Ryanscologne

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Nanami:

Exhibit:

chapter one: https://www.tumblr.com/ryanscologne/805401096416903168/exhibit-kento-nanami?source=share

Haikyuu

Kurro:

Are we done?

chapter one: https://www.tumblr.com/ryanscologne/805232284503539712/chapter-one?source=share

Chapter two:

https://www.tumblr.com/ryanscologne/805242084204429312/are-we-done-chapter-two?source=share

Chapter three:

https://www.tumblr.com/ryanscologne/805321881419972608/chapter-3-are-we-done?source=share

Chapter four:

Chapter three

You were standing in the dressing area, wearing the newest collection of clothes. You looked beautiful standing there in the silk red gown. Nanami was behind you staring down at you; he was doing this to nit pick everything that was either wrong with you– or the dress.

You walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes, got a facial, did weights– not too much or Nanami would say you were getting too bulky. You knew that wouldn’t save you from his judgmental eyes though. 

“ Go up a size, her butt is getting too big, “ He said to the tailor. You don’t react anymore; you know how things are supposed to go. You did go up a size recently– it wasn’t your fault to blame, the stress has gotten to you a lot more than usual. He looked at you more– his eyes changed from judging to more of an enamoured look. He looked at you like you were about to hang the stars for him.

He smirked, eyes raking to his phone after looking at you, “ you’ve got a nice figure, I'll schedule you a shooting for next week okay? “ this was the first time he has actually asked you before booking something. You didn’t take this as a sign of him giving you more freedom– you wouldn’t dare take this as a sign of that. This was something that was unexpected.

You nodded along as he scrolled on his phone; clearly he was getting bored here. He showed up to things like this just to look like he was present in the fitting. He liked the fact that when showed up people would look at him like the caring husband he was pretending to be. He loved that the attention flipped to him and not to you– yeah you were pretty, but that’s what made him look amazing.

“ The Suguru’s are having a celebration party on their engagement the 25th of this month, should you find something to wear to that? “, he suggested towards you. The suguru’s; you knew they were a real couple unlike the two of you. You never had to question the authenticity of what they had going on. His fiance, Mika, was beautiful– and she always had a glow to her that made it seem like it was real and fresh.

Suguru never stressed her out with the work of the world, or her appearances. He simply let her live. Now, staring at yourself in the red dress that fit perfectly you were wondering a few things. ‘ What made him choose you ‘ and ‘ Did I make the right decision? ‘. Those two questions weighed heavily down on you. What made you different from any other woman that was walking in that same building as you had? You wanted to ask but you knew better; compared to other days Nanami was in a good mood. He only pointed out one small thing throughout the fitting.

That was a huge plus, usually it was always something wrong with you or the dress. He wasn’t as hard as you like he was in the first year of you two getting together, but he hadn’t leaned back. He had simply adapted.

You looked at yourself in the mirror. Your hair was glossed, nails manicured, skin fresh was the facial– you always needed one before you went somewhere with Nanami. He would point out the pores, fine lines, or wrinkles if you hadn’t. He always told you ‘ Your only job is to look good, so why do you make it seem like I'm asking you for the world? ‘.

He wasn’t wrong. At that moment your phone rang, and before you could even make a move towards it– Nanami grabbed and answered it.

“ Hello?, Yes. “, Nanami sounded polite and well mannered. You waited for the call to be over with. Once done–he slid the phone next to him and crossed his arms. “ Your assistant said you have a male model wanting to do a collaboration with you, “. There it was– he wanted you to turn it down. You were strictly forbidden to do collaborations with other male models. He thought seeing you have so much chemistry with someone besides him would make the media talk.

Sure– that’s what happened to other women, why would it happen to you? “ It’s just a collaboration, won’t hurt. “ you replied, no emotion. He nodded slowly; the gears in his head were turning. Trying to examine the situations before he spoke.

“ Sure, go ahead with it. Might raise some articles that we can use to our advantage. “

Your eyes widened at this? Permission to do something with another man– well not like that, but it was something. He gave you a nice smile as if he had just finished a business deal with someone. “ Maybe we can use you two as the models for the next commercial shoot, “ he suggested. He was making suggestions towards you now?

“ You’ve grown nicely in this industry, I taught you the best. “, oh– he was giving you freedom to say yes and no to questions now. Was this treatment as an equal or playing with his prey? “ I think we should do that, my agency needs more options anyways, “ you said. It was like you two were a couple discussing business ideas with one another.

To anyone besides the two of you this would have looked normal– but it was a step forward than you’re used to.

