Jasmineintheforest

Cas: How many should I take? Dean: You? You should probably just down the whole bottle. Cas: Thanks. Dean: Yeah, don’t mention it. Yeah, I’ve been there. I’m a big expert on deadbeat dads. So…Yeah, I get it. I know how you feel.

Cas didn't have to act that way. He could have grabbed Dean and flown back to Bobby's right away. But Cas was angry. At Dean, of course, for the way he played him… but Cas is also angry at God. This point is too often brushed of.

In 5x18, it's only been two episodes since Cas lost faith (5x16). In the very previous episode (5x17), Cas drinks himself into oblivion because he doesn't want to keep feeling disappointment and hurt and everything else because of what he reads as God's betrayal anymore.

"I rebelled for this?! So that you could surrender to them? (…) I gave everything for you. And this is what you give to me."

sounds very much like Dean's

"I've done everything you have ever asked me. Everything. I have given everything I've ever had. And you're just going to sit there and you're going to watch me die? I mean, what the hell kind of father are you?"

Cas didn't have to act that way. He could have grabbed Dean and flown back to Bobby's right away. But Cas was angry. At Dean, of course, for the way he played him… but Cas is also angry at God. This point is too often brushed of.

In 5x18, it's only been two episodes since Cas lost faith (5x16). In the very previous episode (5x17), Cas drinks himself into oblivion because he doesn't want to keep feeling disappointment and hurt and everything else because of what he reads as God's betrayal anymore.

"I rebelled for this?! So that you could surrender to them? (…) I gave everything for you. And this is what you give to me."

sounds very much like Dean's

"I've done everything you have ever asked me. Everything. I have given everything I've ever had. And you're just going to sit there and you're going to watch me die? I mean, what the hell kind of father are you?"

#dean is usually most turned on or responsive to tenderness n empathy#even a tiny drop of it#idts he's enjoying that alley thing#neither was cas#cas is just one more person throwing all his ugly burdens at dean#n dean wud hv actually understood why cas was mad on a usual day#but he's really fucked up rn not to mention he's punishing himself too#it's pretty sad To Me#n ya it shows a lot abt cas (via @jasmineintheforest)

*holding your hands*

That's one of the reasons he's so defensive and angry with Cas jumping back into the God wagon in 5x22. They were supposed to be in this together, but instead of cutting free of his father's shadow, Cas falls back into being a good and trusting son.

Dean would have loved to be around for Cas' loss of faith 2.0 He'd have supported him and comforted him and criticized deadbeat dads. He'd have bribed him for a roadtrip à la Thelma and Louise. It'd be season 5, times a thousand.

--- Dean, gesturing at Cas: What did you do to him? Famine: You sicced your dog on me. I just threw him a steak.

– 5x14 – My Bloody Valentine

Sam about Dean:

It’s when a dog doesn't eat-- That's when you know something's really wrong.

Famine about Cas:

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It's terrifying. Crippling. You don't belong there. Emotional. Vulnerable. They make you Weak. They make you Strong. You can't Focus. yet they give you Clarity. Terrible things the life requires of you, makes you INTO, into you bring it home and hurt them and—

6x01

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(Back at the station, Cas looks out the window.) BOBBY: They won't take long. CAS: You don't know that. They may find more wayward orphans along the way. BOBBY: Oh, don't get cute. CAS: Right. Pardon me for highlighting their crippling and dangerous empathetic response with "sarcasm". It was a bad idea – letting them go.

6x19

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DEAN: I don't know what to do here, Lis. I mean, if I knew for sure what the safest thing was, then I'd do it. Stay here and look after you guys or get as far away as I possibly can.

6x02

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SAM: Then – Then why didn't you call us? Cass, we could've helped you. CAS: I know. I wanted to keep you out of this. I-I was trying to keep you safe.

12x19

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DEAN: There's nothing coming for us. BEN: I could do what you do. You could teach me how to shoot--

6x02

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CASTIEL: These are not just monsters, Dean. They're Leviathan. I have a price on my head, and I've been trying to stay one step ahead of them, to – to keep them away from you. That's why I ran. Just leave me, please.

8x02

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DEAN: Those things were coming for me. And I should've known. [...] I should've known. I should've known that if I stayed with you that something would come, because something always does. But I was stupid and reckless and...You can't outrun your past.

