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The fun thing about being a former sweaty ffxiv raider playing warframe is it makes me crazy enough to do some really stupid fucking math to break the least used warframes. It started with equinox (my beloved) and last night my friend just wanted to test nidus and I decided to give my limbo build a whirl. 512% boosted rift damage later, something tells me I did it 😆
I got really lucky with my styanax prime right? (Like a couple hours of grinding/cracking relics) and had a bunch of relics left over, so i offered to crack those leftover relics with friends to see what parts they can get out of it. I got a whole set of stynax prime for them and myself in the span of 45 minutes. I'm now the groups dedicated lucky charm
I got really lucky with my styanax prime right? (Like a couple hours of grinding/cracking relics) and had a bunch of relics left over, so i offered to crack those leftover relics with friends to see what parts they can get out of it. I got a whole set of stynax prime for them and myself in the span of 45 minutes. I'm now the groups dedicated lucky charm
Do you like this Video Game Song? #3253
I like it and I've definitely heard it before
I like it and it sounds familiar
I like it and this is my first time hearing it
I don't feel strongly about it or have a complex opinion
I don't like it and I've definitely heard it before
I don't like it and it sounds familiar
I don't like it and this is my first time hearing it

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So this is a callout post. If you want to stop reading there that's cool, but I cannot let a raging misogynist, biphobe, transphobe, lesbophobe person parading as an upstanding queer artist keep getting platformed when he's said some heinous things, behaved terribly and begs for likes as if life is a popularity contest. Block me if you disagree but I'm writing this here as Tumblr is less ephemeral than other channels. Part of this post was originally posted here as a reply.
fragments/nights-at-crystarium/Jay have been posting misogynistic, biphobic, transphobic, lesbophobic, entitled comments and then claiming people are homophobic when they criticise him back. Please rethink if you want to keep supporting him.
A/N: warning this is a LONG POST and I have truncated it under the break. I have also added the most recent misogynistic rant at the top just below the biphobia.
C/W: Biphobia, misogyny, transphobic language, lesbophobia, entitlement
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Biphobia
Context: an anon send him a message about how Emet can only be gay, Japanese people don't understand queercoding and that people who ship femme character with him are delusional.
See here for why his Emet-Selch comment was biphobic at worst and misguided at best. (thank you @birues for bringing this to everyone's attention)
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Misogyny and Trans-exclusionary language
Jay HATES the idea that women want to share this space too. In addition to the Tumblr post above he posted this to his Patreon discord, which is not private as his patrons can access it. He laments that people make fem characters because it's default and he wishes they all would transition to men. He also jumps in to insult two artists with m/f Emet ships @nipuni and @ja-ck-du and calling their art hetslop:
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(continued with more of his terrible behaviour after the break)
throwback to when on new years day he misappropriated the "merry yaoimas and a happy new yuri" and said "happy new yaoi" and tried to tell him not to overwrite lesbianism day
This! This is exactly what I was talking about!
TL;DR: in his livetweet of ARR, Jay dismissed the Ala Mhigans in Little Ala Mhigo as "politically angry men" and I argued that while it can certainly be rooted in racism, his "personal dislike" of them stemmed more from his unwillingness to engage with things that do not affect/involve him directly (who cares about a bunch of refugees when you're preventing primal summonings, amirite?), and that sort of attitude carries into everything else in his life including his (lack of) engagement with other queer communities that are not exclusively gay.
Jay very clearly wants to live in his bubble where he only wants to engage with things that matter to him, as exemplified by the "literally just having fun in my own corner" comment. He feels "invaded" when he's politely asked to take other people into account even when it takes nothing away from his ability to enjoy and make gay fancontent. He doesn't want to acknowledge happy new yuri. He doesn't want to consider queer M/F ships. He says gay ships used to be the default. He doesn't want to have anything to do with anything that's not male homosexuality, and that includes having the barest modicum of decency and respect for other queer identities. You can play with headcanons and make fancontent however you like, but when you're on the internet and making yourself publicly available as a content creator, you no longer function in an exclusively gay little bubble. You do not get to demand other people engage with you and get upset when they call you out for being exclusionary, but unfortunately he seems a little too self-absorbed to really understand that.
In conclusion:
Making exclusively gay fancontent because you're gay and that's what you want to see and how you want to play with your fave NPCs? ✅
Getting mad that other people do not headcanon your fave NPCs as gay and calling them homophobic for doing so while refusing to engage with or be mindful of other queer identities? ❌
I want to add some stuff to the aboves as well- because as much as he's against "waffles" in his "pancake" house, he do have lesbian representation in his art and comic- because the waffles are all tasty and welcomed in the pancake place when they can grab attention from other people and eventually turn into profit, aren't they?
"Why do you never see ME with my yaoi agenda under people's yuri posts"- not under post but you DID shove your yaoi agenda to replace the lesbian's day. And I cannot stress this enough but I'm all in for the gay agenda and celebration of it- same goes for lesbian, ace, trans and any other in the LGBT+ family. But not seeing how you actively overshadow anything else than your personal stuff by rude and offensive comments and playing a victim when met with any slightest criticism only makes you an asshole not really welcomed in the community.