Chapter one

You’re used to it all by now. The flashing camera, news articles about the articles of clothing you would wear. Hell, even the news articles surrounding you and your husband’s, Nanami, relationship. They thought they knew every last bit of it; down to why you two got married and how you two met.

They didn’t know any part of it, no matter how much they claimed. They weren’t the 18 year old girl looking for someone to help a college girl out. They also weren’t the now 21 year old woman who had married a man 10 years older than her for stability. That’s what the relationship was. Stability.

It’s not everyone’s cup of tea; it wasn’t even yours. You needed to do what it meant to stay afloat. No one else was going to get you the things you liked in life. 

You met Nanami at 19, you were a previous intern at his insurance company. You worked when school would allow, you followed the rules that were mapped out and the company. You did everything to a tee. You tolerated the men there; especially when they thought harassment was funny. You tolerated it because you knew there were bigger plans for you in the future.

Or so you thought.

Nanami was a 29 year old CEO of the Crestpoint Insurance inc. He started the business slowly when he was 19; with investments from family members, investors, etc. He knew owning his own business was something he wanted to do from a young age. Now that he was 29; he needed something, he was missing something.

It was when he saw you running errands in his office when he figured out what he needed. You; a young woman on his shoulder. Eye candy to boost his rankings with his company, the people loved seeing love radiant men in the world. No one would stay interested if he found someone his age. He needed someone younger and vibrant. 

Later that day at the company he pulled you aside into his office. You had thought you made a mistake dealing with some paperwork. You were wrong. He gave you a proposal; he would take care of all your financial wants and needs for one thing. You hand in marriage. 

Well, maybe two things. For him to be able to show you off in public. Your hesitance was clear from the start. You knew this was a life opportunity of a lifetime; it was ground-breaking. He was someone who could provide heaven on earth for you.

You knew the lifestyle would come with lots of changes; especially with how you’d be able to view yourself in the next few years. He looked at you with a stern expression, ready to hand you a nda if you refused his proposition.

You agreed, it wouldn’t hurt.

The first year was okay, you turned 20 and was immediately put into the industry of the public eye. The world didn’t know exactly how to fit you in with the rest of them; it was like you were an odd jewel at first. That was until you and Nanami’s wedding photos went public. The public loved you and your looks. You gave Nanami that young look; it made him look more hot and respectable. Exactly what he needed for his public image.

Your wedding dress was in the top 10 most beautiful dresses. They called your wedding timeless; you were now in the public eye full forward.

Nanami now had another step he had to do, and that is to introduce you to the business world. You had made an appearance in the public eye, but now you had to maintain it. He had you sit on business meetings, made you take notes, even gave you ideas on what kind of business you should start. He listed out the main common ones for a CEO’s wife. Makeup, Health, and lifestyle. Those were the ideas he gave you. You knew he wanted you to pick one from the list.

You chose modeling. It was a practical job if your style was trending. Why couldn’t you build off of that? You felt the need to have your own independence. So you did, you built your company from the ground up; with some help from your husband. He laid the foundation for you and you worked with it.

That was a long time ago, where you thought that happiness could have been bought. Now being a woman at the age of 21 it was more tiring for you especially now. You had your days booked with meetings and investments. Fashion shows to attend or the media would claim your ‘lazy’ and ‘unfit’ for the fame that your marriage came with. You knew that this life wouldn’t be easy, but you wish you got more of a heads up. 

Nanami stayed booked and busy. He had investors he had to please within every meeting he attended; with you on his arm of course. You were his biggest project of them all. He invested millions of dollars into you; the dream wedding, the modeling company, the shoes, the dresses, the maintenance, etc. You were the biggest investment, and god was it working.

He’d stay relevant for weeks– even months. He never had to wonder when he would fall out of relevancy. 

It wasn’t until the 3 month mark of the marriage where cracks would slowly but surely form. He would cancel days that were important to you and your company to attend business meetings. When social media would cover it, he would plan on outing to his business parties with you on his arm to prove that you two were stronger than ever. 

You knew this was the life that you had chosen; you’ve wanted more than what you had growing up in a low income family. This was the best of what it could get, right?

 CHAPTER 4

“ So when exactly did the cheating begin? “

You and Kurro were currently sitting in the counselor’s office. You two haven’t talked unless it was through Kiyoko and Kenma– that was the best option for everyone. You scheduled this meeting through both of them anyways.

