He should do anything but what he does, which is stay here, numb and leaking tears, and let Shane hold him. To take what he’s offering and pretend it’s not too much to ask for.
the hollander-rozanov guide to caring for your newborn
Hockey is one thing, but new fatherhood is a whole different game.
like i love you
“How did we let this happen?” “We were both very stupid and irresponsible.”
The Last of Us
vanishing hours
In the winter of 2025, Joel Miller hires Anna Williams to help as an office manager at his thriving construction business. An odd friendship blossoms between them, but Anna has secrets and a baby on the way, and Joel has a monkey on his back.
i know you by heart / the songbird universe
Joel and Ellie settle into their new lives in Jackson but it's not the easiest transition. Thankfully Jackson has a counselor to help with that. Or: The gay TLOU / Prospect crossover you didn't know you needed.
one day at a time
A drunken one-night stand with his patrol partner turns into a pregnancy / situationship. Or: Joel becomes a dad. Again.
the ghosts of babylon
A medical doctor turned hardened FEDRA soldier, Mira Hallowell is sent to spy on the settlement of Jackson Hole, Wyoming, 21 years after the cordyceps outbreak. Things get complicated when she finds an unexpected purpose in Jackson…and some unexpected companionship.
one-shots
heart on the run / hand on the gun - 20k - PG-13
A familiar face shows up in Jackson and forces Joel (and his family) to confront some old demons.
haunting me - 5k - PG-13
What if Joel was a ghost?
bright spots - 54k - PG-13
The hospital AU.
happy birthday, baby girl - 25k (in progress) - PG-13
Ellie has never had a birthday. Joel can fix that.
looking for the light - 750 - PG
"She is gravity and he is stuck in her orbit." A Joel & baby Sarah drabble.
walls of glass - 17k - PG-13
Joel and Ellie struggle to deal with the aftermath of Silver Lake.
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And on a mf'in Wednesday, even! Thanks for the tags @march-flowerr and @sawymredfox <3
“We have three bathrooms in this house, Cee, surely you can find one that serves your purposes,” Ezra sighs. “Use the ensuite in our room.
“Oh, so you keep pads in the ensuite now?” Cee asks, the question dripping with sarcasm.
Ezra scowls. “No, and I don’t appreciate your tone, birdy.”
“Then I can’t use the ensuite,” she says, clipped. “Because I need to change my pad and they’re all in that bathroom.” She points to the one with the door firmly shut, the one Ellie has been hogging for ten minutes.
“What about the powder room downstairs?”
She rolls her eyes. “No pads. We ran out last month.”
“Well, how am I supposed to know that unless you put them on the shopping list?”
“I dunno! I figured you’d, like, take inventory or something! Jesus!”
“Cee,” Ezra says, pinching the bridge of his nose. Joel recognizes as his I’m trying not to lose my shit and make a bad situation worse gesture. “We use approximately sixteen-billion different items in this house at any given time, I cannot possibly keep track of every single—”
The bathroom door finally opens, interrupting their oft-had family argument, and Ellie’s pale face appears in the scant space allowed. All eyes turn to her.
“I got it,” she says through gritted teeth.
“You got what?” Joel asks.
“You know.”
He really, really doesn’t.
“Oh, fuck, you got your period?” Cee chimes in over his shoulder. “That sucks. Sorry, dude.”
Tagging in @alexaprilgarden @lauronk @dancingonmoonbeams @maggiemayhemnj @tinytinymenace and anyone else who wants to join, please do!
This idea is wonderful!!!! Thanks for tagging me!😍
Can I do some self-rec? I love my boys so much, I want to shout about them🤭
The Small Things of a Whole
Intimacy glows in many ways: a knowing glance, a gentle caress, a hug, a playful smile, an inside joke, whispers of understanding and support, vulnerability, and offers of care with no demands of being repaid, among others. It grows if nurtured, blooming, making a whole.
It is a project born thanks to a made-up fic title I never saw myself writing, and now I can't see myself without it. I'm loving writing about Frankie and Ben and their relationship.
@sixhours 's Joel and Ezra are divine! I'm so obsessed with them!
Vanishing hours
In the winter of 2025, Joel Miller hires Anna Williams to help as an office manager at his thriving construction business. An odd friendship blossoms between them, but Anna has secrets and a baby on the way, and Joel has a monkey on his back.