And you know, it's a normal thing to not realize how rude or hurtful something you said may land as- but it's also a very human and common sense thing to listen to those you've hurt and apologize/make amends. But what Jay does instead?
He never shows any remorse nor apologize- instead attacking and ridiculing the ones who point out stuff to him. That and twisting every criticism into a "homophobic attack" and harassment of an marginalized person. Playing a victim card with one hand- while holding a credit card scanner with the other, as he begs followers to drop some $ since now he needs them more than ever.
Another thing, important to me as well as a person on Autism Spectrum- he tends to use weaponized Autism as a shield against criticism of his words and actions. He uses it to excuse how rude and self-centered he is, pulling those hurtful stereotypes as if people on spectrum needed more of such stigma. He also said that he's "too autistic" for adding alt text when posting images and his comic, when someone politely asked him about it. All you need to do is copy-paste stuff from your comic or add like at least one line of text that will help people who needs that; surely it's not too much to ask for from a comic author and well versed at yapping on social media about things you create about? Some things ARE big struggles to us autistic folks but you cannot use it as excuse for being an asshole.
I usually only want to spread awareness of things like this. I don't like witch hunts. However, fragments/nights-at-crystarium/Jay is causing a lot of harm with bi-phobic/transphobic/misogynistic and racist remarks. And with every new thing I see it keeps getting worse and worse. I just can't let this stand.
This is not a homophobic hate campaign, contrary to what he claims. This is a call for accountability. I would have called out anyone for being biphobic, transphobic, misogynistic and racist. It just happens to be that a lot of cis gay men are biphobic and they come out in droves during Pride Month to spew their drivel.
Having your own headcanons for characters is totally fine. Everyone has them. Dismissing other people's sexualities and gender identities because they don't align with your views and being hateful towards them is a completely different thing.
I want to add another, important thing: for all those who support him and want to continue so: please consider some real support and help and suggest to him seeking professional diagnosis and therapy as needed. As much as I'm not equipped to diagnose anyone, all of the traits he's shown through the years are book examples of narcissistic personality disorder.
Your "support" of telling him that he did nothing wrong and agreeing that nobody should criticise him is doing a lot of harm to him instead- you are just enabling all the bad traits and deepening the problem, assuring him that there's nothing wrong about the way he behaves, which makes him even more blind to the issues. Tell him to look into this. Because from the looks it's not, as he claims, autism which makes him this way- but NPD and those two sometimes gets mixed up and confused as those can share some traits.
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/narcissistic-personality-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20366662
You're a little cockroach aren't you, Xigbar?
CID HIGHWIND — FINAL FANTASY VII REVELATION
Health update 🫡
I've been a little all over the place the last week or so because I've been waiting on test results back on if I developed melanoma or not, and I'm happy to report I'm okay! A huge fucking relief
What Am I Up to?
Thank you for the tag @mistresslrigtar !
Currently Reading: re-read of Nona the Ninth and fanfic wise, What it Means to be Chosen and In the Shadow of Death.
Last film: Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3. Son’s pick. It was okay.
Last show: Witch Hat Atelier. It’s SO GOOD! I just bough a couple of volumes of the manga to start reading ahead.
Coffee or Tea: coffee is too hard on my stomach so tea, Earl Grey, Hot.
Video Games: working on 100% for BotW, and just traded for DKC Tropical Freeze and Megaman 11 so I’ll be trying those soon. I want to go back to Metroid Dread, as well.
Working on:
Two main writing projects right now are A Link Against the Dark and a series of short snapshots that will be a sort of prequel to The Masked Rogue. Also working on refining the plot for the ACTUAL Masked Rogue story.
Art-wise, I’m practicing a stained glass effect with markers because I want to use it on an illustration for A Link Against the Dark and I don’t want it to be my first time trying it.
Tagging @raginghummingbird and @batrogers, as well as @hurricane105, @drsteggy, @zarvasace and @spoiledspine.
Thanks for the tag! I’m afraid I’m not super interesting of late.
Reading: mostly stuff to make sure I’m giving out correct information for a workshop I’m hosting next month. Yikes
Last film: recently attended a screening of UHF but I was sort of working behind the scenes so I’m not sure I saw much… but I’ve seen it dozens of times.
Last show: Survivor because my MIL likes it so when it’s on we all watch it.
COFFEE
Video Games: I’m kinda doing maintenance stuff in Animal Crossing (ousted a village I despised today!), a deep replay of Tears of the Kingdom and a lot of Pokémon Go
Working on:
- a 2 hour presentation on getting started with performance showing plastic horses to be delivered at our huge con in like. 5 weeks.
- two fics that were offered as prizes for events I agreed to before getting sidelined with surgery.
