my hobby is falling for 2d men

First thing i drew as a kid were dinosaurs invading cities. At daytime, at night, even at sunset. Something about it was always fascinating and i felt like i needed to capture it.

Then i started drawing characters and anime mainly... Not because i liked cartoons or characters... Maybe i just wanted to draw girls that felt pretty because 1) i didn't feel as one, and 2) because i didn't have friends. But i didn't know that much back then.

My sister introduced me to YouTube tutorials of drawing "an anime head", and it became my pass-temps. Over the years, that's all i did. I liked the idea of drawing as a skill, not as a means to realize the picture in my head, so most my sketchbooks were filled with "practice" sketches, where the purpose was to be able to form guidelines for a drawing of a character, a pose, a head tilt, a hand structure... But never a finished piece that served a meaning.

I may be wrong here, nothing's wrong with practicing and unfinished drawings... But i felt it lacked meaning.

Only now, at 23, that i am asking myself this question, "what do you *really* enjoy drawing?"

"what do you enjoy seeing and want to recreate? What is other than what you just got used to do that you wanna draw? What makes you happy to see?"

And realized i enjoy more than just characters. I do like character design and making comics (i never made one)... But i think i enjoy cityscapes more. I enjoy ornaments like mandala and Islamic ornaments, i enjoy drawing things i find beauty in; like nature, cats, the sky and clouds, capturing the feeling of the golden hour, interior drawings, architectural details, even concept or abstract art, and many, many more...

But i never did any of that. I don't know why. Maybe i just got used to what was easy and in front of me. I created a visual feed that was based only on characters, never on other things, which may served in developing one skill over another.

This step is more about my self-discovery than an art journey tbh, to switch my interest to things i really wanna express.