Sebastian Wilder

𝄞 Name’s Sebastian

𝄞 34 years old

𝄞 He/Him

𝄞 Autistic

𝄞 Unlabled

𝄞 Jazz pianist

I would love to feel the music like it was truly embodying me, like I was the music itself, where me and the instrument just formed into one on stage... could you help me reach that level of such raw and pure music?

Okay so you’re gonna need a tenor sax for that.

Think about John Coltrane.

Think about Coleman Hawkins.

The sax is literally powered by your own breath.

Your lungs, your throat, your embouchure—they dictate the pitch.

You can bend a note until it cries. You can growl into the mouthpiece.

When you play a horn like that, the music isn't just coming from you; it is physically passing through you.

The clarinet? Well, it’s traditional. Though it’s a bit sad, wouldn’t you say?

Sure, it has its moments in classical orchestrations, but it lacks the fire of pure expression. It forces you to play inside a rigid box.

If you want to truly feel the music, you need an instrument that lets you bleed a little onto the stage. Something where you can bend the notes until they cry.

Like a piano. (As a pianist, I can second that)

Or a saxophone, if you must play a reed.

But look, if you are set on making music—any music—here’s my advice to you:

1. Ditch the sheet music early. Reading notes is just copying someone else's ghost.

2. Feel the rhythm physically. If your foot’s not tapping, you’re doing something wrong.

3. Practice until you hate it. Then keep playing until you love it again.

4. Never play it safe. A technically perfect performance is incredibly boring.

5. Embrace the mistakes. A wrong note played with absolute confidence is just jazz.

6. Find your own voice. Don't sound like your teacher. Sound like you.

Music isn't about being polite or following the rules of woodwinds. It’s about passion. It’s about compromise and conflict.

Find the instrument that makes you feel alive, and don't let anyone tell you how to play it.

Thank you. I really appreciate that.

Honestly, it started out as a little melody just rattling around in my head while walking on Hermosa Beach Pier, but it quickly became about the push and pull of being a dreamer in LA.

You have this city that's glowing, filled with all these beautiful lights and opportunities. But underneath all that glitter, you can feel incredibly isolated.

I wanted to write something that captured that exact contradiction—the thrill of chasing something bigger than yourself, and the quiet, desperate hope that someone is looking back, sharing in it with you.

It’s a love letter to the magic and the heartbreak of the city.

I actually was going home from a date with my then girlfriend. You probably know her, she’s an actress now, and I’m happy for her. But she was the one that inspired me.

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1. Well, the thing is, it was my mother that actually introduced me to it.

I was four, and my mom brought home a turntable from my grandparents’ house. She had a few records as well. I can still picture them spinning on the turntable. One of them was a blistering Hoagy Carmichael track.

I remember just sitting on the rug by the speakers, completely mesmerized. It felt like the musicians were having an argument without ever raising their voices.

Every time that needle dropped, my whole world just expanded.

and I just became OBSESSED.

2. It made me feel EVERYTHING. It’s a heartbreak and love song rolled up into one.

It’s the thrill of not knowing exactly what's going to happen next, but knowing it's going to be brilliant.

It’s a dying art, but when it’s live in a room with people who truly respect it?

There’s genuinely no better high in the world.

I miss them.

I thought that Court was dead for many years until he randomly texted me recently about something. He’s my older brother, so me and him liked to torment the others when we were younger.

(when we were still together, that is)

But apparently he works for the CIA, so that’s fucking epic.

Colt, he’s really funny and we get along well. He’s also the bravest one out of us (actually any of my brothers could be the brave one compared to me) like he’s a fucking STUNT MAN for god’s sake. EVERY DAY he risks his life. HOW IS THAT NOT BRAVE???

Ryland…out of the five of us, I think that both of us might be the joint normal one. He has a doctorate in molecular biology, so that’s impressive. He worked his ass off to get that, so he has my respect. He’s also a middle school science teacher, so he gets to inspire kids practically every single day.

(he’s the normal one)

Casey…he’s actually my favourite…DON’T TELL THE OTHERS THAT!!!

We actually have a close bond with each other, despite only having a two year age difference.

He loves jazz because of me.

So when an incident featuring our dad and Court led to us being separated, me and Casey actually lived with our aunt Miriam and her daughter Laura (who’s practically our sister btw).

That’s where I got my surname from.

But, yeah, he’s my ride or die.

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Outside of music, hmm...

Well, I love watching old movies, I can also tap dance, I also have an interest in jazz history, and I can cook !

Uhm the band is called SOIL & "PIMP" SESSIONS. I really really love them they're my favourite jazz group of all time. They actually have their own genre that was given to them called 'death jazz'.

I've been listening to these guys for months on end. I'm very passionate about them. My favourite song from them is 'SUMMER GODDESS'. It makes me tear up from how beautiful it is without fail.

I'd also recommend 'suffocation' and 'fantastic planet'. But the rest of their stuff is really good too! In your own time of course.

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Hey, no problem!

Also, you are so correct, it is very beautiful!

I admit, when I first heard about “death jazz”, it sounded like a marketing pitch.

But that was a few years ago. I’ve changed, I’m trying my best to open my ears,

And boy, have my ears been BLESSED!

The trumpets. The piano. The, well EVERYTHING ABOUT IT! It’s just so phenomenal!

I love that they’re actually playing it and not hiding behind synths or pop tracks. I respect it!

Josei. I respect that man. I have found out about this man. And his solo-oh it’s just *chef’s kiss*

I also have a jazz band that I'd recommend to you if you don't already know them. But that's only if you want the name.

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Okay, I’ll take a listen…

WOW

WOAHHH

WOAAHAHHH

Okay, okay, okay…

God, I love the Cowboy Bebop soundtrack so much…

Also, about this jazz band, I would like to know the name…

But this is an amazing rec, so thank you very much for this

Please listen to this song ⬇️

88☆彡 by marasy feat. Hatsune Miku and KAITO