Ive Got The Best Kind Of Trouble

I promised I would always say thank you & I follow thru/through (next #ELEVEN hashtags & #HELDtheTHOUGHT, past tense) : countED & my day is done at 8:47 PM, March 19, 2020

I ❤️ #CASTLE, #theBest #DEFENSE & #OFFENSE & the proof is, it exists. We’re killing things without thinking & our lives aren’t THAT IMPORTANT. True #PEACE is being “in-the-moment” & MINE WAS #VIOLENCE in #home #night #day #work #school & the #ptsDUH cycle 🙄...thy KNOW!!! That’s not OK! https://www.instagram.com/p/BuWf61EBHmz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=53xjnj5d7g15

“Keep it separated” & then —whoomphhhhh— all at once a darkening because #ANTICIPATION w #trauma is #ADRENALINE & it can be in #theBEST [who is the #writer #author] or #theWorst of ______. Big Clue : he gave lots of insight into #children #EQUALITY & #TREATMENT #BRITISH & he was influenced by ______, ______, ———, ——- etc. OPEN #gkchesterton ✅ #science (#EVIDENCE) + #religion (#FAITH) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuRg0XTBaMz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19air4j6fx38f

#bears ✅ #PROTOINDOEUROPEAN or #PIE (much more interests in 🥧) & why you have to assess #KNOWLEDGE as part of a lesson plan. Everyday with language we could “conjure” our #history :::there’s a word from the PAST BIG TIME...it’s related to #SPIRIT rah rah...who cheers for you & then you literally reveals what’s wrong w #people, like, really. It’s so #BASIC, I don’t know why we don’t “get it” & then I remember those “pesky” #emotions : that’s the WAY IN : #castles are #theBest #DEFENSE. I know because I saw them Wyeth own eyes & all the #books were right... establish #TRUST AGAIN WHILE STAYING TRUE because #travel is “personal” because “he” went there...like, literally. The SMARTEST/STUPIDEST HUMAN BEING EVA. Like #jussiesmollett, you don’t write a check for your fake “attackers,” you don’t TELL THE PERSON WHAT YOU DO TO THEM & then DO IT! No consequence because they just “make it up” & the validation of one person, only...gee. I wonder... since we talked about it a lot! Every time we went #HOME. I go home a lot & that’s why it was “a difference” & that’s when t#the façade starts to crack... https://www.instagram.com/p/BuRBdzyBqzu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s7pm0jzgwbki

EDGES make “this” (looking, thinking, holding thought—basically SYNTHESIS & APPLICATION) easier ✅ do things to FRUSTRATE LESS & I messed up my “seams” bit does it bother me!?! The need for control & order is LESS since body is LESS DISTRACTING. When u don’t know what to do after injury & no one seems to know what to do but...oh yea, from the VERY BEGINNING, I think I knew... #RIC #PAIN #MANAGEMENT #CHRONICPAIN that literally DOESN’T SHOW UP & teaches from a book ✅ that’s #University https://www.instagram.com/p/BuQ-ojthkO6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=11a9cp02iqtxv

I really want a different world since I believed ALL THE WORDS & believed all “people are trying their best” because we don’t BURDEN EACH OTHER NEEDLESSLY w #trauma (we all have something) unless it becomes “that” bad. So I said I NEED HELP with my #student who is self-harming & mentioning #violence in SCARY WAYS because a #firsTime ✅ : then #healthcare assessing & getting it, you literally don’t CARE IF PEOLE LIVE OR DIE. I was #suicide & I said why (not answering Qs) & now I can read the records & you can’t take the Hippocratic oath “do no harm” when you #lie. I know I don’t “look it” & just a stupid #specialeducator with a past. I was #science #medicine & decided NO. What’s #theBest way to “live this #LIFE one time!?” With TRUTH. I will not deny WHY I went into #specialeducation but I don’t have to share myself (my privacy/my ideas/hopes & dreams) but I will #GOSSIP about “them.” These pronouns really messed up my head & if “people” don’t “feel” like “she” or “he” who cares!?! I just know THEM is #students & #admin so connected—I like finding how things “work”—just a little hobby of mine. Most people I find could be “happier” if they had a hobby. All mine relate to one thing... 🤫 https://www.instagram.com/p/BuO0soWB8gj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ao2kdhk76kfi

✅🌈🙌❤️🐍 <<—super symbol since connects to safest places at once. That’s #mind (something to think about #symbol) #body & the #evileye #ROMAN #ancient bathhouses & #spirit. They’re really good #FIGHTERS #OFFENSE ⚔️ ON (don’t forget, 1/2way in #trauma & 1/2way in #fantasy) #LIFE isn’t “easy” for the majority & for many, it’s HELL. Imagination is #creative solving problem so I used all the colors up! There’s no more, just thoughts & words & actions & MAKING SURE TO REJECT WHAT WE #HATE. My triggers are people that #lie, #cheat & #steal I’m not really around it often, but now that I’m aware...you don’t WALK AWAY ✅ #principal, you have Qs to answer. See me 🖍 https://www.instagram.com/p/BuNJZw3hezt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14jffn1gt0m6a

