Hey. I realized today that I have definitely overstayed my welcome. In every aspect. Here's some context: the dude I'm crushing on is my brother's best friend, and it's his birthday tomorrow. My brother and I were invited over on Saturday to celebrate his birthday and when I told my brother I was invited too, he immediately asked me if it was a good idea, cuz when I get drunk I get real flirty and close to this boy. I was offended and kind of was like "he gets flirty with me too wtf? He's not the only one I flirt with when I'm drunk anyways? I don't plan to drink anyways cuz I gotta work on Sunday???" and my brother just like deflects everything and just repeats how he thinks I shouldn't go because I get flirty when I drink. So... Maybe I won't go after all. And then it made me feel bad about myself because I'm over here leeching my brother's friends from him, and I need to back off and go find my own friends. And how I need to like, stop hanging around and leeching and being a burden on everyone. I especially need to stop hanging out with this boy. I knew it from the start but now it just hurts cuz it's showing me how stupid I am. I can't even make my own friends. Idk. Maybe I'll just move back to my house and truly isolate myself. I can't make my own friends and I shouldnt bother my brother anymore. I can't wait for the day when I can just off myself. I don't like being alive and being constantly reminded how much of a fuck up I am.
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