My dear diary..

Where do i go if nowhere and no-one feels like home anymore

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

Constantly switching between healing and complete self destruction

crazy how trauma isn't your fault but it's your responsibility to heal

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

what the fuck did i do SO wrong that i have to feel like this for the rest of my life

should i over explain myself or remain misunderstood