In-tuition Debt

It’s like this. You know there is something wrong with your body… physically, you’re okay. But on the inside, you feel like your dying.

Dysphoria is knowing that you are in the wrong body: that you don’t have a uterus. You can’t bear children. That no matter what you do… your shoulders will always be too wide. Your hips are never wide enough. Your curves are never curvy enough, your breasts, never the right size for your frame.

Dysphoria is looking in the mirror and hating everything that you see.

Dysphoria is spending days without sleep because you don’t want to feel the sensation of dread and sadness when you wake up.

Dysphoria is feeling the others look at your with disgust.

Dysphoria is feeling jealous of every little thing that makes a woman a woman: everything from the baby they are holding in their arms to their voice to their curves and the subtle tidbits that you can tell they were RAISED as a woman.

Dysphoria is feeling like a fake when you try to be who and what you are.

Dysphoria is crying in the middle of the night, looking down the barrel of your Beretta and trying to convince yourself that your body… is good enough.

Dysphoria is watching everyone else get married while you are unwanted.

Dysphoria is losing all your friends in one shot when you come out.

“Brazil has just 2.8% of the world’s population, but 46.7% of the world’s trans murders to date.”

Please sign this petition… Help trans people in Brazil

DO NOT DO THIS!!!! IT WILL BURN YOU!!! AND EXPLODE!!!! AND RELEASE CHLORINE GAS WHICH CAN KILL YOU!!! holy fuck who posts this jesus

More than 80,000 people have had to flee their homes, and may have nothing to return to when the fire is put out. 

The fire may potentially double over the next couple days, destroying more of Canada’s beautiful landscape, homes, and habitats for it’s diverse biodiversity. 

Fort McMurray is highly dependant upon it’s position in the oil sands industry, which could be highly affected by the fire, leaving tens of thousands of people without jobs or homes. 

A teenage girl was killed in a car crash as a result of her family attempting to flee the fires. 

Foreign temporary workers might have to leave Canada because the fires have left them without homes or connections to people within Canada. 

I know how hard it can be to relate to something like this, but I’m stunned that I haven’t seen the slightest mention of it anywhere on tumblr. Thousands upon thousands of people have lost everything. Wildlife is loosing its natural habitat by the second. Entire cities and communities are being wiped out. I don’t ask much, just that you try to put yourself in the shoes of those affected by this.

You can donate to the Canadian Red Cross HERE, and if anyone reading this happens to be from Fort McMurray or in the surrounding area, a list of resources can be found here. 

Like they really don’t seem to realize how controlled exposure therapy is and how it HAS to be in order to be effective

it’s about understanding your thoughts, feelings and perceptions of your trauma. it’s understanding that ptsd is a disorder of nonrecovery, where your brain gets stuck in an unhealthy place and can’t move beyond it. and it’s all a very regulated therapy with evidence based positive outcome in both the military and civilian populations suffering from ptsd and c-ptsd.

my therapist is the first i’ve met to have had this kind of trauma training, and she consistently highlights how important it is for us to stick to the protocol’s schedule, but also for me to understand why and how it is that i’m going to be experiencing my trauma (NOT my triggers!!) and learn to untangle the complexity of my learned poor coping mechanisms and being able to process and put away the memory.