a feeling so strong not because of anything but because of you.

So I realized its not fear that im scared of its the fact of having a sacred

Love that makes me feel above anyone else,

Because that's what the most pain comes from.

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