Kurro looked down at his hands fiddling with his rings– he always fiddled with objects if he didn’t want to answer something, “ I got drunk one night with friends and slept with a girl, “. He came out and said it with truth. That was what happened, the only thing that was iffy about the whole story was why didn’t he just say no. The counselor noticed this too, “ You said you were drunk, Kurro, but what else could have triggered you to do so? “ she pressed him and lord was she good at it.

Kurro looked around, his eyes trailed upon all of the different types of self wellness posters eyeing many things that he was seeing circling the flat surfaces of the walls. His eyes landed on the clipboard that the woman was wearing, she was clearly noting everything that he and you were saying. Then his eyes drifted to her nametag, ‘ Mrs. Yue ‘, cute name. Focus, he wasn’t here to compliment names of the teachers he was here to fix what was left of you two guy’s relationship.

“ We had just had a fight that night, “ that was what made you turn your head. That fight? The one that made you think that things were going to be over for good? This went to the root of everything. That was the night you miscarried. You had just turned 18 and Kurro was 19. It was an accidental pregnancy; you two were willing to take on the responsibility of the child and continue on with your lives. If only you two knew the things that were about to happen.

You two started getting annoyed at each other; he was trying to understand you and everything your body was going through. He stayed up late reading books, online reading parenting forums, and doing his own research about the process; to understand how to better take care of you. You felt like you were being smothered. Especially with how your mother took the announcement. She was mad– she had wanted you to attend college like the rest of the women in your family. You were, it was just going to put on hold for a while until you understood the whole parenting thing. That one night things got tough between you and Kurro. You blew up at him about smothering you and putting too much pressure on you. He was trying to get his point across to you that the only thing he was trying to make sure is that you were taken care of. The argument got so heated that you didn’t know you had stressed yourself to the point of a misscarriage until you felt warmth take over your pants.

You looked down and it was crimson blood leaking down the fabric of your pants; Kurro didn’t wait for you to say anything. He drove you to the hospital that very minute.

The doctors ruled it as a misscarriage. Stress induced; nothing couldn’t have prevented it but if you two had stopped arguing. Kurro knew that it took a toll on you. On the ride back home you were quiet as a mouse. You didn’t look nor speak to him.

It’s been weeks since the misscarriage and you haven’t even touched him– he spent nights in his bed thinking about what went wrong; did he do anything that night that he shouldn’t have done? Was he the reason why you miscarried? That was also the night Terushima had texted him.

Terushima: Heard your stress with your lady, wanna get some drinks?

Mrs. Yue makes notes on her paper, then she looks back up this time with a softened gaze towards the both of you. She then turned towards you; her eyes narrowing at you. You weren’t used to this much intense look from someone before. You had always been the person who watched someone get accused of something it was never the other way around. You turned to Kurro to ask for help, it was almost natural for your body to do so when you feel pressed. You always looked at Kurro for him to find some way to help you out of a situation. You felt him try not to look at you. He knew right there in the moment that if he were to look at you he would defend you, and take all the blame for himself.

You knew there was no way around this; even as Mrs. Yue signaled for you to speak, “ How did the misscarriage change you Ms. L/N? “, she questioned you. You looked at her and really thought about what she was asking you. How did it change you? In many ways, you stopped seeing Kurro as someone you could confide in; to you he was just a man who didn’t understand the confusion and pain about everything that went on. You didn’t have the best pregnancy with everything that happened. You were stressed until the end; you didn’t even get the chance to bond with what would have been your child.

Everything was taken from you in an instance. You wanted to be alone, and vulnerable; that couldn’t happen. You knew that Kurro felt some type of way too, but you couldn’t even muster up to think about what he was feeling. You had just lost the child, but what you didn’t know is that Kurro had felt like he lost you in that very moment also; your smile, and the way you looked at everything with love changed that same night. He tried– left food outside of your door and sent you funny memes. Nothing brought back that empty space.

“ I felt empty, “ you started. “ I felt like no one felt the stress that was put on me at that moment “, you could feel that you were about to start tearing up. 

Kurro turned to you fully with his eyes studying every feature of your face, and every word that was coming out of your mouth. He cheated on this woman? The woman that felt vulnerable after something that couldn’t have been prevented. He felt so selfish in the moment; how could he? He had told people that he wanted to marry you and he did that to you. 

“ I cheated back on him to let him know how I felt, “ your words were now getting angry, “ Everytime he had cheated I did it back to him, “ that’s when your voice softened. “ It hurt so bad to be cheated on during that period of my time, I felt so broken that was the only thing I knew how to do. “, you ended your sentence off.

