Renèissance

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I never really got to introduce myself properly so here's a list of things about me!

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name ; Renèe

nicknames ; renren

birthday ; February 14

pronouns ; she/they

sexuality ; pansexual

height ; 5'6

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Kurapika finding out about me & Chrollo

(In this universe, the Kurta clan aren't necessarily killed, their eyes were stolen by some kind of Nen but they were left unharmed, it doesnt solve Kurapika's anger though, the Kurta clan eyes are still of their posession) When Kurapika confessed about his contract/deal in his heart (the using his power only against the spiders), he caught a glimpse of the little spider embedded on the skin of my rib when I was stretching and my shirt suddenly lifted up. I almost got scared when I saw his eyes redden and asked me "Are you affliated with the spiders?" i legit almost went on my knees and went no no no no no let me explain. Then I realized the spider tattoo's reason of existence is like a whole lot of weird. "Me and the Leader had some kind of relationship...." the two kids were around and what the hell was I supposed to say, we went badonkadonk on the bed for most of the year?????? I kept eyeing him but Leorio didnt seem to get the hint to cover and Gon and Killua's ears, Kurapika was lowkey mad "THAT kind of relationship, if you catch my drift." Again he was super confused. "Get to the point." "What I'm saying is..." i just started clapping, like to insinuate intercourse as innocently as I could. Kurapika was soooooo perplexed, i almost died on the spot. I just ended up writing "S.E.X" on the crumbled paper. Killua and Gon tried to sneak up onto the paper, Kurapika's eyes just went O_O, then he keeps the paper in the pocket. "Answer my questions honestly. Failure to do so, this chain blade will pierce your heart." I just nod, i was fr sweating. "Did you willingly.... share this union with him?" I nod. "What made you think it was a good idea to be connected with him in this way?" "He wasn't Chrollo Lucifer when I spent time with him, he was Ronin, blonde haired man with silver glasses and crisp, dark blue suits." "Ronin?" I then nod. "How did you find out and what did you do?" "Before I found out, I already broke it off with him. He revealed himself to me." bro then removes the chain and I let out the breath I've been holding. He calms down and apologizes for scaring the shit out of me, he only wanted to find out.

Melody (my love)

SHES MY SHAYLA BRO. MY SWEET NEPTUNE SHAYLA. She is so caring??? She reads me a little too well. I'm someone who doesnt open up, i get upset and sensitive way too easily for my own good. Melody once played this like so soft and gushy tone while I was retreating to myself so I'd feel a little more at ease. "Your heart didn't feel at peace so I played this tune to help you be at ease" along the lines, she said something like that. She lowkey sometimes scares me cause she pops out of nowhere and shes like really really small, i feel bad i sometimes hit her cause for the life of me, I cannot see her, even when Im walking forward shshshshhshs shes so precious, i cant help my cuteness aggression. There was also this one time I was crying cause my chest felt sooooo heavy, she came up to me and sat beside me, she just suddenly pulls out a flute and i thought i was transported into another universe cause i was suddenly surrounded in a blanket, there was a fireplace, cozy setting and warm tea, I was like wow. Deadass i was about to drink the tea when in reality i was sipping the air, HIGHKEY EMBARRASSING

Leorio and his loud ass

After that little conversation w/ Kurapika about how me and Chrollo are affliated, Leorio's nosy ass just HAD to know what it was all about (excluding Gon and Killua's nosy asses for this conversation) "I demand answers! How did you guys meet???" Blah blah blah stuff like that while he giggled obnoxiously. I had to bonkers his head so he'd stop asking dumb ahh questions, he passed out. Bro cussed his whole heart out to me when he woke up hours later. "I JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED!!! IS IT A CRIME!!!!"

Illumi & Hisoka

But here's my take, of course, its okay to have skepticism about shifting, especially when you are just discovering it. The question "is shifting real?" might bore A LOT, A TON of shifters, saying (on tiktok, I have seen this response multiple times) "Of course its real, I'm not embarrassing myself defending shifting on here if it wasn't" I also kind of get why some people say its hard to believe in something like that.

As a former young girl, I used to think 30 is old like ill be old and saggy, I had this mindset when i was younger because society just happened to brainwash everybody into thinking so when its not true because 30s are still prime, until I came across my now favorite movie of all time, 13 Going On 30. A girl who's sick of the social strictures of junior high is transformed into a grownup overnight. In this feel-good fairy tale, teenaged Jenna wants a boyfriend, and when she's unable to find one, she fantasizes about being a well-adjusted adult. Suddenly, her secret desire becomes a reality, and she is transformed into a 30-year-old. But adulthood, with its own set of male-female challenges, isn't as easy as it looks.

