sickening

“as you should, not everyone gets to talk to me.” baekhyung responded before letting out a laugh.

“one day i’m going to knock you so far off your mental pedestal it’ll hurt.”

“i think that’d be a good idea then, i say do it.”

“i’ll try and find a shirt with your face on to commemorate your blessing of my decision.”

“I don’t really know what else to do…. She wouldn’t let me try to explain it to her, so she might think I don’t want anything to do with my family anymore.”

“there’s no harm in trying. not only does it invite her but it also shows you do want something to do with the family, right? kind of a best of both worlds - as much as it can be in the situation.”

“we’d come there eventually. just in five months when it’s warmer.”

“hold up, when did you become queen of the tour? i demand the title of empress.”

“so lame. which is why you should.”

“say no more, consider me queen of the i love t-shirts.”

“Get one for Donny, or Kisu. They both could use some that they haven’t already torn.”

“and give fans what they want? never.”

“you definitely could, but what exactly would you do with them all after?”

“create a shrine for the tour that’s over.”

“it’d make you the lamest person on the tour, and that’s saying something. but i’d still still talk to you regardless.”

“oh how cordial of you. i feel honoured.”

“lame enough for you to lose your girl crush rep.”

“well shit we can’t be having that now can we?”

@rvmatika @rvbillie @rvkalani

“Do you think I could convince my sister to come to the final show of the tour? I don’t know if she’s still mad at me for not visiting while we were in China…. Is inviting her a good idea?”

“might as well try whilst you still can, otherwise you’d regret it.”

“okay but like i said before, i don’t know this place so if we get lost then it’s your fault for putting so much trust in me.”

“the one time i decide to trust someone other than myself and they’re a complete dumbass. great. might as well call my family to let them know i’m gonna die.”

“now listen, i like the concept of lullaby and i enjoy promoting it on tour. but i’d rather release more songs like hobgoblin. i feel like it was the concept toxxik was meant to stay with.”

“that’s cute - that you think you can try and put in your input on what your group releases.”

“Lance Kim is dead to me.”

“i’d say sorry for your loss but i don’t know how deep in fuckery this death is.”

“touring as a trainee is a weird experience, not only do i have to keep up with training and such. but i also have to fly all over the place and sometimes perform. it almost feels like i’ve debuted without all the hype surrounding me.”

“i thought there a ton of hype around the trainees performing though? doesn’t that mean you have debuted with the hype?”

“can we stay south of the equator for the rest of the tour? i can’t show off my legs when it’s cold.”

“and then how would you tell all the fans north of the equator that we didn’t come to their country because of your legs?”

“not really no, i still keep in touch with most of them, or at least the ones i got along with. if they have any ill feelings about me leaving then it’s not my problem.”

“what a boring, amicable answer. you know, having bad feelings for ds would’ve made the tour ten times more entertaining.”