“ That’s when it became a cycle, I'm guessing? “, Mrs. Yue spoke. You and Kurro both nodded at her; she continued to write a few more notes down on her piece of paper and then nodded.

She then smiled a soft smile. “ How about I step out of the room and give you two 30 minutes of alone time to speak one on one. There’s a lot of things that need to be said. “, with that she stood up and walked out the room; shutting the door softly behind her.

This was the first time you were alone with Kurro in a few days. His hair was still the same, but he had a little stubble on his chin. He looked tired, really tired. He looked at you then broke down. 

“ I’m sorry, I'm so sorry “.

Chapter 3

You’re currently sitting across from Kurro right now, you both are in the cafe that’s always open down the street from the college you two went to. He’s sitting there looking at you like he’s already ready for what’s coming next.

“ Let’s try again “

“ We can work it out “

“ We need to change “

This is what happens all the time– but the next words that come out your mouth shocks him, “ If you want to try anything with me it’s clear I need you to choose,” – you take a breath, “ Me or Terushima, “. 

That was the sentence that made him wake up from whatever day dream he was having. You or the guy he grew up with for the last 13 years? That had to be the most cruel choice someone had ever made him choose between. You were the woman that he loved within his whole heart. “ What do you mean sweetheart?, “ he questioned first. “ Why do I have to choose between you two? That’s not something we are doing now?”, this wasn’t what usually happened. Why is this different from the other times? You weren’t just going to cut him the slack for trying and rework the relationship out?

You looked at him this time and actually looked at this man who had never had any consequences for any of the things that he had put you through. You just shrugged and took him back every time. This cycle needed to stop– that’s what Kiyoko helped you realize. You and him could make something work, but you two had to have to want it.

“ I made us an appointment with a counselor, therapy is what we need “, you tried to get out in one breath as you just sat there in the booth staring down at where his hands were fiddling with the straw of his cup. He was nervous; that was obvious– it was one of the many habits he had when he was nervous. You learned that after the 2nd date. 

The atmosphere was quiet, almost too quiet it seemed like everything had stopped and now eyes were just on the two of you. No one was watching obviously; it only seemed that way because you two were only focused on each other. You wanted to take his silence as him choosing Terushima, but you knew him better than that. 

As of right now Kurro was weighing every word that was about to come out of his mouth. He knew one slip up would end up with you two permanently separated as of right now. This was the absolute first time he actually started measuring his words, and what was about to come out of them. You waited and waited for his response; as his eyebrows furrowed. That was when you decided to break it down for him more.

“ Terushima–,” you paused; afraid of phrasing anything wrong. The wrong word– or even the wrong sentence can convey something that was completely out of context.

“ I don’t like how Terushima has been a part of the choices you made for the both of us…”, that was the sentence you’ve been waiting to leave your lips. That was it– it left as if it’s been waiting to be said for the last 3 years. “ He always made it easy for you to make choices that you knew were wrong, Ku. “

Kurro didn’t look up. You were right; Terushima validated every wrong action that Kurro did. How could he even blame him though? He’s the one who came running to him after every single fight the two of you have had; with his tail swinging in between his legs. First they’d drink and talk about the issues, then Terushima would bring up going to the local pub a few streets down. They’d hit it and start relaxing, feeling calm; Terushima points out a woman that had been staring at Kurro for way too long and then the next thing you know Kurro was in your face admitting that ‘ it’d never happen again ‘.

You looked at him now as he stopped fiddling with the straw; he slowly looked up at you. You could see the moment in his eyes where things just click– he rakes his eyes over you, your eyes, your lips, your cheekbones. His gaze then shifts to your hands that are on the table; a cute little manicure, but when did you have the time to get that done? When you were ignoring him… probably.

“ I made the choice though,” He stated. He didn’t seem confident in what he was saying. This was new to him all together. Taking accountability– he had never needed to do this before, so why was he doing it now? He didn’t know but right now this is what felt like the best option to make while doing so. 

“ I made the choice to sleep with all those women, “

“ I’m the one who decided to avoid it all together and not work things out with you,”

You were now looking in his eyes; they looked disconnected from his words. It was almost like he knew what he was saying was true; he just didn’t believe he could make the actions to follow the words that would come out next. But, this was the first step. He was taking accountability and you see that. You knew eventually you would have to apologize and actually have a conversation about what’s to come next. But you can see he needs a moment to re-gather everything he was thinking about; he didn’t expect to come here and actually have to talk things out.

“ We can try again next week if that’s good? “ You advised.

