::Schizoaffective- bipolar type:: Vent Blog

When you are so depressed and barely functioning and your psychiatrist expecting you to be feeling great again on the lowest possible dose, is low key insulting …

Oooooooaoooaoooh what have I done???? I wish I could turn back time

Ok anxiety kicking in, they are probably going to contact family, which is the whole reason why I escaped- for them not to be contacted😭😭😭

Now private numbers are calling me (I assume the police) while I hide in a gym- a place no one would think a person with depression would hide😂

Holy cow! I manage to leave A&E without anyone noticing!!!!!

To all the people who say/refer to cvtting as “silly” WTF is wrong with you??!??? Why would you think that’s an ok thing to say?? Why in your head is someone cutting into their own skin, cvtting into different layers, exposing tissue, opening veins and cause bleeding a “silly” thing to do? Nothing can express how annoying and irritating I find such people.

Literally wanted to cut my veins open and watch myself bleed to death, but my partner made me feel better, so I now I am much calmer. And I will probably get back to how extremely angry I was at myself earlier but, at least now I am calm…

Aaaaaaaaaah I’m panicking here I want to kill myself, but I can’t 😭😭😭😭😭

If anyone tells me “everyone has days like that once in a while” one more time I am going to scream, cause no not once in a while, it’s every single day. Not everyone has days like this, not even once in awhile

I had a chemical abortion today, It was planned. It was the right decision but, but I feel like I am grieving😭, I feel terrible like I made a mistake. It’s probably just hormones but, it’s really sticking in my head. Hopefully it will go away very soon. A lot of stuff is going on in people’s lives and It’s not the time to make things about me. And my stupid feelings. I just want my hormones to return to normal😭 Though I will probably continue to write on here because a girl gotta vent.

A like being autistic because neurotypicals are bizarre sometimes (among other things), but I absolutely hate having ADHD, honestly it’s just awful

I just want to cut my veins open and watch myself bleed to death