hey you 🫵 have you washed your water bottle lately? 🫵 it’s getting hot and mold is going to grow 🫵 wash it 🫵

i feel like there is a sleep in me that needs to be slept but each time i sleep i don't sleep that sleep

but andrew has already made a tremendous amount of recovery even before the start of tfc, before neil. he came to terms with his sexuality in the aftermath of rape & sexual abuse, stopped cutting, and even whilst believing there isnt wasnt and never could be, allowed for kevin to attempt to find him something worth living for. and he has still a lifetime of recovery left, and wont ever be all the way better, but even through the seemingly blatant disregard for his own worth and life, he still (un?)consciously tries at getting there every day he continues breathing, and that is ?? really terribly beautiful 

embarrassing yourself sucks but it is Not the end of the world. I'm telling me this

[walks thru a bead curtain into my blog]