A lot of shifters say this movie is so shifting coded and yes. At the Seven minutes of heaven scene where Jenna is visibly upset, saying that she wants to be 30 and now she starts affirming "30, flirty and thriving!" She keeps on going and going and on going. Now she wakes up in that reality where she's actually 30, flirty and thriving! It amazed me when I was little and I used to copy that A LOT

Because first thing, she was gawky teenager Jenna Rink, and after she affirms, she's now 30 year old Jenna Rink, big time magazine editor who's a tough bitch and the future of the magazine brand, Poise!

But yes, I would say you did mini-shift, i do think it was just that you didn't ground yourself! Ill just give you tips on how to ground yourself but FIRST of all, what is grounding yourself if you ask?

Grounding is the technique to calm yourself, trying to resonate with the surroundings of the dr you are shifting to. It it also to help your physical & mental health state when you feel disoriented.

For grounding, it is good to use your 5 senses which are your seeing, hearing, tasting, feeling and eventually smelling, I also prefer to affirm so I can feel more connected. Then, when you now feel like you are close, you can now channel or thinking of some memories in your DR, for example, if you are shifting to atwow, think of the ocean and boat rides! This part is a little more complicated but try to process that you have now shifted, even if you're scared, be brave enough to do it scared, acknowledge your changing surroundings slowly and continue to observe with thr 5 senses. Merge yourself, your emotional state with your DR self to feel more connected, to tighten that grip, visualizing you are your DR self cause that IS you!!!

As shifters and spiritual beings, we are like the Gods of our realities, we can choose and shape them however we want (unless you're religious). I am a SUCKER for lonely gods who yearn for their lovers for 1000+ years to be reborn or until they can find and fall in love with them all over again and the cycle repeats. When I found shifting 5-6 years ago, i never realized I understimated of 1000+ years of looking, yearning and mourning for your lover!

Like 5-6 years of shifting (i finally shifted btw) has already exhausted me, what more if it was 1000+ years? Personally, one of my favorite kdramas are Goblin but what is it about? When Kim Shin (the goblin) is faced with death instead of honor after fighting a mighty battle, God Almightly turns Kim Shin into a goblin instead, tasked with protecting certain people from the life of misery. But immortality is wearing on Kim Shin, and he longs to find the prophesied human bride who can set his soul free. A 939-year-old immortal goblin and protector of souls who is in search for his bride, the only one who can remove the sword piercing through his chest. Once the sword is removed, he may finally move to the afterlife and rest in peace. He possesses supernatural powers that come with his immortality, but he has to pay a huge price for this. He feels lonely as he has to watch his loved ones leaving him behind when their lifespan ends (wikipedia). This kdrama was so poetic, I loved the lines in this series, especially the ones at the very end, even the songs are poetic and unskippable

So, why am I bringing this up? I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY but I just thought as shifters, its like we're lonely gods, shifting for 5+ years just to see the love of our lives, whether it be platonic and/or romantic

Shifters are yearners, mourners who long for a happier life because of their shitty realities, they want to get out of it, doing everything to go back. In the scene where Kim Shin is in a desert, in the limbo between life and death, he endured ALLAT so he can come back to his lover and he did it for a total of 9 YEARS

Once upon a time, in a faraway land, in a big, golden kingdom, resided a princess called Reneé. She dreamed of big things, to see every inch of the world and its wonders, her soul yearned for the adventure that lies within her short, little life.

But what was her problem? Why can't she do it? She was afraid, afraid of the unknown and the new. Can we help her face her fears?

By acknowledging your fears, one can achieve lots and I mean lots, and this was crucial for me when I was just starting out with my shifting career (wow). As I have always stood by in my shifting logs, I am always and forever will be a pussy. Being brave is not removing your fear, being brave is facing it scared, the courage to walk and face your long time fears, that is what the essence of being brave actually is

I've always been one to use me scripting my DRs as a stall to me actually going to shift, I wasn't ready to face it, to grasp the reality of the concept of reality shifting is.