He still sat there, eyes landing in his laps. He looked disconnected still. But you knew he was thinking about everything, every moment he cheated. He needed to work on himself before anything if this was going to work.

The only thing that kept coming back to his memory was that you had cheated too. Why was this only about him?

Chapter two

“ She won’t even even speak to me, kenma, “

Kurro was currently chilling at Kenma's house, after that night; the night you left the car and stopped speaking to him completely. He was confused, had he said something wrong? He said what he thought was right at the moment– you were only kidding right?

“ You joked when she was being deadass with you dummy, “ Kenma followed his sentence; keeping his attention to the current game they were playing. Kenma already knew all the drama you two had going on, and if you asked him what he thought he would say none of this would have happened if Kurro never cheated to begin with. That was what made the whole situation already bad– but only if you two had asked him. No one asked what Kenma thought about the whole thing. He was just the friend Kurro ran to when had fucked up badly with you.

“ Shit, I thought she was joking like she always does. How is it my fault I didn’t read between the lines?, “ Kurro shrugged, “ Dumbass, she told you straight up what she was thinking– what lines were there to read between?,” Kenma was now getting irritated. 

Kurro sat there still playing the game with his tongue sticking out. Maybe this was another game you were trying to play with him? Or maybe he had truly fucked up this time– I mean you two were technically broken up when you two were speaking so he thought it was just the heat of the moment type shit. He then grabbed his phone, scrolling through his contacts, you were on top– as always. Emergency contact, favorites, etc. You were the top number if anything were to happen to you’d be the one to receive the call– he tried to send another message to you.

Kurro: Are you still mad at me?

Kurro: I said I was sorry.

Kurro: Please, answer the phone.

You were reading every single one of the messages, you knew he would do this. He would then say he knew better– or he wished he knew what you were trying to say. With him it was always ‘ I wish I knew ‘ or ‘ I knew it was the wrong choice ‘. He always knew what he was doing was wrong and costing you guys your relationship. You wish if he knew he would’ve done better; but you were absolutely no angel in the whole ordeal whatsoever. You should have never cheated with Bokuto– that’s what opened up everything. You blamed yourself for his possessive behavior, for his lack of trust, the lack of being there emotionally for you guys relationship.

You blamed yourself everyday for what happened. Kurro knew too— but he wouldn’t correct you. He had started this, he just didn’t want to seem like the reason for the whole relationship to blow up just to feel his childhood crush.

You grabbed your phone; about to answer– maybe it was time you stopped being petty and put your best food forward.

“ Ah, put that damn phone girl. See you’re always folding for that excuse of a man “, Kiyoka was sitting next to you on the bed; she was like what Kenma was to Kurro. She knew if she wasn’t beside you right now; you would have been back in that man’s arms. You are a sucker to men who give the bare minimum.

But, she didn’t know. She didn’t know the night that Kurro had held you when you cried over the easiest of things. When you got a B on your Psychology final and thought your world was ending. He held you when you had a bad night at your part-time job and the local bakery; a man had gotten upset at you after the chef put strawberry paste in his baguette. 

Kurro was your peace at some point. You just never knew the moment when he stopped being that peace that you so desperately seeked. He was the only one who knew what always truly scared you. He was the only man you could’ve envisioned yourself married to– or having kids with. He was the one; you were willing to fight for what you could salvage. You knew deep down in his heart he could change, you knew he would change for you. 

You were the only one Kurro truly loved. He was constantly thinking about you no matter what the situation was– if he was practicing volleyball, or studying for a chemistry exam. He would make formulas of your initials put together, it was so cheesy is what Kenma would think when he would look over at Kurro’s notebook. He knew you were the one— he wanted to be a husband to you, to grow old with you, for you to have his kids. He had a problem; and he knew if he didn’t get it worked out then you were going to leave. There was no telling how long you were willing to deal with his bullshit. It was the only thing that kept bringing you two back; he would go back to the old him for about 4 months until he got around his friends. 

You knew which friend it was too, Terushima. He was the ring leader of whatever group they had going on. Always telling the boys that it’s okay to cheat or go out drinking and when the boy is drunk enough place a woman on their lap and watch everything unfold. You told Kurro to stop hanging out with him; he was no good; he didn’t believe it. Terushima was the guy who taught him how to play the sport he loved, he was the one who helped him when he needed to get his grades right for college. He could do no wrong.

The first time he had cheated with Alisa– he was drunk, Terushima had coached Alisa on him and he just let everything happen. He enjoyed it— that was what made it ten times worse. He had enjoyed it and wanted seconds. He told you a month later. You screamed and everything. He knew you were the one; he just got off to the high of whatever Alisa had him on. But trust– it was NEVER better than the absolute high and satisfaction you gave him.

