what’s so amazing about it all is that niall and ruben could have clarified to anyone at any point this episode that they aren’t actually blood related and only lived in the same house for three years. but they didn’t. because they’re sick

#bc they WANT to be so badly#they want to share all that blood and marrow and dna#they're the same person that's his body that's his head. they'd only be truly happy if they were twins that ate each other in the womb.#half man#and also the word 'brother' turns them on#there's that. they yearn to physically dominate the version of the self that they believe they should be and aren't and the version of the#self that split from the rest of them and walked off with two other fake legs#'i want to be you' 'i want to be biologically and spiritually the closest ANYONE can ever be to you regardless of how well they fuck you or#love you' ' when you bleed i want to feel the punch too and i want to look into the red fucking proof that we AREN'T all this despite the#fact that we deserve to be this close more than any of the REAL blood relations in the fucking world'#and also: they want to own each other! who can own you better than your brother? who more than cain and abel? your brother's keeper!