The last 24 hours have been the most 14 year old feeling I've felt in a long time

Lately as I am getting older this past year, I have been finding my self wanting to integrate some of my fetishes and things that i like and love such as leather into my clothing. I am starting slowly wearing a leather jacket in the cold weather and inside at work because it is cold there as well. I am also now tucking in my shirt and snowing off my black leather belt with my dress pants and blue jeans. I am also letting people know that i want to learn how to ride a motorcycle and showing interest in one day purchasing a motorcycle, and one day getting the gear needed for it. In my latter half of my 40's i am wanting to come to terms what I am into and finally stop worrying about what other people think and just do what I like and enjoy in the later half of my life. I am finally working on building up the confidence to be my true self and finally stop separating and keeping secret other parts of my life so i can finally be at peace as my true self. Maybe one day i will have the confidence to wear leather vest, chaps, pants, and even a motorcycle suit out in public without fear and anxiety of what other people think. And finally try out a motorcycle and once again enjoy riding around like i used to when i enjoyed riding a bicycle when i was younger.