Soon Never Comes

Ahsoka makes a very good but very disturbing point here. There is an entire generation of Padawans who know nothing but war. They were trained in war and they were raised in war. A war that the Jedi lost. In a single day they lost everything and everyone they've ever known. They couldn't go back to the Jedi temple, the clones had betrayed them and their masters were dead.

So how is it possible that Kanan and Cal are some of the best Jedi out there?

I believe it's because the Jedi were too stuck in their ways and too set on tradition. A Jedi couldn't form any attachments. That's why they were taken in when they were very young so they couldn't get attached to their families. After the Jedi fell, many Padawans went their own ways to try and survive. They didn't have to adhere to the Jedi's rules and did form attachments and with that build their own communities.

And I think that's something the Jedi sorely missed. A community, a family you could fall back on. I think that's a big part of the reason why the lost Padawans of the Clone Wars seem to do better than others. They could form their own path with the force towards being a Jedi, instead of being forced into a predetermined path set in stone by the Council.

I truly believe that Anakin would've thrived in an environment where he could've forged his own path instead of having to follow the rules of stale organisation he grew up in. Kanan loves Hera out loud something he couldn't do with the Council still around. Something Anakin desperately wanted with Padme but couldn't because he knew they'd cast him out, which is part of the reason why he fell to the dark side. When he needed help he was scared to ask for it because of the consequences.

The best example of this post-clone wars upbringing is Ezra Bridger in my opinion. He is not of the Clone Wars generation but he is Kanan's Padawan and carries his teachings and beliefs. Kanan must've known that when he started training Ezra he was for Jedi Temple standards too old and too attached to his parents. But Kanan had faith. And rightfully so, Ezra's connection to his parents is one of his biggest sources of strength. Kanan and the ghost crew helped him through a lot of his grief surrounding that.

The idea of

“We’ve seen each other at our worst, thus common, domestic embarrassments of a starting relationship are … just not that big of a deal. “

is just such a delicious form of showing intimacy. Of how a relationship has changed so much and how they became so deeply interwoven with one another, without making a big deal out of it.

Not having cleaned their flat when the other comes over? Looking sick and tired during date night, instead of a total hottie at all times ? Vomiting or otherwise using the toilet in front of each other ?

Yeah, none of that compares to the embarrassment of having seen each other when they were

So petty and mean, wishing hell on someone was the nicest thing they could offer!

So angry, they risked tearing it all apart!

So desperate, begging was an intrinsic need!

So weak, getting back up wasn’t even a thought that was possible.

Or in other words

Busier day at temp work today but I churned out a few :)

"you worthless piece of shit, I should just shoot you now to save the kaminoans the time to decomission you."

"says you, fuckwit! you'd probably end up shooting yourself not knowing which side the blaster shoots from!"

and Anakin is horrified. he tries to break it up and lecture the clones on how they are not only brothers in arms on the same side, but actual brothers too and they and Rex, who was with Anakin, have to then explain

"oh no no no! its fine i swear! this is normal! we know we don't actually mean it."

"Then why did you say it?"

"someones gotta keep our egos in check. that responsibility falls to siblings. no one else was gonna do it."

"Besides, we also know not to do that infront of anyone other than other siblings or trusted natborns. We may be assholes to eachother but we aren't actually trying to get anyone in trouble, hurt or decomissioned."

and suddenly... its like a lightbulb went off in Anakin's head. It was all just a miscommunication. Anakin saw Obi-Wan strictly as a father figure. Obi-Wan saw Anakin strictly as a lil bro. How they treated eachother reflects that heavily. Obi-Wans constant "critism" when out on a mission/alone, but praising when in the temple where other Jedi may overhear.

He was being a dickhead but he was was being Anakin's older brother of a dickhead and that changes everything.

You made one billion dollars? Congratulations, you won capitalism. You can't spend that much. Give the rest back.

Anakin: I quit! I’m done! My body can’t handle the stress! I don’t know if you’re going to kill yourself or blow up another factory!

Ahsoka: I think I did good!

it's been too long since i last drew the last (4) jedi original trilogy au, so had to fix that <3