I know you by heart
Joel and Ellie settle into their new lives in Jackson but it's not the easiest transition. Thankfully Jackson has a counselor to help with that.
@rosharanfiction There's only three chapters of her Javi and Joel so far and they are so good!
Crosshairs
There’s something about Jackson’s newest resident that gets under Joel’s skin. It’s not just Javier Peña’s cocky attitude that Joel can’t stand - it’s his tight pants and his too-smooth voice, and especially the way he’s sleeping with half of Jackson. But Joel can’t deny that Javi is a damn good shot, so when raiders make camp in the nearby mountains, he begrudgingly agrees that they can work together. Soon their rivalry shifts into an attraction, as fever-hot as it is terrifying. But Javi’s not the kind of guy who does commitment, and Joel doesn’t want to let him get too close. As feelings start to spiral and raiders close in, Joel and Javi both have to fight for their lives - and maybe for each other, if they decide it’s worth the risk.
@whocaresstillthelouvre 's boys are CRIMINAL
D x C Part I and Part II
Clint walks in on you and Dieter in a particular situation and decides to join in.
Fucking two men who fuck each other.
@perotovar 's Din and Dieter are such a joy to read!
This Protector
Dieter and his bodyguard, din, get the wrong hotel room. i wonder what happens...
To be clear. Shane's whole thing about Ilya being a Sex God is because of the limerence. Ilya is nineteen and he can get a rhythm going and that's about it. He was throwing shit at the wall when he hit that 'Get on your knees' in Nashville but only he knows that because Shane's brain turned OFF. Ilya said "Let's do a little experiment here" and the results were "Oh my god oh my god oh my god." Shane came hands free because he was that obsessed with the idea of Ilya Rozanov being inside him. Ilya said "Do you like that do you like that" because he's nineteen and he needs the validation and Shane was like "YES YES YES I LIKE IT OH MY GOD YOU'RE SO DEEP YOU'RE SO GOOD" and objectively. It was okay. Ilya fully did not know where to put his hands a couple of times. He forgot about Shane's dick. Luckily, Shane is God's special angel who can come from the idea of Ilya's cockhead being in proximity to his prostate a few times. Mind over matter, says Shane Hollander's dick. And then Ilya said "Oh God Hollander" because it was also, objectively, one of the hottest things that had ever happened to HIM, Ilya Rozanov. Shane sits on that step afterwards plotting about how he's gonna get this over and over and over again for the rest of his life and he has no idea that there are women in Boston who have Ilya listed in their contacts as "Hockey Guy 6/10". Shane Hollander cannot fathom a world in which Ilya Rozanov doesn't lay the maddest pipe this side of Lake Michigan. "Ilya Rozanov is a some kind of nineteen year old sex God" No Shane honey he was just designed in a lab to score goals and make you cum and he's done scoring goals for the night.
Harris Drover is just trying to do his job, so he borrows a baby and jumps on a trend. What could go wrong?
Rating: Teen
Word count: ~5.3k
Tags: Heated Rivalry, Game Changers series by Rachel Reid, Ilya Rozanov / Shane Hollander, Post-The Long Game, Ottawa Centaurs ensemble, humor, funny, fluff, baby, kidfic, social media, Instagram
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Notes: You know those social media videos where someone passes a baby around to friends and family and people have to guess in the comments who the parent is?
It's that, but with a locker room full of hockey players.
This is set in the hollander-rozanov guide to parenting universe, but you don’t need to have read the main fic to enjoy this! Just know that Ilya and Shane adopted a baby girl named Yara, and she’s not quite a year old in this fic.
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I want to highlight @sawymredfox's The Small Things of a Whole series with Frankie Morales/Ben Miller. Soft, sweet, domestic. So loving, so beautifully written.
While I'm at it, some of my favs (in the Pedro fandom and elsewhere) writing queer fics: @wolvieispunk @alexaprilgarden @deervsheadlights @consultingzoologist @bumblepony @for-a-longlongtime @qveerthe0ry
Happy Pride, everyone!! 🏳🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈 We will be celebrating
HEATED RIVALRY PRIDE WEEK
❤🧡💛 from June 21 to June 27!! 💚💙💜
All types of fanworks related to the Heated Rivalry series/Game Changers universe are welcome - gifs, graphics, photosets, art, web weaves, fic, fanvids, etc. - as long as they're made completely by you (fuck AI fuck it to death!).