That was the first of many things Terushima did– he also got into Kurro’s head about settling down too soon. 

“ You sure dude? “,

“ You two been together since you were 16., “

“ Maybe a few extra options wouldn’t hurt “

You knew all of this; Kiyoka and Kenma did too, but who was going to tell Kurro at this point?

You two didn’t know when to call it quits. That was your downfall. 

You and Kurro have been together since you were 15 and 16 during high school, you two were one of the main couples. He had always been the popular nerd, you knew he had other options from the beginning. You knew that, but you loved him. That was your man, you thought you knew him better than anyone else in the world. Besides his family of course.

That was until the first time he cheated. He said it was a mistake, he said it was a mistake, he knew he was in the wrong when you banged on his chest screaming for an explanation to why he would ever cheat on you. It was Alisa. She was tall, blonde, and had the most beautiful eyes you knew you just couldn’t compare to. That was really what made you upset at the whole ordeal. She was completely different from you, why could she ever turn his head when he told you that you were his type down to a tea. After all he did for you, and all you did for him he decided to turn his head to someone else. 

That was the first time you two took a break– it lasted about 2 months, until he came to your house crying and apologizing that he’d get better and the only one he truly wanted the entire time was you and that he’d cut off any other woman that he was talking to to prove his loyalty. You fell for it, but you knew you couldn’t even shake the fact that he did that in the first place. So you got your own revenge on him, sure it was petty, but it’s what your gut told you to do from the beginning.

You slept with his friend, Bokuto. That is what fucked him up dearly. He never knew you to be the one to take revenge on him like that– or even with his friend. He came at you hard that day, “ What the actual fuck is wrong with you?, “ He’d yell. “ You fucked him just to get back at something that I kept repeating I was sorry for?,”. That’s how it all went. He came at you sideways, you knew it was wrong. Bokuto was the complete opposite of Kurro, that was the whole point for Kurro to know what it truly felt like to be confused about the person he thought he knew. 

That’s what brought you two to being 21 and 22. In a toxic ass relationship. Neither of you were willing to let go of each other, but the cheating was nonstop. First he slept with a few girls off the cheerleading team, then came you trying to get back and slept with a member of his volleyball team. It was a big thing, they both fought harshly during a game. The cops had to be called; you bailed Kurro from when he was in the holding cell. It was never ending. The arguments, the make-up sex– the pregnancy scares you two had. It all came to a point where everyone knew when you and him had a fight. I mean, you two couldn’t even hide it. He’d be trying to flirt with another girl right in front of you to see how’d you react. You’d show up to parties in little to no modesty in the dresses you wore just to watch him tear his eyes from whatever woman he was trying to get into pants that night.

You two were currently in the car– just sitting there. You knew you two had to talk a lot about certain things. Especially if you two even wanted a relationship at this point. You were drained physically and mentally you stopped the cheating about 4 months ago, you actually wanted to work on whatever you two were going through currently.

“ This can’t keep going on like this ku, “, you gave him this look; the only look he knew all too well. You were starting to get fed up with him and the situation all together. He didn’t know how and what words would make you stay with him. He just said the first thing that came to mind, “ We wouldn’t be in this predicament if you hadn’t slept with Bokuto to get back at me for something I repeatedly apologized for, “ he breathed the whole sentence out like he was catching his breath; searching your eyes for something– anything but the only thing he got back was pure disappointment in your eyes and the way they raked over his face.

“ I came here to talk as adults– were grown people now. We can’t be doing this petty shit breaking up and then getting back together then cheating. “ you whispered, “ If you truly want this, if you want me I need to hear you say it of believe me when I say i’ll get out this car and you’ll never see me again.”. 

He truly looked at you.

He thought you were kidding and cracked a smile. He thought this was just going to be the cycle for the rest of his life. He was content if you were in it for the ride just like him.

fluff, sexual themes, angst

finding out you're the other woman when it comes to Regie Macalino

Maybe multiple parts?

" I'm fucking done with this Regie, " containing the hurt in your voice, while you throw his phone down on the bed. This was the second time you had caught regie speaking to some woman on Instagram his ' fake account ' that he claimed he never used. You were absolutely sick of the lies, sick of the time where he promised that he would change for the better and not speak to any woman besides you. He just sat there on the end of the bed with his head in his hands, just sighing. 