I love scripting. The problem with me is that im so addicted to scripting, I cannot count how many times I have scripted more than I have actually tried to shift. The extensive lore of my HOTD & GoT is just gonna get longer and longer, the hyperfixation is actually crazy icl, my HOTD lore was a whole ass book I could be the next GRRM (well no, I don't want to be the next GRRM since for some reason he weirds me out but ykwim). Every time I watch a new show and immediately love it, boom I always look for a script template, im lucky if thats show's awfully famous

Im not only afraid of shifting, im also scared of my current reality, what if i was missing out? What if i died and missed the chance to shift? What if I actually never get to shift?

Then I realize I shouldn't let fear get the best of me and that is when I realized FEAR is the one holding me back from my ultimate goal, so I shifted scared so i can face what is out there and boom, i shifted!

When Hankie was born, Hawks was actually kind of scared.

He was just about to step closer, but a soft chirp from Baby Hank, made him hesitate for a sec, i saw the flicker of concern flashing in his eyes. He thought, maybe being too close was triggering the baby's sense of fear of flying predators or something like that since Hawks wings were bright red and stood big. He just kept his distance i felt SOOOO BAD LMAO, he still standing by the door frame, i noticed his wings twitching slightly as a reaction. "Keito, huh? A pretty strong name for such a cute little thing." He commented sheepishly, he watched the baby wriggle in my arms and chirp in an almost adorable manner, after all, Hank was our little birdie. I then sheepishly admitted I just named Hank after his real name, Keigo, then just switched G with T, Keito. Legit bro almost snorted laughing at me for the "creativity" "Is that so?" He had the good-for-punching smirk on his lips. "I'm honored then. I like it." He chuckled softly, his wings flickering as he watched you cradle Keito close to my chest. After a moment, his eyes trails down to Keito's tiny wings, my wing genes DID NOT BUDGE I TELL YOU, he was all Hawks carbon copy

So, before Hankie knew how to fly with his daddy, Hawks straps him into a secure, custom-made baby carrier designed for flight. He’s like overly cautious and is anxious about anything and everything, flying slower than ever. While soaring gently through the sky, he says Hankie giggles at the the wind, and he just whispers something like, “You’re gonna love flying as much as I do, aren’t you, little bird?”

When Hank used to wake up crying in the middle of the night, Keigo insists on handling it, LIKE ALL THE TIME, telling me, “I’ve got this, hero work taught me how to survive on no sleep!” then he proceeds to rock Hank while humming softly, his wings wrapping protectively around us both.

Hawks uses his feathers to gently tickle the Hank’s cheeks, making the little burst into giggles and random babbles which he seemed to understand (???) Like Hank would babble the most unintelligible stuff and Hawks would nod and listen like it was the MOST sophistical conversation he's had in his entire hero life. He always beams proudly, saying, "That’s right, laugh it up! You’ve got my sense of humor already" or "No way! Really! Baby, listen to what he said!" God they're so adorable, my favorite boys in the entire world

During his early patrols when he usually leaves at the crack of down, Hawks carries a baby picture of Hankie in his pocket and just casually shows it off to fellow heroes (dude he used to say like "no i dont think thats my baby in there"). "Yeah, saving lives is cool, but have you seen this? Look at those cheeks. I made that!" Hes such a proud and goofball dad, such a good partner too, im always drooling

When the Hank’s first word came out to be "wing" instead of "dad," Hawks was lowk offended. Saying stuff like "What?! My own wings get the credit before me? I made YOU!" But, ya know, secretly, he was like super ecstatic and starts flapping his big bright red wings around the room to entertain them. He also tickled Hank's alreadu growing wings, it was getting bigger and bigger as he grew up.

During our daily ritual, the afternoon nap time, Hawks wraps Hankie in his wings, creating a warm, feathery cocoon, like we do to each other when we sleep at night or make love (yes). Hank, after his fair share of energy bursts, always falls asleep instantly, and Hawks just smirks, saying, "Guess I’m the best blanket in town." hes so smug and proud of himself, its almost too attractive to handle

Hawks, as his usual habit, starts jokingly giving pep talks to Hank while his sitting in his high chair for lunch. "Alright, little one, you’ve got my awesome genes, so let’s aim for hero number one, okay? None of that number two stuff." Hawks is Hank's number 1 hypeman, the biggest hypeman of them all, he tells him his hero stories, especially the funny ones, to inspire Hank and make him laugh too. Hawks doesnt actually care if his son was a number 1, 2 or 3 hero or may not even want to be a hero, what was important is that Hank grew up happy and healthy in a likewise family household

When Hank took his first steps, Hawks practically lost it. He jumps into the air, cheering like crazy (told you Hawks was his biggest hypeman ever), and then ended up scaring Hank into falling. He then lands immediately, panicking, then says something like “No, no, you’re okay! Daddy just got too excited, that’s all.” Then he spends the next hour, a day even, encouraging Hank to try again.