6x01

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CASTIEL: A soldier of Raphael. He must have followed me when I answered your call.

6x03

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LISA. (Starting to catch on that something's wrong.) What's going on? DEAN (dying soon). It doesn't matter. But I need you to know...you AND Ben...just, uh... Thanks. Okay? For everything.

6x05

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CAS: I'm just saying... [He puts a hand on DEAN’s shoulder. DEAN stops and looks at him.] ...if it doesn't work... thank you for everything.

Oh, tricky! Dean and shifters...

I can't say I've ever thought about it too deeply, but now that you mention it, Buddy the Shifter also takes Dean's visage in 13x04The Big Empty in a majorly visible way, too.

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I haven't tracked how the monsters map onto the boys per se, and you're right that often they map to both (Alpha Shapeshifter took on Samuel and Sam too), but I think if I had to come up with something to say about it...

...I'd say it's a fear of Dean's.

Kinda like how "being a vampire" is a very specific fear of Sam's. (-> SEE: SAM'S SUBCONSCIOUS FAKE!DEAN from 4x22: "Listen to me, you bloodsucking freak. Dad always said I'd either have to save you or kill you. Well, I'm giving you fair warning. I'm done trying to save you. You're a monster, Sam -- a vampire. You're not you anymore. And there's no going back.")

That's symbolic in addition to his s4 blood-drinking btw. Sam subconsciously feels and fears being at the kids' table. The burden table. And Sam tries so so hard NOT to be a vampire/burden. He overreaches for power quite often and winds up needing more help than when he started. Augh, Sammy.

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But anyway, Dean's fears.

Like, okay. Hang with me. They're solid, well-grounded fears, I think.

In the Alpha Shifter episode 6x02 (I JUST watched it), we get this nifty little scene of Lisa telling Dean, "You don't want to be here." And he emphatically corrects her about that. (He wants to be in both places!) But still, in his life he's hit with a lot of assumptions about what he wants. And like, it's hard to put into words, but I think that hits at a SPECIFIC worry of Dean's, which is that he's being untrue or deceptive. Even when he's trying not to be.

He's used to putting others before himself, and I think it's certainly possible that the he tries to embody what other people want sometimes, too! That could get... well. If not confusing, at least anxiety-provoking.

Hunting is a rough life, and we see that Dean tries to be honest with people he cares about (SEE: Cassie Robinson in season 1), but the nature of his job is... well. Deceptive. That's gotta be a sore spot for him in like this very mind-fuckery kinda way.

And he wears a lot of chameleon-like hats in order to (a) stay safe (b) keep peace (c) keep his privacy. We talk a lot about how the audience sees Dean in specifically uncharitable* ways because they seem willing to buy stereotypes and unreliable narration about him, which... again isn't really born out by his actions so much as preconceived notions about the surface-level disguises he wears, often to protect the things he cares about.

There is a whole intro dedicated to that from the DEAN POV in The WInchesters.

DEAN NARRATION: Hunting's a dishonest business. You gotta lie all the time about who you are and what you do. But the hardest lies aren't the ones you tell other people. They're the ones you tell yourself.

SPNwin 1x12

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I think the doppel!Dean in 3x10 fits into that anxiety rather nicely too, with him feeling like an Empty thing with nothing he truly Owns or Wants or Needs, maybe even (just) a bad, failed copy of his dad.

DREAM DEAN: No? What are the things that you want? What are the things that you dream? I mean, your car? That's Dad's. Your favorite leather jacket? Dad's. Your music? Dad's. Do you even have an original thought?

Dean fears being empty. He fears "not being a real person."

FAMINE:  I disagree. (Famine moves closer to Dean and touches him) Yes. I see. That's one deep, dark nothing you got there, Dean. Can't fill it, can you? Not with food or drink. Not even with sex. [...] Oh, you can smirk and joke and lie to your brother, lie to yourself, but not to me! I can see inside you, Dean. I can see how broken you are, how defeated. You can't win, and you know it. But you just keep fighting. Just... keep going through the motions. You're not hungry, Dean, because inside, you're already...dead.

This also throw into sharp relief the moment he actually expresses a need.