" What did you expect for to happen, " he started, " You act like you don't have lines of men in your dm's trying to get at you while you're constantly playing with me ", this is what he wasn't about to play this card. Yeah, you had men trying to constantly get at you, but you're with him no them why does it matter to begin with. " Why are you turning this on me, yeah, they talk to me Regie but I'm here with you, I'm here supporting you no matter what you and what you do with your life ". You stare at him just tired of going back and forth with him when it's nothing but a continuous loosing game with him, while sitting down looking at him. " This isn't working-" -" Yes, the fuck it is. Let's just forget about it my bad damn how long do you want me to keep apologizing ", he explained starting to lean over and rub your shoulders. He always did this. Talked to other women, and once caught try to sweet talk his self out of the problem. 

" Y/N, you've been with me for so long why you would want to throw it away for some chick I'll probably never see? Huh? Baby, none of these girls got what you got on me trust that", at this point he's rubbing your back slowly placing kisses on your neck. You knew it wasn't right, and you know you're just going to give in and forgive him. You know it for sure. But what can you do? Stop the cycle. Give him to another woman? Hell no, you'd rather die than do that. So, what do you do? Give in. It's not worth trying to argue about every single woman that tries to climb into his dm's. He's an influencer. He can't help that fact right? He also can't help the fact when he comes back from tour and Kane slips out a lie about the woman that he's supposedly slept with while gone from you right?

As you're leaning in kissing him, his phone starts going off again. He pulls away with a cheeky glint in his reaching for it, " Sorry doll, it's boss. Gotta go ", he in a instant gets up grabs a hoodie and walks out of your apartment; leaving you just to sit there and think about the last 20 minutes. You argued, He explained his side, you forgave him, and then you two made up. Like always. It's a terrible pattern and not only do you know it; Oliver knows it. The only guy in NSB that doesn't blind sight you on what's going on inside that content house. In matter of fact, he told you about the first time that he caught Regie flirting with some staff chick.

" He always does this bull shit, " taking out your phone already ready to dial up Oliver's phone already knowing the routine when he picks up. " No Y/N there is no meeting, and yes Sebastian did text him to come over for a little party. " he already knowing what's up and what his brother plans behind he and yours's back. " So he lied, again? What about Ty where is he? ".

You quickly pulled out your phone bringing up his location.

𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓶𝓮𝓮𝓽

𝐊𝐚𝐧𝐞 𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐧

You met him at an anime convention, you decided to cosplay as Shoko from Maki from Jujustu Kaisen and he was totally feeling it. I mean when they recorded the video there was so many clips of him looking at you in awe. He thought your cosplay complimented the way your skin. He was too nervous to say the least and when it came to when they went on a little break for them to hang around and view a little more areas before they went back to filming, he immediately went up to you and complimented your cosplay.

When he walked up to you, he was amazed that you knew who he was. At that, he was happy you acknowledged him as one of the members.

𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧 𝐏𝐡𝐚𝐧

You and Justin met during one of his lives. He kept getting comments in his live saying " Invite Y/N to the live trust me ", he couldn't ignore them. Especially since they sent him a gift making him need to do the request even more. Once he found your account he was stuck. Even the viewers could see so. He paused and did his smile while rubbing his face. " Chat, this girl right? ", he said while showing his phone. Once everyone in the chat approved that it was you he followed you and invited you to the live. 

Once you got the notification that someone that went by ' Sojuphan ' has invited you to their live you looked at the profiles and joined, thinking it couldn't be that bad. Oh, you were wrong. He was beautiful to you. His blonde hair had you star struck. You are immediately smiled as he and you introduced each other. Once the awkwardness settled you both went into battling, he was confused. Usually, he had these sorts of things in the bag. But why was he losing to someone, especially you? That night after the live he promised himself that he was going to battle you every night until he had a winning streak.

𝐑𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐞 𝐌𝐚𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐨

Regie never intended on actually going to one of the events that NSB was invited to. In fact, he was planning on telling Oliver that he was too sick to even go to the whole thing. He has just broken up with his ex-girlfriend (on good terms) and was not ready to go back into the world of socializing. He was a little to late to make up to the whole sick thing so he decided to go and see what could possibly happen you know? 

Once he arrived with his normal comfortable attire, he just planned to have a few drinks and stick to the other members as best as he could. He didn't want to stick out, and he didn't want to seem like antisocial at the same time. So, he did was he knew best to do. It all changed once he saw you. Your curls, your skin, and oh lord your dress. He was too caught up looking at you that he didn't even notice Manager Ty coming up to him, " Oh you see her? That's Y/n. I'm pretty sure she was the girl on live with Sebastian the other day helping him with the music. She's really good at the producing things. ". Regie turned to him, " So she's been helping to produce our music? ", Tyler nodded. He thought why he had never seen you before. He needed to talk to you.

