the worst part of getting into new media is when youre at the stage where youre completely obsessed with it but you cant go through the tags or seek out anything about it bc youre not fuckiny done yet

Being a crafty person and making a bunch of things often prompts people to ask "oh wow did you make that?" And like, the short answer is: yes I did, but the long answer is: well, no, the pattern isn't mine, but I did choose and buy the fabric/yarn and sewed it together/crocheted it/knitted it myself. I used a reference for that drawing/painting, I didn't come up with it myself. That ceramic piece was insired by a poem and a painting made by different people. What I'm trying to say is, everything I make requires other people to make their own thing first, and then I get inspired by them to do my own thing. So I can't really call anything truly mine, because really it's just a bunch of inspirations and experiences of others (and me) put together by my hands. Does that answer your question

the worst part about ocd and ocd-like tendencies is that you think hyper-analyzing your thoughts and constantly psychoanalyzing yourself will fix you but that's actually part of the disorder. it's the disorder. disordering.

what’s not meant for me kills me a thousand times every day

remember when andrew got out of rehab and, as was expected, is being his typical asshole self, hasn't acknowledged anyone, hasn't said a single word, the most Unimpressed a human being can possibly be. and neil is describing all of this obviously. and then without warning is like "i have never felt so safe in all my life. this is what it's like to trust someone. this boy is the only pillar keeping me standing"? so real of him

there’s just something so awesome about a character you love getting really badly hurt

"all you ever do is complain" that's not true. I also resent.

doctor prescribes a joint and a cup of coffee on the porch while listening to the morning birdsong

studio ghibli romances be like mmm what if we didn’t kiss, but instead both spiritually matured as people because we met each other

[sluttily rests my wrist on the pommel of my sword] hi

yeah “i can teach you” is kind and gentle and warm and comforting. it’s also hot. right