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Dean should’ve given Cas Mary’s old ring before he left in the s11 finale which would’ve been a gorgeous tragic romantic moment on its own, but then IMAGINE Mary shows up to the bunker and meets cas for the first time and this strange angel who hugs her son is wearing her old wedding ring…..

I just watched a dan howell live stream, my lockscreen is loki and my dash is filled to the brim with supernatural drama, it truly is 2014 again

supernatural is a game but for the love of god who the fuck is winning

Somebody go check on joe biden because this much supernatural drama does not happen without a severe shake up in the American political landscape.

kansas where is it. where is the peace you promised.

i wanna write a fic sooo bad about an alternate 15.06 where cas isn’t strong enough to defeat the djinn because his grace is slowly deteriorating and so he gets captured and sam and dean don’t hear from him for like. weeks. and dean is of course worried as hell but he’s stubborn so he’s not gonna check in on him but sam tries to go find him behind dean’s back and he discovers that cas is in an unconscious dream state and so sam has to enter cas’ mind to try and snap him out of it like how dean did with charlie a few seasons before and so sam shows up and he finds himself at the lakehouse where jack was born. and there’s cas sitting near the tree line digging with a hand shovel and planting flowers and sam runs up to him and cas is like oh hey sam you’re here early for dinner where is eileen? and then his face falters as he realizes this is the REAL sam. and cas gathers up his gardening stuff in his arms and tells sam that he needs to go and sam is like no. you’re dreaming. this isn’t real. and cas is like yeah. i’m an angel. i know. and i don’t care. just leave. please leave right now. and he’s sort of desperate and nervous about it and sam is like wtf ?? and then they hear dean call from inside the house and cas freezes and then dean walks outside and hugs sam in greeting and then kisses cas on the cheek. and cas can’t even meet sam’s eyes. meanwhile dean drags them both inside the house and jack is sitting at the kitchen table coloring and he calls cas dad. and sam is just standing there in silence the whole time taking this all in. cas leaves the kitchen and goes to the living room and sits down on the couch with his chin resting on his hands propped up on his knees. he still can’t look at sam. and sam follows him in and sits next to him and goes… so. this is your happy place. and cas says yes, it is. sam nods silently. it’s nice, sam says. it’s peaceful. and cas says, again, yes. it is. and then there’s a long pause and cas finally, slowly explains the empty deal to sam. this is all i can get, cas says. i know it’s fake. but it’s the best thing i’ve got. dean said i was dead to him. i could probably last decades like this until all my grace runs out, but it would be enough. and sam gets it. he DOES. but he also just looks at cas and says that’s fucking bullshit. you need to come home. we both want you at home. dean hates it when you’re away. and if you died? if you died because you didn’t feel like you had a place at home? he’d blame himself and tear himself apart. he’s doing terribly right now without you. and cas looks so sad. not because he’s about to lose this. it was never about this. he looks sad because he hates hurting the people he loves, and he knows sam is right. and he feels so much shame. so cas and sam manage to break out, and when they’re standing near the car, sam fiddles with with the car keys and he looks up at cas and is about to say something when cas interrupts and says, “you can’t tell dean about this.” sam wants to protest but doesn’t. okay, he says. opens the car door, gets in. cas gets in too. he’s weak and there’s blood covering his white dress shirt. they drive back to the bunker. sam doesn’t say anything

he painted a NURSERY, he read 74 PARENTING BOOKS, he took an ONLINE DOULA CLASS, he BOUGHT DIAPERS, he was prepared to RAISE AN INFANT ON HIS OWN!!!! The only dad!!!!!!!!