my blog 🐝

I've seen a lot of posts saying that we are like angels, but I'd say we're all more like bees.

We work all day, sometimes unknowingly, to serve the purpose of the hive mind. We could love, hate, comply, or rebel, but at the end of the day any movements for or against the system will only provide it with the pollen it needs to run. If we ever were to truly lash out and flash our stingers, we'd die.

To defend ourselves we open wounds, and to hurt others we allow ourselves to die. Only as we wither away do we momentarily feel the relief of having won. But what is the prize?

The willowy body rivaling that of the dead, a hollow carcass to be left among the flowers at the end of a half-lived life?

Or the lost soul inside, the poor child who was made to think their fragility was a strength and sorrow a discipline?

And who truly wins?

Such is the way of life for we who refuse to eat.

Update 🐝

Y'all I'm so hungry 😭.

I'm walking around the mall with my mother and I genuinely don't know if I can keep this up. First she wants to buy fast food to eat on the way, making me hold the bag, and SHE KEEPS OFFERING IT TO ME. Now we're in the mall and the whole place smells like food 😭.

It sucks, but I'll be damned if I don't push through.

Day 3

Cw: 133.2 lb

Sw: 135.4 lb

First day of the two day fast (I'm so scared)!

In all seriousness I have been given a list of tips to help me fast, so I'll leave them here. And thank you all for the tips!

Drink water

Drink chai

Drink green tea

Light excercise (eg. walking)

Sleep early

Load up on caffiene

Distract yourself

If you have any other tips for me, let me know! I would love to put a big list together for anyone else fasting to use. Be patient, and, of course,

Stay safe angels 🪽

Update 🐝

Final update of the night! I've seen it recommended to take baths for weight loss, so I'll try that tonight after I clean my room. It should be pretty relaxing for me, since I've been a little stressed recently.

I've also decided to accompany my diet with workouts. Every day I'll do an ab workout, but on the non fasting days, depending on the intake amounts, I'll either do resistance training or cardio. I'll also walk everyday for at least 30 minutes. This should help prevent muscle loss, in addition to the protein shakes I'll add to my diet every non-fasting day.

Final intake: 295 kcal (I know it's a little high)

Final burn: 258 kcal

Net intake: 37 kcal

I'm still a little nervous for the two day fast, but barring any family dinners or fainting, I should be good! Wish me luck, and, of course,

Stay safe angels 🪽

Update 🐝

I know it's cheating to weigh yourself throughout the day, but I used the restroom and got curious, so I did 😛.

I'm 134.4 lbs as of now, and that's with all of the water still in my system! I'm so excited to weigh myself tomorrow after a good night's sleep, and even more so after the two day fast I have coming up. I also took the liberty of planning out all of the rest of my meals for the fast, and i had to switch around some days because my friend's birthday is coming up and she wantsto eat at a restaurant. It's ok though because my net calories for the week are still lower than the original diet's net calories.

Also, I know it's only day 2, and i run the risk of jinxing my diet by saying this, but this is way easier than i thought it would be. I've been working out with weights and everything and I still have energy. Every once in a while I'll start feeling motion sick and dizzy, but most of the time I feel fine. I get how people lose a stone on this diet. It's been a day and a half and I've already lost over a pound 😅.

Let me know if you guys like these updates. In a couple hours, I'll post my final stats for the day.

Update 🐝

I just ate my meal 😋.

Its a bit more calorically dense than I wanted, so I'm over my daily limit. It's alright though because I can make up for it through subtracting the amount I overate from another day on the diet.

Also, just a friendly reminder to get moving and eat your fibre! I just went on a short walk and ate some chia seeds, and all the sudden my constipation cleared up. Especially if your diet is lower in calories, prioritize fibre in every meal you eat. It'll help you lose weight much faster because it helps your digestive system run more efficiently 😊

Day 2

Cw: 135 lb

Sw: 135.4 lb

I honestly expected to lose more, considering I haven't eaten in over a day now. I also have really bad constipation though, and my period just started, so maybe those things are related? I'll have some coffee now and chia seeds later to try to get things moving. Get your fibre in, and, of course,

Stay safe angels 🪽

Update 🐝

I'm getting a bit hungry again so I'm going to bed. I'll try to make some coffee in the morning to keep me awake and help me fast. My goal is to eat around 4 or 5 pm tomorrow so I'll have it in my stomach for the two day fast after. I'm so scared for that 😫

Anyways, today's total intake was 0 calories! I only had water and black tea. I also didn't excercise because of my muscle pain, so I may stretch before bed and then sleep. If you have any tips for the 2 day fast coming up, please let me know! I'll try to fill up on caffeine and water but I'm still scared of hunger. Goodnight, and, of course,

Stay safe angels🪽

Update 🐝

I took a nap and now I feel like i could fast for a million years. Is this normal for you all who fast regularly?

(Genuine question, I'm in uncharted territory here! Almost to 24 hours.)

Update 🐝

I'm starting to get a little hungry....

I usually eat my meal around this time, and I'm scared that later at night I'll start craving 😨.

I'm just gonna make some tea for now.

Day 1

It's the first day of my 10 day diet! Wish me luck!

Cw: 135.4 lb (I'm so bloated lol)

Gw: 125 lb

The reason I set my gw so low is that the diet claims to help lose a stone, which is 14 pounds. I figure that i should ideally lose at least 10 doing this. I'll post more updates throughout the day, but since this is my first time fasting for a day, I'm a little nervous. If you have tips or toxic motivation for me, let me know! And, of course,

Stay safe angels 🪽

Today ~

Lunch (red lobster): biscuit, 2 chips, queso dip, half a bowl of bisque - 452 kcal

Binge: premier protein, popcorn, honey mustard pretzels, cheez its, snickers ice cream, golden oreo - 895

Kcal: 1347

Burned: 1568

Net: -221

I've been seeing this diet going around to lose one stone in 10 days, and i think I'm going to start it tommorow. I need to build discipline and break this bad habit! If anyone wants to do it with me, I'll put the image below.

I've never fasted for more than a day at a time, so if you have any tips or harsh motivation for me, please let me know! I'll try to post updates throughout the days documenting my experience. And, of course,

Stay safe, angels 🪽

Today ~

Vitamins = 15 kcals

Lunch: Spanish rice, mixed vegetables, chia seeds = 437 kcals

Preworkout: lemon loaf slice = 120 kcals

Binge: peanut butter, popcorn, bread with butter, cheese danish, snickers ice cream = 564

Total: 1226 kcals

Burned: 1358 kcals

Net: -132 kcals

I feel so sick. I keep feeling dizzy and binging. I could have drank water or eaten something healthy, but instead i binged and had to burn it all off. The only thing keeping me sane is that a binge nowadays means 1000-1500 calories for the day instead of the 3000 it used to be. I guess it's a side effect of dieting? Anyways, if anyone has any tips to prevent binging, let me know. And, of course,

Stay safe angels 🪽

Today:

Kcal: 1363

Burned: 2363

Net: -1000

I had the worst lethargy today, so I had to eat a LOT more than I wanted. Good thing I'm a dancer!

Also, I'm a little upset the scale hasn't moved in a couple of days, but my abs are starting to show! This is your friendly reminder to take your metabolism days. They help so much! And, of course,

Stay safe angels 🪽