#4n4bir

I've been feeling good recently im in vacation and I have to eat with my family as normal, so basically at least 3 meals a day. At first I was terrified and I gained weight cause I went from 600 kcals to almost 2000 kcals in a tiny amount of time.

But after a little bit of time my weight has been stabilized and I even came back at my weight I was when I was restricting (103 lbs).

Now I feel better, I fuel my body with a good breakfast, with a good lunch, with a good dinner.

I eat healthy and even tho I know its not perfect I like it.

And tbh im definitely not healed im not sure if i could heal one day but I want to keep up with my routine. Im at around 1.600 to 2.000 a day and im very active. I still have a very disordered eating lifestyle cause I weigh and count EVERYTHING, I'm scared when I dont control everything or if I go over my calorie range and i still weigh myself more than 3 times a day while being TERRIFIED by just gaining weight.

So yeah recovery is not perfect and not permanent im not even sure if im recovering but I missed this.. just enjoying food for once ♡♡.