Today i overheard a boy in the halls say "i thought i was over her, but then I saw her today and it's like it all hit me. Like, its her, how could i ever let her go?"
And i am sobbing i dont know who that boy is, who he's talking about, or even what he looks like since he was behind me, but i can't stop thinking about it
So now im making it renga bc I can't just sit on this
Renga broke up after the whole dramatic rain scene and basically they never really made up. Reki never went to go see Langa race, so Langa never won against Joe and lost his enthusiasm for skating along with it
Reki, of course, turned in his s pin and never returned. For a while Langa went to S alone hoping to spot reki, but he never did, so eventually he gave up and stopped showing up too.
They still sit next to eachother in class but they dont talk, Reki ignored Langa and after a while Langa stopped trying to start conversation.
They eventually graduate and then they dont ever see eachother again, Reki works full time at dope sketch and Langa works some part time job to help out his mom while he figures out what he wants to do next. When his dad was around he thought he'd probably go pro with his dad as his main support, and then when he quit snowboarding and took up skateboarding he figured hed skate infinitely with reki and figure out the rest from there, now he has nothing and feels lost, like he's just floating around looking for a purpose.
At first he was miserable, but then he felt numb, and eventually he stopped perking up at the sound of wheels on the pavement, hoping that by some miracle thats reki skating his way.
He tells himself he's over it, he may not know what he's doing but hes made friends at work. Sometimes they go out for lunch together, and that's enough for him. Its not like he's isolated or anything. Life doesn't look the same way it did with reki, but he can learn to live with it. He has color in his life, even if it isnt fiery red or clashing neon, there's color to be found.
It takes him months, but a year or so after graduation he has stopped thinking of Reki entirely. He doesn't think of his smile when he sees some stupid meme online, he doesn't come to mind when he sees a stranger wearing a hoodie on the hottest of days, and he definitely doesn't think of reki when he happens to pass by s. He can confidently say he's over him.
And then one day while out shopping for his mom he catches a flash of red hair. At first he doesn't even think twice about it, red has stopped meaning anything to him now, but then he hears a boisterous laugh and his attention is fully diverted towards it. His ears apperantly never got the memo, and they will still always give reki his undivided attention.
Langa feels his heart drop, he cant even continue shopping anymore. He leaves everything in his cart and bolts out the door, he cant get groceries another time anyways.
He doesn't see reki again, but he wants to, he wants to so bad. Its like the year he spent getting over him didn't even happen and he's back to old habits. He looking for bright hoodies that stand out in the crowd, he eyes silly headbands in store displays for a little too long, and he strains to hear the sound of wheels anywhere nearby.
Its as if he's been blind all this time and now he can remember just how much color is missing from his life.