Trace the lines on #color since more visually interesting w the white space. I use color to keep hands moving but not as necessary anymore & then 💦 damage & this curve...kids need to hold pencil to page to make a dot (that’s directionality + stability & grip) then to move towards a “dot” in space is a live. Then...right, I’m not a #teacher ⚔️ https://www.instagram.com/p/BuNGeJ1BFKZ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1d4wv3yp8iyjb

Trace the lines on #color since more visually interesting w the white space. I use color to keep hands moving but not as necessary anymore & then 💦 damage & this curve...kids need to hold pencil to page to make a dot (that’s directionality + stability & grip) then to move towards a “dot” in space is a live. Then...right, I’m not a #teacher ⚔️ https://www.instagram.com/p/BuNGPJ2B1A6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gkz0atjqdiw6

Just getting it out...speeding up because it’s patterns & muscle memory when muscles do their own thing so no #memory. No #TOUCH which is a multi-sensory way to #learn. We use our SENSES ALL THE TIME. We’re #animals, too! #pTsd is removable if #survivors #victims #SPEAK : #selfadvocacy so u can do it for self. I need a #doodle break 🐶! Walk & see #doggies (out) or 🖍 (in) : the accommodation is to give #KIDS choice because they feel EMPOWERED when it’s a “good” one & now, let’s enter #GROOMING because #victimology is #psychological since it’s POWER, CONTROL, DOMINANCE & RELIVING IT. The parties both reLIVE. That’s where I’m done ✅😶 & I don’t have to wonder why—I had the #predator explain it to me!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BuM5qGWBP1T/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=h2m88byyzb38

Just getting it out...speeding up because it’s patterns & muscle memory when muscles do their own thing so no #memory. No #TOUCH which is a multi-sensory way to #learn. We use our SENSES ALL THE TIME. We’re #animals, too! #pTsd is removable if #survivors #victims #SPEAK : #selfadvocacy so u can do it for self. I need a #doodle break 🐶! Walk & see #doggies (out) or 🖍 (in) : the accommodation is to give #KIDS choice because they feel EMPOWERED when it’s a “good” one & now, let’s enter #GROOMING because #victimology is #psychological since it’s POWER, CONTROL, DOMINANCE & RELIVING IT. The parties both reLIVE. That’s where I’m done ✅😶 & I don’t have to wonder why—I had the #predator explain it to me!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BuM5TOgBVFN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=olwoihrft4ds

Wrote what is recalled : #chicago #pbsnewshour #celebrity #imagery & that goes back to #crime & #punishment since the way people are & WHO THEY REALLY ARE (a) in times of stress (b) when opportunity rises OR LITERALLY (c) insane #greed. The emotions that are #mentalillness are #SHAME (avoiding) #GUILT (avoiding) #ANGER (avoiding) #FEAR <—-this one YOU CANNOT HIDE...definitely ahead of it ✅ https://www.instagram.com/p/BuM4Xkghv0j/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8tppfvkxwkkm

It’s #bananas 🍌 & #race is unloCKed https://www.instagram.com/p/BuM3kbdh4NI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=94p6b9r8g1t5

Swipe 👉🏽👉🏼 twICE (ssss #ow) & see a Augur Buzzard literally stop #TIME 🙌🙌🙌🌈🙌🙌🙌 & I can’t even begin to start talking about #survivors #victims because the convo THAT SHOULD BE HAPPENING & ISN’T IS THE REMINDER—we don’t get #ptsd so we “make it up” or could LISTEN TO THOSE WHO GO THROUGH IT 🤷🏻‍♀️🤔⚔️🤫🎯 #archer for TRAJECTORY so now 2 points connected by #AIR #JORDAN & reminder to breathe : this #bear is CRAYMAZING!!! ❤️🐻 https://www.instagram.com/p/BuM3LPZBO8G/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=m440qhuekujp

#black #white #grey #gray & #BOW #arrows unloCKed : “sane weapons but the #LasTimE because #MOVEMENT is the last piece 🧩 this student’s #sensory needs & his #words were the first to break the spell—“where are you?” because no one was #home & why he’s playing #videogames : violent ones : he explained the rating system to me. He’s a very articulate HUMAN BEING & what happened to him was not FAIR or EQUAL https://www.instagram.com/p/BuMjMz6hOBR/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=k32k43w08rhi

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REWIRE #brain w #specialeducation since it’s CONSTANT ✔️ing & reflection on Y/N & then adapting. It’s v simple since the kids will do their best & they hardly #lie (#teachers blame my #students & why that last tear was VERY REVEALING) I’m not the quiet type 🤫 anymore... https://www.instagram.com/p/BuMGdl9hWT4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1oy9f469nog8d