fairy dust

“yeah. cold as fuck though.”

“It’d be worth it to be so groundbreaking, wouldn’t it?”

“don’t worry, i slip up a lot and giggle during girl crush concepts all the time. i’m sure you could do it if i can.”

“No way, you’re so good at girl crush concepts! It really looks like it comes naturally for you.”

“i went to a few good places like malls and restaurants and such, nothing we don’t have here in korea though.” she paused for a second. “that’s what i’m hoping for though, i’d love to feel experienced when i debut so the nerves wont feel as prominent. i think it’d really help out.”

“It’s sad you didn’t get to do much actual sight seeing. There are a lot of cool things out there.” She nodded enthusiastically. “It was scary to debut without any real stage practice. Of course, I trained and knew how to sing and dance, but it’s so different to be on a real stage. I think you’ll have a big advantage.”

“a little bit yeah, but we’re constantly training and preparing before performances, it makes it hard to go out and look around the cities but i’ve managed to find some time for each city luckily. as for the crowd, i wouldn’t say there is a difference in size, just excitement.”

“Did you go anywhere good? Most of the time I went out, I just ended up wandering around until I realized there was nothing for me to do and headed back. That must be nice, though. You’ll have some experience on stage before your debut so maybe you’ll have the upper hand compared to other trainees who don’t.”

“i mean, yeah, but we aren’t going to antarctica. and right now south of the equator is summer.”

“That’s true, I guess. It’d be cool to be the first people to perform in Antarctica, though.”

“i think you could pull it off to be honest, all it takes is the ability to be versatile enough and change up your look and facial expressions to match the concept.”

“I think that would be my problem, though. I laugh too much to be convincingly girl crush-y.”

“is it just me or are you starting to get tired, now? i shouldn’t complain, because it’s all still so exciting, but i don’t think i’ve ever had a schedule this long and packed.” hyeyoung giggled lightly. “i feel like i must be getting old, or something.”

“I don’t think I could ever get tired of this. I love seeing the fans we don’t usually get to perform for,” Biyu laughed back. “You’re not that old, though. I don’t think you can use that as an excuse yet.”

“now listen, i like the concept of lullaby and i enjoy promoting it on tour. but i’d rather release more songs like hobgoblin. i feel like it was the concept toxxik was meant to stay with.”

“I think it’d be a lot of fun to do the kind of stuff you guys do! You probably pull it off way better than I ever could, though.”

“okay but like i said before, i don’t know this place so if we get lost then it’s your fault for putting so much trust in me.”

“Do you at least think our managers will come looking for us if we get lost?”

“Lance Kim is dead to me.”

“Did he eat your food or something?”

“touring as a trainee is a weird experience, not only do i have to keep up with training and such. but i also have to fly all over the place and sometimes perform. it almost feels like i’ve debuted without all the hype surrounding me.”

“Is it hard to find time to train on days you’re performing? Do you get any time to go around the cities we’re in and look around? Is there a big crowd when you perform?”

“can we stay south of the equator for the rest of the tour? i can’t show off my legs when it’s cold.”

“Wait.... Antarctica is south of the equator, and that’s really cold. Wouldn’t you just want to stay close to the equator?”

“how likely do you think it’d be that i could get an i love this city shirt from every tour destination? would that make me lame?”

“They’re all pretty big cities, I’m sure you could find them pretty easily if you wanted them. And it’d only be lame if you planned on wearing them. If you were just collecting them, it’s kinda cool.”

“I didn’t know that it’ll be this difficulty to debut. I mean i had the chance to show myself during idol project season two and gladly became a member of creed. But i’m craving for a debut under alpha i really want to be a part of a permanent group. And i know i’m asking for too much, i only can keep dreaming and work till i collapse on all my failures. Sometimes i wonder if it wouldn’t be better for me to start an acting career instand of trying to be an idol singer?”

“I’m sure that if you keep working hard, you’ll be able to make your debut someday! Unless you really want to be an actor.”