[woman who has never been gentle with herself voice] I just need to be more disciplined

“i don’t want to start all over” you’ve bought into a trap that works against you and keeps you where you never were meant to stay. it is in your best interest to start all over hundreds and hundreds of times. i start all over in the middle of the day if i must. i have been thousands of people in my one body and my one life. i hope to be thousands more. the only power we have is to start all over and over and over and over.

One thing about me is i am listening to music

if I just had the presence of mind and the wherewithal and the chutzpah and the bandwidth and the executive function and the energy and the mental resources and the spoons and the right attitude and the capacity and the gumption and th

some of you people are so annoying. i mean me too but good lord

i want to be a vampire so bad. it would open up a whole new world of procrastination. puts off finishing a novel for 100 years. i don’t do the dishes for 20. oh wait i don’t have dishes because i suck blood. another fucking win

being an adult is a weird combination of wanting to sleep all the time but also reacting to it being your bedtime a little like a toddler who doesn’t want to take a nap

A lot of people will judge their compatibility with someone off things like “do they have hobbies” “are they funny” “are they ambitious” “what music do they like” literally whatever the fuck. But even though someone could check all those boxes, a connection can never be appropriately formed if the answer to “do they make me feel safe” is ambivalent and unclear. Always ask yourself “do I feel safe around this person” when forming both friendships and relationships. Ask if you’re a safe person for them too. How cool a person is can never make up for lack of emotional safety on either end.

It’s august so everything feels overripe and ready for change