SindyLewdWho

I'm.... Not okay. Physically, financially, or mentally. Around the start of May I started having a lot of abdominal pain and swelling, so-much-so that I literally couldn't see my own feet when laying *propped up.* My dad was an alcoholic. He died from liver disease when I was 7. Because of that, I don't drink. So you can imagine how scary it is when your doctor tells you that your liver is swollen with some small cysts and refers you for a million scans with a million different practitioners. Add in the fact that somehow in between changing doctors my anti anxiety, GERD medication, ADHD meds, AND heart medication somehow lapsed and got caught in provider limbo, I've been miserable.

Between that, my limiting dysautonomia/related body system issues, ADHD, and anxiety going untreated I've been a shell of a person-- only able to eat miniscule meals and drink water and electrolytes just to try to keep this meat mech running. We also found out our Medicaid coverage wasn't renewed, so all of this is happening without insurance.

June 3rd was also the anniversary of our mom's passing--which was extremely traumatic-- and that always causes some mental destabilization as well. Especially when dealing with the same health problems that killed my dad. All without my proper mental and physical health medication. And fucking BRUTAL heartburn. My older followers will know my pain 😭

And, through all this, we've been apartment hunting (we found one though, thank the gods! 😭), going to the ER and followups for scans and procedures, and we have to be out of our place by the 30th. I'm not even packed yet because I've barely been able to stand, let alone think.

Today was a bit better. I have most of my meds, and I had my ADHD meds (also Rx off label for dysautonomia re: energy and brain fog) and I was able to borrow my sister's car and take my puppy to the emergency vet because she ripped an entire toenail out and I needed to get that trimmed/looked at and get her meds to make sure it doesn't get and she's not in pain. (She's just a baby ((1.5yr)) 😭 She was so scared but so brave 😭)

But yeah, that's a look into Sindy's life over here.

I wrote this up to let you all know what's going on and also to potentially ask for some help. With the unexpected vet payment, the lyft rides to the ER and doctor's appointments (city transit here is unreliable at best and My Ailments™️ mean I can't be walking to and from bus stops), medicaid getting cancelled and having to pay out of pocket for my meds, and the deposits for the apartment, I'm really nervous about funds. I have about $5 in checking and $5 in savings after getting the most crucial meds that I could afford. I'm currently unemployed because of my car accident in November that broke my spine, so the lack of income makes me nervous.

I know there are people who need more help than me, and I know there are good hearted people who want to help but are also in a rough spot and can't -- but if you ever took joy in my blog, my posts, my conversations, *and you can help* I'd really appreciate it.

I'm even open to doing commissions-- custom spirals/pendulums, stories, scripts, voice overs, videos, photo sets, panties, boot content, etc. Just be mindful that as a rule I generally don't show my face in content and I only do 420 intox, no booze.

* And, of course, because of the digestive issues, no anal play or feeder content.

DM me if you're interested in any content or just another method to donate if you'd like. But my cashapp is:

$SolelyRuby

If you read this far, thank you, really. Even just someone taking the time to listen and understand what's going on is nice. It's been really isolating and scary, I'm ngl. I know I'm a strong, confident woman, but shit like this will shake you a bit. Anyways, you're all more than welcome to reblog or share, but yeah. That's what's been going on. 😮‍💨 Love y'all! Happy pride! Stay safe and stay horny 😘

XOXO