surely the conses won't quence

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Cottage AU (WIP, human ineffable wives au, Crowley gets hired to do work on Aziraphale's cottage and theyre gay for each other duh)

the amnesia. even if his old life comes back to him piece by piece, there are gaps, however temporary. personality waits on no one, it develops and fills the cracks and the person that went under isn't the person that woke up 11 years later anymore.

grace is still kind, curious and funny, he is still a great teacher, but even before he meets a Whole Ass Alien and almost dies on multiple occasions, there is already a branch-off in his life. the old memories can only fit so well on top, because there is now a fresh scab of fear and grief on his soul. he was hunted down and forced under. for 11 years things were done to his body and he was unable to do anything about it. he wakes up with earth's fate on his shoulders and he can't remember his name. It's unimportant, because he was meant to die from the start. there is a mission to complete.

Like getting MRI contrast injected is so bizarre. You can legitimately feel the contrast enter your bloodstream, like, I'm not even sure why Im even able to feel my blood vessels being cold from the inside. And then you get this weird metallic taste and all that while you're trapped in a big loud tube so it's like whatever

Full anesthesia is another New thing I experienced recently and I can't say I'm a fan. It hits you like a wall like there is not even time to conceptualise whether you can fight it or not you're just out cold in seconds. At least when you sleep you perceive time passing, even if it's distorted, but this bitch just feels like a black hole in your life.