- Draw Everything June and realizing I need to put in more dedicated practice as I think I’m at that point where I don’t like what I’m doing because my ability to see vs do are flipped
- a wig to boots rebuild of my BOTW Link cosplay which is definitely not making its original deadline either, thanks so much uterus.
- obsessive tourchasing a favorite musician which is why everything else is in a holding pattern until Friday
Tagging @studiorat @st0rmyskies @uwudonoodle @tnc-n3cl @gargoylesister and anyone who wants to share.
Gonna Double Team this because I forgot to respond to your other tag, asking to list things I'm happy about!
What Am I Up to?
Currently Reading: Finished Dungeon Crawler Carl, reading another litRPG series, Defiance of the Fall (3).
Last film: The Cave (2005). I recently dove in the exact place where this was filmed. Watched it with my parents and they said "as your dad I have to tell you, kid, please don't go into cave diving." 😏 ok dad
Last show: DanDaDan, then a little bit of Chainsaw Man. So good. I'm really enjoying the fighting/action anime but Witch Hat Atelier is calling my name...
Coffee or Tea: I love tea but someone made me the best café olla (coffee, cinnamon, honey or brown sugar, chocolate powder) I've ever had in my life and I'm getting hooked
Video Games: Painfully slowly working my way through PL:ZA but I'm trying to level up my team so I can defeat Jacinthe! Grabbing The Great Ace Attorney every once in a while to scream over Sherlock Holmes. I think I'm finally feeling ready to play Persona 5 soon though! Argh I gotta finish Pokemon first!!!!
Working on:
Art: Comic diary entry for my side scuba website 🪸 Working on my comic for June Moon is kicking my butt (detailed transformation sequences can be time consuming!!) 🌝 and working on submissions for the like 5 zines I've entered ough ⭐
Scuba: I'm getting a Specialty Course certification tomorrow! "Dive Against Debris." Figuring out what I want to focus on next.... Everyone I talk to is trying to get me to go the Instructor route but I don't feel confident 👀💦
Tagging... @vanali-of-winterfell @thealphabard @juncodraws hmmmmmm I'm not gonna tag more just so I don't tag EVERYONE haha but if you see this and you'd like to update us on all the fun things you're doing then fill in the template!
As for things I'm looking forward to:
1 There's a whale shark season here and snorkel trips just opened. Can't wait to get back in the water with them.
2 Got a friend coming to visit (if the stinky seaweed and storms don't scare them away) and I'm super looking forward to that.
3 My birthday is drawing near, perfect excuse to treat myself to... some kind of fun scuba maybe, I dunno! Haven't decided what I'll do. I'm taking suggestions 👀
Thanks for tagging me, this was a really good way to kind of take stock of where I'm at and reminded me of some things I gotta do. I love getting roped into ask type games like this
Thanks for the tag @gargoylesister 👀
Reading: we don't do that here 🤣 (my adhd makes reading pretty much unbearable)
Last film: Iron Lung! I finally sat an watched it. It was way better than I expected, and definitely worth the watch!
Last Show: The Boys. I more or less hate watched the final season, at this point i was just committed to finishing it lol
Coffee or tea: neither? I don't have an answer to that really lol bean juice and leaf water don't really tickle my fancy lmfao
Video game: Warframe has me by the BALLS. I'm in the process of building everyone's favorite werewolf wife Voruna prime because she's in my temporal archimedea this week but my dumbass threw away my nataruk on accident yesterday and I 100% use nataruk to power level frames. So now I'm scanning shit for Simaris. Fuck you Simaris.
Working on:
Art: I'm trying to finish like 4 projects. I have a list of zoras for zora may most importantly that im getting through though lol
Game dev: im trying to talk my friends either into a long term project or another game jam, we all have fun doing dev and some of us are feeling the itch again lol
Dog training: Cyrus has decided he forgot how to heel on the left, so we are relearning that. 🤣 but otherwise I'm actually trying to teach him how to "fancy walk" (idk how else to call it lol) which has been a challenging because I've ingrained him to auto sit... mb buddy
This was fun! I am not much of a tagging person but by golly if you see this, go for it! Your turn!

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Is it pride month? Okay, time to open it by posting Riku who definitely is not at all gay.
I have and always have had really bad handwriting right? But its not in the "illegible" sense its just ugly as fuck 😆
My super straight cis guy friend has just gotten into hsr because he was too high to finish god of war ragnarok and thats already a whiplash variety of games but the amount of times he's mentioned the tension between 2 women at this point is hilarious when you consider he hasnt even left belebog yet. Like yes. Welcome to hsr. Everyone has gay subtext here.
reblog and put in the tags the real reason you joined tumblr no matter how horrible or embarrassing it is
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say something nice about prev!!! find something cool about them!! give their blog a skim!!
compliments are FREE TO GIVE so GIVE THEM OUT. pls. thamnk. (◍•ᴗ•◍)

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Do you know this SFX? #1473
I know where it's from
It sounds familiar
I've never heard this
Game: Warframe (2013)
Context: Stalker appears