Our prompts come from Gilbert Baker's original Pride flag to celebrate the breadth of the queer experience - feel free to join in for as many or as few as you want! You are encouraged to interpret these in any way you want, but there are some ideas below the cut!
Day One (June 21) - Sex
Day Two (June 22) - Life & Healing
Day Three (June 23) - Sunlight
Day Four (June 24) - Nature
Day Five (June 25) - Magic & Art
Day Six (June 26) - Serenity
Day Seven (June 27) - Spirit
While our focus is on the original rainbow flag, this is a trans-inclusive event open to creators and works of all queer orientations and identities. 🏳️⚧️💖
Please make sure to mention Heated Rivalry Pride Week and the prompt in your post and tag with #HRPrideWeek so we can all see and share your work! Feel free to reach out with any questions, and thank you so much to @ilyasmole for designing the amazing banner! Can't wait to celebrate with you all! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
Sex - Favorite sex scenes/moments. Headcanons / scenes we'd like to see. Explorations of sexuality / characters' relationships to sex. (This should be an easy one lol.)
Life & Healing - Hurt/comfort!! Sick fic!! What does queer life look like for our characters? What will their lives look like down the road? Where/how do they find healing, and what does that look like for them? (Also: Frankenstein AU??)
Sunlight - Explorations of light/dark, daytime/nighttime. What does the show shed light on? Where do the characters shine? Characters who embody sunlight? "Sunshine" as a pet name?
Nature - Scenes and moments in nature. Nature vs. nuture. Analysis of the presence of ice/water throughout the series? Exploration of the characters' natures.
Magic & Art - Bring on the fantasy AUs!! Moments that feel like magic. How does HR fit into the catalog of existing queer art/cinema/TV? [Character] + the art of...
Serenity - Appreciation for the quiet moments. How/where do our characters find/seek serenity? What does serenity mean to them? Firefly AU? Serenity Prayer?
Spirit - Queer joy!!! Exploring the spirit of the characters, their relationships, the show as a whole. Analysis of relationships to alcohol? Ghosts?? (Spirit Halloween AU??)
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I adore that my feed is a wild mishmash of hot FBI agents from the 90's and queer hockey players and agender rocklike lifeforms and various sad old men from space/that hospital show/b-movies and all the found family vibes. Fandom is my happy place even when it's not *my* fandom.
i’m really overwhelmed thinking about hudson saying “he’s never had a sexual experience (before ilya) where he wanted to be there or had even a flint of desire.” and shane feeling the lust and the shame and the carnal desire and the rejection towards ilya all at once. sitting on that locker room bench after giving ilya his room number and trying to swallow everything down. not just feeling the feelings but not being able to name the feelings either. not knowing where to put them. what to do with his hands. he’s so good at everything including pushing it all down. he’s not good at this and his body won’t let him push it down. never feeling a flint of desire to the flames of it swallowing him whole. if it’s bad and it’s wrong then why does ilya pushing him against that wall and kissing him for the first time feel like absolution. shane has never absolved himself of anything. what is he supposed to do with that.
also the retroactive grief that comes with realising that every sexual encounter he's ever had - which he thought was fine at the time but is now seeing completely differently after having just had his mind blown by this guy he's not supposed to want at all - has been bad actually. the realisation that he didn't actually want that. that he thought he wanted it at the time but only bc he didn't know what wanting it actually felt like and now he has to process the fact that this whole 'maybe this is just how everybody feels about sex' idea he's convinced himself of is completely and utterly false. and he can't un-know that. but god damn he's gonna try.
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today (and every day) is a beautiful day to read this fic. forced marriage but make it hockey, sex tapes, angst, did i mention sex... you could not ask for more...
In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.
I love this fic, I love this Ilya, I love this Shane. Run don't walk:
There is a tense note in Hollander’s voice. This is not unusual, because Hollander is held together by latent panic
AND
Maybe Hollander feels like this all of the time, like his skin will crawl away without him if he does not hold himself still.
AND
Twenty three years ago his deck was shuffled. He plays for Russia. He is drafted. He takes a video. He drives to Montreal.
He kisses Shane Hollander.