they were right btw. you have to dig yourself out of your grave over and over again

I was actually just reading about this in Caste: The Origins of our Discontent. The author talks about how one’s body goes into stress or anxiety or defense mode when the person knows they’re being followed, watched, or otherwise scrutinized. She brought race into it. A Nigerian man, who was just a person in his country, was healthy as anything. He got to the U.S. and within a year, his doctor told him he was suddenly pre-diabetic and had high blood pressure. He never had those things in his country. He learned that being Black in the U.S. is a very different experience than being Black in a Black-centric country. The author elaborated more about those in poverty, women, and being a minority in general. Having that “fight or flight” triggered in the body, sometimes for hours or days or weeks at a time, degrades the body’s natural defenses, making them more vulnerable to disease.

being poor or a minority literally takes an average 10-15 years off of your life

caste: the origins of our discontent pdf

supernatural isnt funny. it happened to me

now that i’m older and understand how absolutely fucked the housing market is, all those horror movies that take place in nice houses where the family refuses to leave make sense. if i had a 4,000sqft vintage home you’d need to kill me before i ever moved out as well. fuck the ghost. charge it rent.

That last line is hysterical because I was living in an apartment once by myself that odd things happened in and the rent was super cheap. One night I went out in my living room because I’d heard my name get called and I was irritated and said, “Either cut this shit out or start paying rent because I will exorcise you if you don’t.” It was quite after that.

Goes for other disabilities too. Sometimes it seems like it’s “getting worse” when what’s really happening is that circumstances have changed in a way that makes the symptoms more obvious and detrimental. 

VERY important advice. Don’t beat yourself up. Adulting is HARD.

today’s date is the 3rd? what’s next, the 4th? the 5th? the minor fall, the major lift?