utter hogwash. banished from my domain.

I need help bad. Idk what to say. I just im not sure if I want to keep trying. It feels like it all amounts to nothing. Im canceling dr appts bc I cant afford them. Im off my medications bc I cant afford them. I have until the 11th to save my car. My power will be off the 13th. I need food. Im exhausted. I just dont know how to keep going when for years I have tried and tried and done nothing but got sicker and sicker and therefore poorer and poorer. I don't think ive reached goal in months, years actually so i just keep drowning more. Im so tired. It feels like noone gives a fuck abt black women, abt poor women, abt disabled women, abt gay women, abt trans women. Feels like my and my wife's existence is just a joke to the universe.

If u are able to help me I'll put my paylinks and home needs wishlist below:

zlle: [email protected]

cshapp: $sailorsylvie

vnmo: Serena-Manning

pypal: [email protected]

Kofi

Home Needs Wishlist

My website where I sell handmade Press-On Nails

It feels like not too long ago I was drawing this portrait for Sally's second birthday, and now she is turning 3 years old. I hope that she is able to spend far more years of her life in safety, peace, and freedom than these few she has had to endure under occupation and genocide.

Please help celebrate her birthday by donating what you can to @sallymosworld, and sharing this post. We have made good progress on her family's campaign, but there's still far to go.

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I'm still at $66/$190 toward a new phone.

Paypal was allowing me to access my account with a phone call before, but suddenly will only allow for text confirmation, and since the screen of my phone is broken, that means I can only access Cashapp.

I also need a phone to photograph my work, or I can't post or contact clients (my only source of income.) I expect to be back living in a tent soon, luckily no one has made me do it yet since I've been sick.

Someone did send 5 on venmo, but without access to paypal I can't transfer it. I have a paypal card, so I can use the money if someone tells me it's there.

i owe my landlord around $500cad

i was told this debt could never lead to eviction so ive been ignoring it but i am now being pressured to sign a payment plan. if i do so, failing to follow up on this plan could put my housing in jeopardy. ive been homeless several times since being outed to my father at 19 and i dont want it to happen again.

i am able to afford food, rent, communications, and transportation but not much else with disability support payments from a provincial program, and thats only really bc i barely eat or go out and my bills for housing, communications, and transportation are further subsidized by being on this program. i cant remember the last time i used my own money to buy clothing. despite being more financially secure it seems even purchasing used clothes has fallen outside my budgeting priorities since gaining access to the program around three years ago. most of my clothes were either given to me or bought for me, or i bought secondhand in a time when my budget was much more restrictive. im also long overdue for a haircut and my budget is much closer to its limit that id like to admit.

i am hoping that making small payments as donations come in can buy me more time and relieve the pressure of signing a payment plan. any amount helps. if youre with a canadian bank i can recieve etransfers to [email protected], otherwise my paypal is [email protected]

If you do want details, theyre under the cut.

Thank you!

edit: actually i decided to add links to her paypal cashapp and venmo to try making this more accessible