That is all for this story time, byeeeeee!!!!

Originally, I did not even have an S/O in my MHA dr for a change, not until some ***miracle*** between me and Hawks magically happened and boom, there was Hank (his nickname, his real name being Keito Takami, Keito was just switching Hawks' name, Keigo, with a T, and Keito also means joyous, blessed, and fortunate.

Rocky start of parenthood (bonus the hookup)

So the miracle happened when all the pro heroes were having this little celebration, a party if you will. Me and Hawks were fooling around alone somewhere. Actually, he did NOT believe me when I said i was boomshakalaka pregnant with his kid (p.s i did NOT sleep with anyone else before/after him). When the ultrasound showed the fuckass wing bones, he sighed and just accepted his fate as a daddy (bonus Keito/Hank had his features, a total carbon copy) I actually had a hard time with pregnancy???? Made me realize how REAL shifting is cause ong why was my back arching NOT IN THE GOOD WAY cause Hank was crazy heavy inside my belly since the wings added a few pounds, why the hell was it HEAVY???? (For more info actually, im also a pro hero, hero name Saintess, real name is Yves Saintè Laurent. Quirk name's Divinity since Im an angel, angel wings, angel halo, whatever angel traits there are. Keito inherited both of our wings, make sense why it was weighty). Hawks was really helpful and supportive, wanting the best for his son, he did NOT leave me alone for even a second. When Hank was born, i saw the love in his eyes when he held him, he was so happy, he called Hankie his little bird, he saw the wings, the hair, the face and fell in love completely with his son

Fun moments with Hank (our son)

Hank and Hawks like to go out to fly just to play. One day Hank comes running to me with a bloodied and bruised knee. I literally yelled their names out of worry "KEITO AND KEIGO TAKAMAKI! What in the hell happened?!" then I knelt down to check on the little one's knee. Hawks then gives me a run through, Hank skinned his knee when he bumped into a tree after attempting to fly through the big space. I carry the crying Hank over my shoulder, "i told you to be careful, baby!" that was what I said. Hank keeps on crying, "Sorry Mama!" over and over again, it broke my heart to see my baby cry. We then go to the bathroom to clean and treat his little wound, I reminded Hank to be careful with flying or else Ill be stricter with his playtime. After that, me and Hawks retreat to the couch. Just to calm me down, Hawks massaged my back cause i was fuming and super worried my baby was gonna get hurt from his flying practice. Hawks kept saying sorry babe this, sorry babe that while massaging me, trying to get me out of distress. So we can sooth our baby, we decided to treat him with ice cream, gobbled up the whole bucket giggling

Hank has this something he calls his "man dinner", he doesn't eat it everyday but i like to give it to him as a reward, now man dinner consists of three courses, the appetizer is orange fish eggs (i actually made this with agar agar powder and fruit juice) and seaweed which he thinks are the fancy caviar thingies in restaurants, next course is his spaghetti with meatballs, he prefers his spag garnished with basil, cause he REAAALLLLYYY thinks its fancy, his dessert is his grape juice (which he thinks is the grown up juice which is wine) and ice cream sandwhich. "Hank, man dinner's ready!" I call out to the kid. Hank's eyes lit up at the mention of his "man dinner." Excitedly, he hurried over, a wide grin on his little face. He clambered onto his highchair, looking every bit like a grown-up in miniature. "Man dinner!" he exclaimed, clapping his tiny hands together. "I'm ready!" "Okay, please dont be messy with man dinner, little bird" i remind him "I'll do my best, Mom!" Hank replied, his wings fluttering with determination. Hawks chuckled softly at the sight, his wings rustling with amusement. "Quite the little man we've got, huh?" he said, a proud father's smile on his face. He gently reached out, ruffling Hank's hair affectionately. "Lets see how well he handles his man dinner tonight, hm?"

I was cuddling with Hank while Hawks was annoying me from behind, wanting a cuddle too, his hands and wings tickle me from behind. Bro even tried to be a little over PG, i cover his face with my palm and whispered "Pro pervert". He kept saying i love yous and was so gentle with his touches. "If you really loved me, you'll marry" I half-jokingly and seriously said. His eyes kind of widen for a sec, "Just joking, you dont have to tie yourself to me" then his mood shifts then said something like "oh what? What do you mean, babe?" "I mean like you dont have to tie yourself to me, you know, you're like young, wild and free." (Pathetic of me i know) Then bro starts reassuring me "I want you babe" this "you're the only woman ill ever love" that "i love you and Hank" then he promised me he was gonna buy me a red ruby ring, and the next day, i found the shining ring on the bedside table.