𝐎𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐌𝐨𝐲

Oliver met you at a meet and greet. It was just the members and the few people who had purchased the VIP tickets that were present. How could he had not noticed you, your hair was in a cute little puff, and you had his favorite color on. He usually thought he wasn't the type of guy to go for black girls, but you were so pretty. He knew he had to stay professional since this was not a tinder date, but a meet n' greet with his fans. You were one of those very fans. 

When it came to your turn to meet him you were nervous. You didn't even notice the fact that Oliver looked nervous out of his mind either. " Hi, my name is Y/N ", you spoke to him with your smile, and boy if he had a list of favorite smiles, yours would be in between Justin's and Darren's. You only had 5 minutes with each member to speak, and he as a little disappointed, especially in himself, because he was the guy that suggested that amount of time. 

" Hey Y/N, is this your first time coming to one of our meet n' greets? ", he questioned you while you were just smiling not trying to come off as any type of creepy. You shook your head, you've came here before, but last time you came you didn't have chance to speak with Oliver only Regie and Kane. " No, I came here last tour. Though, I didn't get to speak with you ", you replied trying hard not to show how nervous you were when it came to speaking to one of your favorite members.

You and Oliver talked all the way up until your 5 minutes were up, and man he wished he had more time. He actually wrote your name down on a piece of napkin he had, just so he could remember your name so when it came time for him to search you up on the internet that night.

𝐑𝐲𝐚𝐧 𝐍𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐞𝐧

It was actually the same as Justin's almost, but instead you were behind Justin as they were live battling. He was confused at first, because he knew you weren't usually the type of girl Justin would have gone for. No offence to your race, but he knew his friend was into another girl that he hung out with on live one day. During the battle he couldn't help himself but sort of look at you as you were scrolling on your phone sort of looking uninterested in the whole live. But he knew one thing. You were causing Justin to win, and he didn't like that at all.

" Who's she lil bro? Crazy how you need help from someone to help you win against me ", Ryan spoke while reading a few of the comments left in his live. Justin laughed as you perked up, " He doesn't need me to win I think you just suck a little ", you smiled as you finally looked up from your phone, and boy was Ryan surprised. You were actually kind of pretty he had to admit. He just smiled covering his mouth as Justin got off about him being a loser. You smiled as you leaned up to the camera to see exactly who you were talking to.

" OH SHIT JUSTIN YOU DIDN'T TELL ME WE WERE BATTLING RYAN!", You kept repeating, slapping Justin's shoulder in excitement. " She knows me? ", Ryan asked. " Yeah, she's your number one fan or whatever ", Justin just rolled his eyes.

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐋𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐠

You met Darren at a Boba Tea spot. It actually wasn't anything special, you were working there. He was filming a video with the group when he was the one paying for everyone's boba. When he came up to the register to place the order. He thought your hair was really pretty along with your curly lashes and thick eyebrows.

" What can I help you with sir? ", you asked him, now looking up from your watch. He looked at you and smiled, so glad that the camera wasn't being shoved in his face at this very moment to catch him cheesing over some employee at the boba shop. " Oh, um- are you new here? ", he asked looking around. Usually there was a man working in the front. You smile as you nod. " You must be looking for Joon, well he got promoted to manager and is only here in the mornings.", you replied as you put in the orders. 

" That'll be $45.89. ", smiling as he handed you, his card. You turned to look at the rest of his members. " Are you all a group or something? ", asking him, turning around to grabs some of the orders that came out a little faster than others.

He smiled as he nodded. This was going to be his new favorite place to come to for now on.

𝐒𝐞𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐌𝐨𝐲

Sebastian always followed you on Instagram. He loved you, well that's what all the members would say about him. He was the only member that was true to say which person/influencer he truly had a crush on. When it came down to expose videos, when they had to go through each other's phone, they saw many dm's on his phone to your Instagram account. They found it funny. They chopped it up to him being rejected since you haven't responded to a single dm. Even to one that offered for the two of you to collab.

It was all funny till he got a dm from you, apologizing for never getting back to him. You told him you would love to collab with him one day and that did he have any ideas for the collab. 

He went around the whole day to the other member bragging about you responding back to him, and exaggerating the point where he told other members you were going to be his wife one day in the future.

GAWDDD DANGGGGG