edit: for staying sane specifically; ask any person in your life; parents, relatives, friends, friends relatives, go to your colleges career services for alumni if they know any entry level positions and while applying in the meantime try to think of this as a fun vacation before working for a while.

that makes sense in theory but she’s gay. from her perspective (and there’s more to this) i think after i stopped talking to her a year before this event happened she made an effort to basically say that she gets why i want to stop talking and that she’d be here for me still, then after a period of time she heard through the grapevine that i’m shittalking her to others (one again this was fake) which probably made her really angry and she went to tell him that she thinks im evil.