writing down my thoughts

I saw it coming but at the same time I didn't because I didn't believe the world could possibly be that fucking cruel.

"I wish I knew that was the last time I would see you. I would have hugged you longer. I would have said more.."

For once i want to be a person that isn't so easily replaced. I wanna be someone's favorite person, someone's priority like they're my priority. I wanna be the person that someone is scared of losing..

"You were everything…"

I think about us a lot. I don't know if it's the end of the chapter and you'll return later on or if it's the end of the story, but I love you. I miss you. And I'm sorry this is the way it became.

"The thing I keep thinking about is: Was it worth it to be happy for a little bit? Even though it ended up sad.. Or would it have been better if the whole thing never happened?"

"There is a part of me that is desperate to know if my absence has done any damage to you. That there is a possibility that you too, experience long restless nights due to the thought of me. That your heart is broken in the same places as mine. I want to know that I'm not the only one hurting from this. I want to know that I actually meant something to you."

"sometimes when I look into your eyes I get confused. I dive into their green maze then surface to find them.. brown."

"I think I will always love you a little bit not in the ‚I love you' way but in the way were I care at you like I hope you are safe and nobody hurts you and I hope you come home well and I hope you're happy."

"I’ve reached the point where I just want to forget about you and everything we had. I just want the pain to end."