soupy natural

I DONT CARE HOW MANY BEDS THERE WERE. WHAT IS YOUR BOOK ABOUT

(tearfully) w- working at the mattress store

i'm so fucking sorry. can you ever forgive me

tombstone is soooo wild dude. yeah dean is suicidal and literally killed himself last episode but his husband is back so it's alright now let's go indulge dean's cowboy kink for 40 minutes not straight. also jack killed a man.

Hate hate HATE when fics make Dean a jock. That man literally does not give one shit or fuck about sports. Put Dean on a football field and all hes doing is trying to fuck the players.

The thing is. Supernatural is sending me coded messages. Through funko pops. They did that. They portrayed their ending in funko pop form half a dozen eps before the actual end. In an episode of supernatural. Where the writer goes to a fans house. The ending (bad) is set up in funko pops. and all the complaints the fan makes about the episode being bad. Where she is positioned as the level headed one in comparison to a self indulgent author. Are reflected in the real finale episode ?. So like. What level of chess are we on. I know supernatural hates me but they really really really make me. It’s like. Supernatural. Says. I have just spent the last month making a football for you to play with. Look. Here are my in progress pics. Of the football I handmade out of leather I tanned. From a cow I killed. To make this for you. And I go oh wow. Really? And supernatural goes mhm. And now it’s time. For you to kick the football. And I go. Well you see supernatural this has gone very badly for me in the past I’m not sure. And supernatural goes. Come on. It would be crazy if I went to all this effort to juke you. And I say. Yeah you’re right. That would be crazy. Okay. Okay yeah I’ll kick it. And then they pull it away from me

i think we need to see more cas internalised angelphobia crisis. gay angel crisis. I no longer want him to be like no im not even human, sexuality means nothing to me Dean it’s all good and beautiful and natural. I want dean to have a gay crisis and cas to be like GAY crisis?! Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is for me that i fell in love with a human??? GAY? your biggest problem is the ghost of your horrible dead dad whispers “faggot” in your ear whenever you put gel in your hair??? i fell in love with the equivalent of a semi-sentient butterfly who gets trapped on windowsills and dies when the window is open and right there! everyone thinks im a weird deviant and/or a fucking idiot ????? you’re ashamed because you’re not the man your dad wanted you to be because you want to suck off a cowboy, I’m ashamed because this is like if you fell in love with the slice of ham in your fridge

no ok. sorry. much of supernatural is depressing and fucked up but not for the reasons the writers think it is or not only for the reasons they intended. and im a big fan of stories about characters who are aware they are trapped in a narrative but usually they are able to escape or at least are Hopeful for escape. but in supernatural there is no escape. they just get eaten by the narrative. and the THING. is that i don’t know if the writers can even conceptualize what escaping the narrative might look like aside from “We Stop Telling The Story.” death isn’t escape. a nuclear family til death isn’t escape. like even when i remove all the unseen and deleted and unaired and edited factors from the finale it is nothing. it’s not catharsis it’s not closure!! it’s farcical!!! because they wrote themselves into a corner they weren’t willing to deconstruct so they just gave up

we were crazy and free on 2021 spnblr but not as crazy and free as jackles who fucked off to the mountains to grieve and then had his fanfic televised

the line “your worst sin is that you’ve betrayed and destroyed yourself for nothing” is so raw you’d think it’s from a destiel fanfic or even hetalia but it’s actually from dostoyevskys crime and punishment