Me and Hawks have this cute little thing when we sleep, since we both have wings, i first wrap mine around his back and then overlaps it with his. One time we did that and Hankie walked inside the room, he legit cried cause he thought we've been gobbled up by some big feathery monster. Just an hour before dawn is when he leaves usually. Hawks is an early bird that catches the worm, he leaves without waking me, his habit, so I rest as much as possible. A note from him is ALWAYS left on the bedside table, the neat, cursive wrote a little love message everyday "Gone to patrol early. See you and Hank tonight. Love, Keigo". The note had his usual signature chicken scratch doodle drawn with his stupid cute little face portrait in the corner, making me smile like sheeeeeeeeeet.

Me and Hawks, rarely fight, like RARELY but one day, eventually like couples do, we fought of course. It was small but bothered me so much since i was really sensitive with my mood. He was very calm and rational tho, just to lighten up the mood, he would crack up stupid jokes but i pushed him away cause i was not in the mood (toxic ass trait) made me feel so bad cause he was super empathetic and understanding of my feelings. His wings were usually were held up high by him but when we fought that day, his wings were droopy and sombre :(. When I was powdering Hankie's back, he asked me if I was mad at daddy, of course I asked why did he think so and why did he ask. My baby told me daddy's wings have been looking sad and i wasnt looking at Hawks all day, i just explained that when grown ups like me and his daddy have an misunderstanding, sometimes we had to cool down before talking again. Hank's tiny "Oh," murmurs. Suddenly with a spurge of energy and determination, he nods. "I know! I can help. Like a super hero!" He has always liked being a superhero. His cute wings fluttered w/ so much excitement as he tried to mimic a hero's pose, though his tiny arms made it look more adorable than heroic, he was a chubby baby "I can make you and Daddy talk again! I'm a hero, Mama!". I chuckle and kissed him all over. Hawks then suddenly sits down beside his son and we were like AWKWARD. Hank kept saying "Mama, daddy, please love!" While tugging at my shirt

In every universe, I will always look for you. In every lifetime, I will always love you. In every maelstrom of timelines, I will and forever always chase and reach out to you.

I will fall in love with you

over

and over again

I don't care how,

where,

or when

No matter how long it's been,

you're mine

Don't tell me you're not the same person

Let us be glad! Let us be grateful!!!

Our today's special guest is Glinda Upland or Glinda the Good Witch or Witch of The North

Okay, but why am I bringing up G(a)linda, this is a shifting account and what does she have to do with anything with shifting? Well...

These things are sent to try us!!!

Kidding aside, I brought up Glinda for a lesson today, for everyone, although you don't really need lessons when it comes to shifting since what you need is only yourself.

Now Glinda (Based on 2024 Wicked), she enters Shiz University to further into higher education. As we all know, Elphaba and Glinda have powers, now of course, there is a difference between them, Elphie has natural and raw abilities while Glinda, was depicted struggling with her magic and relied on training-based spells. In the shifting community, we are quite divided with shifters who have shifted and shifters who have not shifted yet. Now what is the connection? Shifters who have shifted maybe seen by shifters who have not shifted yet as Elphie (posesses innate elemental abilities which are extraordinary and seemed to disregard the need for effort), while shifters who have not shifted may see themselves as Glinda (lacking abilities and reliance on many other things, a good example for Glinda's character was relying on her social status and charm).

While Elphie's innate powers were very strong, she still required the education in controlling and refining her powers. This goes with our shifters who have and have not shifted yet, with enough training, Glinda eventually had her own magic. Thats what they all say, comparison is the thief of joy. People who have shifted had their bad days too, struggling with shifting, endless overthinking and research, they once may have seen themselves as Glinda or were once a Glinda, heavily relying on the influence and words from other shifters but eventually, they realize all they had to do was let go and be them in order to shift, therefore they have shifted (at last).

Glinda is one of my favorite complex characters in the Wicked franchise and I have deeply related to her in various ways and thought "Hey, she could absolutely do for a shifting lesson!". Glindas and Elphies co-exist in any community, every community, even in ours. Do not compare your shifting journeys, these journeys are personal and vary for every Glinda and Elphie.

Okay now question, who's shifting to Wicked? Lmk!